Someone Blow My Mind Vol. Illuminati, 2012, Aliens, Life

I'm 4 months thc free on the 26th. Sometimes I have the urge for it as well but it's diminishing. My mind feels clearer and I noticed an improvement in my short term memory. Why did I stop? I would get lazy and sleepy and I had a difficult time controlling my urge for sweets when high. I do miss it sometimes but I want to keep the streak going. Looking back on it, I stopped as a birthday gift to myself

Ben Roethlisberger said:

My early posts in this thread reflected where I was at spiritually at the time. My ego was temporarily shed and I was always coming from a place of unconditional love and respect for all beings, no matter their state of awareness. Because of that, I feel like I was able to connect with my brothers in this thread and help them as well as helping myself.

As my relationship with cannabis changed from being a spiritual practice that induced insight and happiness to an abuse that induced negative thoughts and judgmental insight, my spiritual practices were hindered and left behind. I still do Yoga and meditate, but not as often and not with the correct intent. Thus, making it hard to get "there".

Because of this, my ego is back and as big as it's ever been. My negative judgmental hypothetical debates with others have clouded my mind yet again. Outwardly, I've become very condenscending. This was actually brought to my attention by a member on Niketalk in different thread. He spoke nothing but the truth, everything I needed to hear, all in a short text.

He IS correct.

I've still been on the path physically. My body is cleaner than its ever been. But my mind is clouded and my spirit (even though I just had an incredible breakthrough on DMT last Wednesday) is locked in the chains of judgement.

I'm going to get better, I'm going to do better. I need to go inward again and come face to face with these ego-demons I am dealing with.

If I was condescending, or judgmental, or rude to anyone in here, I apologize with all my inner being.

I will conquer this.

One love.

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Very few things I respect more than self judgement. Self admittance

I was going to PM my words as a response to this post but I wanted to share aloud, for the thread, on how your "judgement" also affected me, and it's short.

When I first checked this thread it was after a short conversation I had with@hallywoodxo and he thought I'd enjoy it.
He was right, I did, a lot.
I had to follow it for a few months without posting because of the rules or what not.
By the time I could post, I'd read enough to see that the overall temperature of the thread followed your line and how you felt.
By the time I could post, I didn't feel like I had a voice unless I followed or accented what topic you drove for that day, or week.
So I lurked and picked and read certain posters until I was so jaded at the whole thread in general(me judging as a whole) that I read nobody.
One day I made a smart *** remark about what I felt about the thread and green rhino123 gave me some words of encouragement, so I stuck around.

Thanks green mate, for those words.
Thanks Ben, for your post. Ton of respect mate.

I'm not happy to see others have attachments to weed, but it is comforting to know I'm not alone in this. 4 months is legit. wizards23 . Again, it's not the act of doing things that are bad for our spirit, it's our attachment to it.

You can abuse anything. It's all about balance,

a-friend my apologies. It was never a conscious effort to do **** like that. We all have something to bring to the table and learn from one another.

What's up, fellas.

Ben, I know exactly what you're talking about. Although, I wouldn't say my ego came back rather it's always been there but contained. You got to learn how to use your ego and not let it used you. Just like human emotions are tools and so our egos that will shape us individually. I feel like I've drifted away from my inner self a bit and I think that's a good thing. I realized that I'm still here ( space and time ) and I should have balance between space/time and time/space. I still have lots to experience in this life time and I shouldn't feel anxious on ascending to higher consciousness. I often think back when I really found myself "connected" and it was one of the amazing experienced in this life time I ever had. I woke up one morning, happy; I mean just happy and I felt like everything around was "connected." I mean I feel like "it." The feeling lasted for a full day. I drove around listening to music, went to the gym interacted with people, went hiking, road my mountain bike and watched the sunset. I felt like everything was new and it's all temporary. Matter didn't matter, I was care free for a full day with lots of emotions. I wish I can described it a lot better with words but unfortunately language is limited. I guess my point is that our spiritual connection with "the world out, there out there" (time/space) will give us the motivation to carry on with our life and hopefully towards positive vibration. As a Wanderer, I'm beginning to understand.

Ben Roethlisberger said:

Can I ask what made you stop?

Tomorrow will be a month since I last smoked, not counting what I sandwiched the DMT with.

In my life I've given up all junk food, meat, cheese, gluten, wheat, soda, etc. and weed has been the hardest. Everything else was easy, but weed for some reason had a hold of me. I think it's because the relationship I built with the sacred herb was very personal for me. It lead to a lot revelations and genuinely helped me on my spiritual path.

I know some will say, "dude, its just weed", and I tried telling myself that before, too. But it was something much more to me. Like I said, it was a spiritual ritual that turned into an abusive habit. I went from once a day before my meditation to all day every day and stopped meditating. It all depends on your awareness, your mindset and your intent.

Good luck to you on yours man.

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Please excuse my long post.

I grew up in a small southern town of Oklahoma and never consumed cannabis until I was 19 years old. I felt like it opened me up to so many things, so many thoughts and ideas that I had never pursued before. I can honestly say my spiritual path began or rather consciously began as a result of my cannabis usage. I also have many health issues that it helped me with, most notably my blood pressure. Eventually I became a regular user which turned into becoming an abuser.It took me a long time to be honest with myself and realize that yes it did give me the initial push but now it had become a hindrance in my own evolution. I would always have wonderful insights into myself, my life and the world in general while I was under the influence then more or less forget about all that while I was sober the rest of the day. Then I would find myself wanting for that feeling, that idea of a better space for myself. I was chasing that feeling instead of trying to find the source of that feeling.

I never really noticed any negative physical side-effects. I certainly noticed myself becoming more judgmental of others, much quicker to become angered as well. These issues mainly happened while I was sober, then that feeling of "I need to get high" to get these thoughts out of my mind would come along. I started to wonder what affect this chemical was having on my energy body. I now live in LA, and eventually met a true, authentic African Shaman. In our first conversation he mentioned my usage as if he somehow knew. He did not judge my usage yet he let me know it was not in my best interest either. After a few months of hanging around him I eventually made the decision on my own to stop smoking. I had not seen this man for at least a month after my initial stoppage then met up with him one day to catch up on life. The very first thing he said to me when I got out of my car? "Ahhh! PurpleClouds, I see you are no longer using those chemicals!" I had never told him of my plan to stop nor did I ever see him during that month long abstinence. I know this man is a healer, I know he has abilities I currently have not activated within myself, and I truly believe at the very least he can see auras. How else would he have immediately known I had stopped using cannabis other than the effect it has having on my energy body? That was a huge wake up call for me. Yet, that was over a year ago and I let life get to me and went back to using/abusing again.

Then last month I was reading a book about a woman who had a Near-Death Experience while suffering from cancer. I can't even recall the exact words I read but as soon as my eyes saw those words it felt like something clicked. I immediately sat up, walked into the kitchen, found my stash and trashed over an ounce of California's finest. It felt amazing to do that. It felt like I was pulling a beast off my back. Many other times I had told myself I was going to quit or whatever. You know the whole, "well I should finish this stash THEN quit," I would always tell myself. We all have had a similar conversation with ourselves at least once regarding some vice. This time was truly different. This time it felt like a decision I made for myself from the deepest part of my being. It felt authentic.

Over the next few days it was as if the universe was dropping little hints into my life that I had made the correct choice, the best choice…for myself. Are you familiar with John of God? I had heard of him many times before but this time I was particularly interested on his thoughts regarding cannabis usage so I searched. What I found only strengthened my choice. Again, a mystic whom I feel a connection to by the name of Sadhguru has a video discussing marijuana usage and everything he said in that video had me like "that's me, that is definitely me." These are things that helped me see it was time for ME to stop. I don't deny cannabis has served a great function in my life…up to this point anyway. I do not deny it's medicinal qualities nor do I think smoking it on occasion will have the same detrimental effects of daily usage that clearly affects the energy body. I also believe it has served it's purpose in my life. I must now let it go if I am to grow.

These three things have helped me in understanding my desire to let cannabis go.

 When it comes to transcending deep-seated problems, Heather said, one of the keys is the willingness to change even your most entrenched habits—your less-than-healthful behaviors, your unhappy job, your impossible schedule—to let go of anything that is holding you back. Far from being a relief, such radical change is almost always scary.
"The Entities like spiritual obedience," Heather said. In the past, the Entities had made many colorful requests, all of them intended to facilitate an individual's well-being. They'd told people to write books, get their pilot's license, stop smoking—in particular, quit it with the pot. "The Entities hate marijuana," Heather told me. "They say the people who smoke it have dense, red auras. It takes about a year for their systems to heal." Visitors are often requested to return to the Casa multiple times. One man was told to remain in Abadiânia "indefinitely." He did.

"When they operate on you in Western medicine, they might take out some organ, but they don't take out the reason why you got sick," Zsolt said. "What happens here is that you get a whole transformation." This doesn't happen, however, with the wave of a magic wand. Daily meditation, changing habits, improving diets, upgrading mind-sets: All are required. "The Entity does maybe 60 percent," he added. "But the rest you have to do yourself."

http://www.oprah.com/spirit/Spiritual-Healer-John-of-God-Susan-Casey

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Good post brother

Purple clouds.. We pretty much have the same story... Minus the shaman lol.

Sadhguru has helped me in many things along my journey, especially with that video on cannabis. And I know cannabis has served it's purpose in my life and it's time to move on to the next stage. Being able to access that love and clarity without the help of the sacred herb, like I used to do. Mainly with meditation.

Where in Cali are you from?

Party Arty verse @ 2:22 resonates for some reason

R.I.P.

Ben Roethlisberger said:

Purple clouds.. We pretty much have the same story... Minus the shaman lol.

Sadhguru has helped me in many things along my journey, especially with that video on cannabis. And I know cannabis has served it's purpose in my life and it's time to move on to the next stage. Being able to access that love and clarity without the help of the sacred herb, like I used to do. Mainly with meditation.

Where in Cali are you from?

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Haha maaan, I feel like that Shaman was truly a lifesaver for me. It's probably been a year since I last spoke with him but I am sure the universe will assist in our paths crossing again if it is needed.

I don't even remember how I found Sadhguru on YouTube. I felt so relieved to have this eastern mystic speaking in ways that I could understand. I have always had an interest in India, specifically Sri Rama, Paramhansa Yogananda and Swami Vivekananda. Even though I was vibing with their teachings there was still a layer of separation due to the generational gap. Many of the things they speak of are timeless yet much of their writings and lectures were meant for people of another century. With Sadhguru I feel like he understands the issues facing many people of today on their spiritual journey. He's not saying anything new or revolutionary but he is saying it in a way I can comprehend and that is most important to my learning.

I moved to Pasadena in 2011. I don't know what it is about this place but it's the first place I have ever lived that truly feels like "home." I plan on staying here at least until I finish school around 2018. I'm not sure I will or even want to live here forever but I know it's where I need to be right now. Do you live in California too?

Don't really post here, but I peaked in here the other day and saw a joe rogan podcast someone posted(joe rogan is the man) with Randall carlson which was extremely fascinating and it has opened the flood gates of curiosity for me. After I watched that it lead me to Graham hancock who is one hell of a interesting dude; Even purchased his book "fingerprints of the gods" and currently reading it.


Ty to whoever posted that Joe rogan podcast because my mind has been blown from everything I've dived into and you might have changed my life.

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That's actually a funny prank haha.

Isis=CIA

red80 said:

Don't really post here, but I peaked in here the other day and saw a joe rogan podcast someone posted(joe rogan is the man) with Randall carlson which was extremely fascinating and it has opened the flood gates of curiosity for me. After I watched that it lead me to Graham hancock who is one hell of a interesting dude; Even purchased his book "fingerprints of the gods" and currently reading it.


Ty to whoever posted that Joe rogan podcast because my mind has been blown from everything I've dived into and you might have changed my life.

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you're welcome, I'm glad somebody got something from that.


thats what its all about.
I've been blessed to be put on to all kinds of stuff by the nt brethren.

I gotta go back and read the last few pages when I get home. Always happy to see this type of discussion continued. Props to everybody for disseminating the seeds of truth and getting others to think.

broke through again last night. been having the best thoughts today.

Peace to everyone. All love.

Hope you're all having an amazing week.

PurpleClouds said:

Haha maaan, I feel like that Shaman was truly a lifesaver for me. It's probably been a year since I last spoke with him but I am sure the universe will assist in our paths crossing again if it is needed.

I don't even remember how I found Sadhguru on YouTube. I felt so relieved to have this eastern mystic speaking in ways that I could understand. I have always had an interest in India, specifically Sri Rama, Paramhansa Yogananda and Swami Vivekananda. Even though I was vibing with their teachings there was still a layer of separation due to the generational gap. Many of the things they speak of are timeless yet much of their writings and lectures were meant for people of another century. With Sadhguru I feel like he understands the issues facing many people of today on their spiritual journey. He's not saying anything new or revolutionary but he is saying it in a way I can comprehend and that is most important to my learning.

I moved to Pasadena in 2011. I don't know what it is about this place but it's the first place I have ever lived that truly feels like "home." I plan on staying here at least until I finish school around 2018. I'm not sure I will or even want to live here forever but I know it's where I need to be right now. Do you live in California too?

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That's awesome man. Isn't it crazy how at a certain point within your progression of awareness you can look back at your journey and really connect all the dots? As if it really is by some grand design.

My friend put me on to Osho which lead me to finding Sadhguru. So real. So down to earth. You can see it in their eyes that they are not frauds.

I'm actually up in Norcal near Oakland. I go to San Diego to visit my cousin a few times a year, though.

Ben you're near Oakland?! I must learn from you personally lol. But I just came in to tell you thanks for the book recommendation of 3 Pillars of Zen. It does seem a little over my head and I just started it. Typing this and reading this on Bart right now lol. But with the first book, Zen Buddhism in general, it's helping me finally have a fighting chance with the war inside my head known as severe depression and anxiety I've been having for a year now. I've only just given up drinking and smoking the famous herb for the past month because my condition has progressively gotten worse as of recently and this helps a lot. It's soothing to me. It may not be much but I feel announcing that I'm still in my baby steps is better than lying saying I get everything.

I was at the barber shop earlier and they was watching this video about organ trafficking and the recent murders in the media. I ment to get the name of it

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I was at the barber shop earlier and they was watching this video about organ trafficking and the recent murders in the media. I ment to get the name of it

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For those that dabble in psychedelics, or are interested in general great conversation listen to these podcast episodes with dennis mckenna as the guest in both, great mind blowing conversations.

http://potentbrew.net/post/55200554572/interview-with-dennis-mckenna

http://mindrollingpodcast.com/dennis-mckenna/

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I was at the barber shop earlier and they was watching this video about organ trafficking and the recent murders in the media. I ment to get the name of it

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