Guys, four years and half years ago I had a girl (we were really good friends) get in my truck asking me if I had any condoms for the night. We were on the way to homecoming and she wanted to make sure we were "safe" afterwards. We ended up not having sex.Over the course of these four and a half years we hanged out, made out, and she even let me finger and eat her out. It was nice. and TWO years ago on the ride home from a Mexican club she had asked me if I were DTF. Somehow , someway I lost (word to the Cowboys
) and ended up not getting laid. I felt so unmanly at the time.
During this time period girls came and went . Some I got really close to some not some much. Either way I was the laughing stock of my group for being a virgin.
Quite depressing honestly. The sadder part was no matter what I did or how I did it I just couldn't get laid. I always found a way to " **** " out. I'm not sure why but looking back I think I was scared of sex. I was scared of not being good, not being big enough, not pleasing her. and the list goes on.
It was so bad that I also once had a hot blond chick ask me if I wanted to sleep in her bed for the night. I was to the point where I couldn't drive because I was heavily intoxicated but all that night she was being really flirty with. Some how , some way I ended up saying no
. I posted about this is TAN NOV'DEC of 2012 if Ya'll want the full story.
Well everything changed last night fellas. There's this girl I had been talking to off of POF and I randomly asked her if she wanted to chill since none of my "friends" had hmu last night
. Super cute white chick and thick af to. Anyways we go to the movies and come back. On the way to her home she mentions that her grandma is asleep. I grew some balls then proceeded to ask her if she had any good movie and that since it was getting cold we could cuddle up and watch movies. She agreed and on the rest of the ride I felt so ALPHA.
We ended up watching some corny comedy from the 00's and midway things we started getting closer and closer. In the movie she was making fun of the gay dude who played a cheerleader and along with her I did as well
( i'm all for gay rights btw but I felt like if I didn't poke fun I wouldn't of got anywhere). Anyways I asked her if she would still be my friend if I were that flamboyant. She said you're already gay! I laughed pretty hard and stared her straight into her eyes and told her " let me prove you wrong". Boom, next thing you know we are making out like we were madly in love. Then about 5 minutes later I was at the point I wanted to be for all of my teen years. I was on top of her with no clothes on with ner legs spread wide open in front of me. The rest is history guys. I came out of her room with a new sense of confidence. A NEW me almost. I was so full of adrenaline that my legs were shaking so bad. As a 21 year old male I lost my virginity last night. Something I've been trying to do since the age of 16. I've never felt so accomplished and disappointed in myself at the same time. All this time I had put it on a pedestal .... ALL THIS ******G TIME
What a great way year to start the year though. HERE'S TO 2014 ! THE YEAR OF THE YAMBS!!!!!!!!!!!!!