I live a life of solitude.

I can some what relate to this topic.

I only have about 5 friends and I use that term loosely. Like my momma always told me their is no such things as real friends.

Now and days I see myself just staying home or just catching a nice quiet dinner with my girl. Heck I don't even go out on the weekends because I can't handle crowds and the peoples daily crap.
 
I live this life partly by choice and partly by circumstances. I grew close to an army housing complex that shut down so learning that relationships come and go was done at any early age. Plus I'm not really interested in the drinking bar scene so most of the time I relax, draw or watch a couple movies. Sometimes I like it and sometimes I hate it but the area I live in is a bit of a ghost town.
 
i was thinking about going to a game by myself like its whatever... minuswhale catch a yankee game while jeter still playing


I real life feel like somedays going to an art museum or exhibit by myself and just analyze, articulate and enjoy my own company. Is that living life or is that a one way ticket to loserville

I've done both, alone. I went to almost an entire season of my college's home b-ball games (D2) alone, just brought my ipod or ipad, listened to music, browsed NT etc. :lol: No one ever talked to me or gave me an odd look. If I ever make enough money I would/will sit court-side by myself at an NBA game if no one else wanted to go w/ me :lol:


Went to MOCA by myself 2 summers ago, saw an awesome exhibit of street art, including banksy's work, got lunch after at one of my favorite restaurants.

Last week I had a pretty busy work week, my friend/acquaintance was busy in OC, I didn't want to stay home on a saturday night so I just went out to starbucks at night for a lil bit, then went to a nice sushi/yakitori restaurant, sat at the bar and enjoyed a delicious meal + Sapporo, talked to the chef a little bit, brought my ipad too so I was watching ESPN highlights, in a way it's just like doing what you're doing at home(eating, drinking & watching sports :lol: ), but not while your home. dropped about $24 on that meal too, it's good to reward yourself.

I'm dating a girl now though, so the only thing I'll probably do alone is shopping & going to the gym :lol:
 
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Some people were just made to wander life on their own. Even as I wrote that I couldn't help feeling some sadness about that statement. I can say from my standpoint, many if not all of the well-developed countries of the world favor people being extroverts because it outsells what introverts could bring to the table. It's more glamorous.

I wish that waking up in your own time, watching t.v. in your own time, going places by yourself and wandering around and then coming home could be glammed up, but it is what it is.

What I think introverts do is that we cultivate our own pocket universe inside our heads where we find a lot of tranquility in. Maybe our physical reality is not what we thought it would be so we developed another life inside of us as a defense mechanism to help us stave off depression (or much of it), anxiety, phobia, etc.

Being an introvert is fascinating ****.

For me personally, I just don't want solitude to end up as loneliness.

Aye, I feel you a lot on this my dude.

I still feel part of the reason I like being by myself is so I don't get let down as much when I want to go out and do something but that person you want to go with you can't go and then it's like "...damn". Plus I've had a lot of people I grew up with go in and out of my life. Iono sometimes I feel I just don't belong.
 
As a person who likes to be by himself, I've never liked the term introvert, I do so many things by myself, but don't really mind being around people; like I don't feel any anxiety or anything, I barely get annoyed with people. I just enjoi being on my own, I enjoi being with people...idk what I am.

You just described introversion. You're mixing up what it means to be shy and what it means to be an introvert. Someone who has the tendency to avoids strangers, social contact, or settings out of anxiety or discomfort is shy. When that anxiety or fear is intense in someone its called social anxiety. Someone who hates people(literally), and prefers being alone would be considered a misanthrope.
 
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I feel alot of people who are just shy are confused with being "different".
 
I like walking late at night or to the store and when I'm going to meet up with the tree man

Hearing nothing but the wind and the few cars driving on the highway
Perfect time to listen to some chill music too
 
I wish there were times I wasn't so wrapped up in my own thoughts and problems, it has alienated from a lot of people in my life.

I also deal with 99% of my problems internally, which has led to an inability (or unwillingness) to express emotions like grief, anger, or sadness in a normal way to others. I've been called cold and callous because in a situation where everyone else is crying, like a funeral, my eyes are dry as a desert. I'm sad on the inside but for some reason can't get myself to show it externally, especially in public
 
I wish there were times I wasn't so wrapped up in my own thoughts and problems, it has alienated from a lot of people in my life.

I also deal with 99% of my problems internally, which has led to an inability (or unwillingness) to express emotions like grief, anger, or sadness in a normal way to others. I've been called cold and callous because in a situation where everyone else is crying, like a funeral, my eyes are dry as a desert. I'm sad on the inside but for some reason can't get myself to show it externally, especially in public

Same..I feel you dude
 
At this point, I don't know why I even own a cell phone.....
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that video was on point.
im okay with being a lone right now..
someone will come eventually just gettin money right now..
 
being alone is fine. Im alone in my head all the time. I have a hard time reaching out and/or calling people. I text so I can keep listening to music. 
i feel like i have been alone forever. I dont mind tho, its peacful and I know how to get along with myself and thoughts. I think its cause when I was
18 i had to do 8 months in jail. 

anyways, i like being around people and laughing, its just a lot better alone. uninhibited.
also i like being around people cause you can drink and its acceptable. drinking alone is looked down upon so i dont do it. 
 
only phone call i get are from my moms and every now and then i get a text :smh:... its good for the internet i guess
 
Me too, breh. :lol: :frown:
That was Hey Arnold. Search 'Pigeon Man' && it should come up. It's pretty deep, looking back on that episode.

Repped, just watched the 2min YouTube video and so much good quotes from it :pimp:
 
This weekend, I hopped in my car and drove over to Berkeley to watch a free concert (Souls of Mischief / CMG). I invited my boy but he had plans, but I was like f it I ain't gonna miss out on this. I woke up that morning and was like, alright I'ma hit the concert, get this CD signed by Souls of Mischief.

And it went exactly as planned.. nothing holding me back :pimp:.
 
Sitting on bench alone by a bus stop, watching and listening to people pass by with their friends and  just thinking about life, made me remember this thread

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I stopped going on social media altogether. I need a break from it. At the end of the day 99% of the posts,tweets, etc are of things I don't care about from people I don't care about.
 
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