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After another long Father's day, and many "happy father's day" later, I sit here at 3am wishing the one man I wanted to say it to, was here. After leaving my mom and family years ago on bad terms, I have tried to tell myself I didn't need him in my life, and although ultimately I can get by without him just fine, I wish he was here and in my life. Now an adult in my mid 20's, there have been plenty of times in which I could have really used his advice. I find myself being envious of people who have theirs fathers in my life, and I hate that about myself. Sometimes I wish he was here just so I could have a cold beer with him. I regret not spending more time with him growing up, and it's time I'll never get back. I regret being spiteful towards him. I regret being judgmental towards him. I wish I could turn back the hands of time and just talk to him, spend time with him. Unfortunately I can't and one day he'll pass away and I'll be left with a heart full of regret. I miss my dad.
Sorry for blabbering guys, it's just something I can't tell anybody I know but had to get off my chest.
Sorry for blabbering guys, it's just something I can't tell anybody I know but had to get off my chest.