Confessions

Jesus Christ man. Where were your parents when you decided to drop a scholarship for a girl? Gotta be someone to check that young naivete. I'm staying on nt just so I can see your post 5 yrs from now.

Man reach out to that athletic department again ASAP and sell yourself like a mother ******.
What he said!
 
Thanks for the responses.. Like I said, it was a dumb decision.. A wise man told me just make stupid decisions, don't make SUPER DUPER STUPID decisions.. This was by far the dumbest thing I did..

As one poster said, she is my first love..

I'm one of those people that think things happen for a reason, better or worse.. Now just live with the decision..( Or should I be calling that coach and asking him can I still have the opporunity).. Only down side to the school was they didn't offer one the majors that I wanted to pursue.. Also very small..
 
 
Well today's the deadline to submit my deposit for my fall semester at a different school, which I've already done. Unless I have some change of heart in the next few hours I'll be transferring. My orientation is on Tuesday.

The main reason I'm making this decision is because I don't have a very realistic shot of getting into the business school at the school I spent my first two years at. My grades were slightly below what I needed to get in and this upcoming semester would've had me taking hard prerequisites which likely would've lowered my GPA more. What pushed me to make the decision was the C+ I got in one of my business classes, when I needed to get a B. I got Bs on all my tests, an 100% on assignments, and above the class average on the final. Thing is the class average on the final was a 53% and my professor refused to curve it so I got a C+. 
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My other option was to pursue a communications major which I took the prerequisites for last semester and was admitted into the major. I couldn't help but feel that it was selling myself short because it somewhat has the reputation of a joke major and because my peers in my communications classes were far below my peers in my business classes academically. Business is huge at the school and some rankings have them in the top 30 in the nation. I had some friends switch into an even easier major just so they could party all of the time and I felt that taking the easy route out wasn't smart long-term and that I needed to get a good degree.

When I talked with friends at other schools, some of them would tell me how easy it was to get into their respective business programs. That started my thinking that I should transfer to a good school (a little less of one than the one I spent my first two years at) where their business program had more lenient requirements for admission into the major. I checked out a local school that is only 15 minutes away from home and one that I was accepted to as a senior back in high school. Their requirements were easier and I am pretty sure I can meet them. I ended up applying there and getting in and now I'm looking to take that next step in transferring.

I can't help but feel that I've failed to a certain extent. While many of my peers were also forced to switch majors, there were several who were admitted into the business program for this upcoming fall semester. Now I'll be transferring to a school that I could have gotten into with even less effort than the very low amount I put forth in high school. Not that it's a bad school by any means, but it's just below the level of the schools that my friends and peers go to who I think I was most comparable to academically. I'll probably be living at home for a semester or two and then will probably look for an apartment with some friends for my senior year. I'm not sure how I feel about living at home during the school year again since my parents and I can get into some bad fights sometimes. On the other hand, I also feel that they will push and motivate me in the same way they did back in high school and while it could be annoying, my main priority right now is to focus on school and to get my grades up so it'll help.

I am also a little excited about the transition. My GPA wasn't bad, but now it's reset and I can start fresh. I also have some friends (none close friends though) who go there so it's not like I won't know anyone. I wasn't exactly happy at the school I spent my first two years at and I'm hoping that I will be more happy here. I am most excited/anxious about trying to prove myself and get admitted into a business program which has been my academic goal all along.
Reminds me of what happened to me.  You'll be happy with your decision to transfer.  I was at a decent school with a good business school that required a 3.25 GPA to get in...I ended up with a 3.10 and couldn't get in.  Ended up considering a communications major just like you but instead opted to transfer to a more prestigious school with less stringent requirements for the business school.  I couldn't be happier with the decision I made to transfer and I'm sure you will feel the same way. Crazy your story is pretty much the same exact track I was on 3 years ago. 
 
I don't even feel bad for Lil homie. Vagina would've been knocking down your door but ya gave it, and a free ride, up for a thot. That's a damn shame.
 
Reminds me of what happened to me.  You'll be happy with your decision to transfer.  I was at a decent school with a good business school that required a 3.25 GPA to get in...I ended up with a 3.10 and couldn't get in.  Ended up considering a communications major just like you but instead opted to transfer to a more prestigious school with less stringent requirements for the business school.  I couldn't be happier with the decision I made to transfer and I'm sure you will feel the same way. Crazy your story is pretty much the same exact track I was on 3 years ago. 
Thanks for the post it's definitely reassuring because I've been second guessing myself for a while now. Yeah it is crazy how similar our situations are. 
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My biggest thing is that I don't want to end up regretting the move, but since there's the chance I could be happier here and more successful I feel like I can only go up from where I was at. I just have to make sure to work hard and take advantage of this opportunity.
 
So the question is now is what do you plan to do?

Contacted the coach from Oklahoma Panhandle( school that offered me) told me I would have to sit out a year if I went there.. Not really felling that considering I already didn't play this last season..

So the plan is to just stay at East Texas Baptist and play this season.. Then hope the school grows more on me with the football season.. If so stay there and graduate..

If It doesn't grow on me, then I will just go to Tech( have visited numerous times and like it there) and graduate from there..

Once again thanks for the replies.. Live and learn..
 
So the question is now is what do you plan to do?

Contacted the coach from Oklahoma Panhandle( school that offered me) told me I would have to sit out a year if I went there.. Not really felling that considering I already didn't play this last season..

So the plan is to just stay at East Texas Baptist and play this season.. Then hope the school grows more on me with the football season.. If so stay there and graduate..

If It doesn't grow on me, then I will just go to Tech( have visited numerous times and like it there) and graduate from there..

Once again thanks for the replies.. Live and learn..
Ain't nun wrong with that plan good luck my homie
 
Had a wave of feels yesterday reflecting in my relationship with my dad. I wish it was better between us. I'll always leave the door open for us to repair our relationship and for it to be healthy. Too bad he's a stubborn man. I've learned a lot from our relationship though. The method I had to learn it sucks though. Also made me think about a family of my own. Not even sure if it will happen but who knows?

I hate going out sometimes. I have a keloid scar that I can't hide and I just shut down and get quiet and angry when I get stared it. It's annoying. My mom tells me to not pay attention, but how can you ignore constant stares and people pointing for a good portion of the day? From her, all I want is for her to understand how I feel when I'm out. I'm not looking for a "solution" necessarily. Every day isn't like that, but I do have bad days where I don't want to be bothered with the ********. I mostly get looked at by kids, but there are ignorant adults that stare, tap their friends and point. It's very irritating. When I go out I have a very mean look on my face, even though I'm not in a bad mood. I'm nice person, but there is a certain level of rage I have when people stare. 
 
That seems beyond annoying beh235 beh235 , have you ever went off on someone who stared too long ?

Also curious to know if the scar has bothered you to the point where you ever thought about possible solution?
 
 
Had a wave of feels yesterday reflecting in my relationship with my dad. I wish it was better between us. I'll always leave the door open for us to repair our relationship and for it to be healthy. Too bad he's a stubborn man. I've learned a lot from our relationship though. The method I had to learn it sucks though. Also made me think about a family of my own. Not even sure if it will happen but who knows?

I hate going out sometimes. I have a keloid scar that I can't hide and I just shut down and get quiet and angry when I get stared it. It's annoying. My mom tells me to not pay attention, but how can you ignore constant stares and people pointing for a good portion of the day? From her, all I want is for her to understand how I feel when I'm out. I'm not looking for a "solution" necessarily. Every day isn't like that, but I do have bad days where I don't want to be bothered with the ********. I mostly get looked at by kids, but there are ignorant adults that stare, tap their friends and point. It's very irritating. When I go out I have a very mean look on my face, even though I'm not in a bad mood. I'm nice person, but there is a certain level of rage I have when people stare. 
awww damn sorry bro, 
 
That seems beyond annoying @beh235 , have you ever went off on someone who stared too long ?

Also curious to know if the scar has bothered you to the point where you ever thought about possible solution?
I have had it removed twice, each time it grew back bigger. It's hard to treat, but I want to try a doctor that MIGHT have a solution. Idk. I don't go off on people that stare too much, I'm afraid of what the outcome might be if I did, but my girl and my mom have said stuff to people while I was out with them. You can see it a bit in the pics I've posted tho.

Thanks @Lolcomin
 
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That seems beyond annoying [@=/u/37226/beh235]@beh235[/@] , have you ever went off on someone who stared too long ?


Also curious to know if the scar has bothered you to the point where you ever thought about possible solution?
I have had it removed twice, each time it grew back bigger. It's hard to treat, but I want to try a doctor that MIGHT have a solution. Idk. I don't go off on people that stare too much, I'm afraid of what the outcome might be if I did, but my girl and my mom have said stuff to people while I was out with them. You can see it a bit in the pics I've posted tho.

oh wow, i didnt know it grows back...how long have you had it for, if you dont mind me asking...
 
 
 
That seems beyond annoying @@beh235 , have you ever went off on someone who stared too long ?


Also curious to know if the scar has bothered you to the point where you ever thought about possible solution?
I have had it removed twice, each time it grew back bigger. It's hard to treat, but I want to try a doctor that MIGHT have a solution. Idk. I don't go off on people that stare too much, I'm afraid of what the outcome might be if I did, but my girl and my mom have said stuff to people while I was out with them. You can see it a bit in the pics I've posted tho.
oh wow, i didnt know it grows back...how long have you had it for, if you dont mind me asking...
since I was 18 months old
 
 
im still waitin on those tim shepherd stories
Me too breh
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I'm more than ready for the lulz.
Damn, I just saw this. My bad. Landlord had the internet out for 8 days and 9 nights SMH.

I didn't know if ya'll still wanted to know about Budden and his stripper adventures that's why I didn't say it. I thought it'd be random confessing something about another ***** lol  (Not that I care or anything)
 
im still waitin on those tim shepherd stories
Look up lol
 
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Hope you be ight AgentZero AgentZero I remember a little bit about you wanting to do something with, I think, sports writing?

Never thought you'd actually feel that way beh235 beh235 . I've done my fair share of staring at people with Keloid scars but never laughed, I was more fascinated at how it could grow/develop on a person and now I kind of feel bad b/c maybe I made those people feel some way. :wow: I have a very minuscule Keloid in my ear from one of the times I had an earring, still wish it wasn't there though. :\ I hope you can maybe find some good treatment homie.

Postem up. @TimShepard
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Sometimes I wish I could just disappear from my family for about a year to see if they actually love me or not, and just get a little more perspective of the world. I go back and forth on wanting to be on wanting to live by myself or not a lot, kind of scared of living alone tbt. :lol:
 
Got ya'll tomorrow, got a doc appointment at 8, gotta go to sleep. I'll post tomorrow afternoon or something though. This should be interesting.
 
 
plastic surgery, cortisone shots. None have been effective.
Have you tried SRT?
What is that?
Never thought you'd actually feel that way @beh235. I've done my fair share of staring at people with Keloid scars but never laughed, I was more fascinated at how it could grow/develop on a person and now I kind of feel bad b/c maybe I made those people feel some way.
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I have a very minuscule Keloid in my ear from one of the times I had an earring, still wish it wasn't there though.
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I hope you can maybe find some good treatment homie.
 
Yeah, well it's internal. I can't hide my scars at all, so it can be rough some days. And yeah, you may be staring in fascination but it can be perceived at being really rude and disrespectful. The best thing to do in that situation is to ask a question. I know people are afraid to do this, but it's better than just staring at a person and making them feel like a side show attraction. 
 
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