I feel like Entertainment and online media played a huge part of finding my cultural identity.
I was in high school and jr high when Youtube first became huge. I'm talking like the very first NigaHiga video, TimothyDelaGhetto's Channel being banned, Lonelygirl15 ish.
I grew up in a white neighborhood, and I immediately knew I was different when some punk *** kid in kindergarden kept calling me Chinese.
I'm Filipino btw, but I was confused as a kid cause I didn't know what tf was going on. School kids can be so cruel.
But typical Asian kid, white neighborhood stuff, only Asian kid in class. Everyone expected me to be a genius and I crushed on white girls who wouldn't give me the time of day.
Seeing these dudes on Youtube was a shock to me. It was weird because my white friends were even showing me KevJumba videos.
At that point it was cool to see that there were people like me who had the same type of problems and ****.
Also this was about the same time as America's Best Dance Crew and Jabbawockeez and Kaba Modern were like the Asian messiahs.
(Yes, I was a Jabbawockeez for Halloween one year...)
This was also the time I discovered Tumblr and there grew my hatred toward Filipinos.
2009, the days of Asian Tumblr girls and super hypebeast Filipinos who wore foxtails and tight jean vests.
I felt betrayed by my own people, as this was around the same time I became interested in sneakers/streetwear.
The only other Filipino kid at my school was the epitome of the Hypebeast Tumblr dude, and he would dance around anywhere he could show off his finger tutting.....
Me on the other hand, I was a quite kid, but it was like 2009 so Gucci and WFF were at the top of my playlist, I played Violin in orchestra and played Tennis.
This other Filipina who also was in orchestra was obnoxious, loud, and took every opportunity she had to show off.
I remember this Chinese dude complaining about how all these Filipinos just want the attention.
And that's where my self-hatred for Filipinos was really solidified. The dude was right, all these tumblr ***, loud ***, attention loving, Filipinos trying to hog the spotlight.
Eventually I went to college where I got a lot more involved in Filipino culture and Asian culture in general and I learned to stop hating on my own people.
I met a lot of other Filipinos who were just like me, and I realized that Filipinos (and all other races) are very diverse. There is more to us than what we are spoon-fed.
This is why we need more exposure in media outlets. The only representation of Filipinos was everything I hated about them embodied into two people and a board filled with images of scrubs.
Youtube was an interesting outlet for Asian Americans, but again, the only Filipinos at the time were all corny.
In fact, I think all Asian youtubers are corny to an extent, but it's better than nothing. I follow the Fung Bros a lot, and even though they're corny, at least they're there.
Although I feel like the golden age of Asian Youtube is dying down. As youtube becomes more corporate like and sponsored by big names, they are allowed to push their own agendas.
There are less new Asian youtube stars and more white youtube stars who are dominating the front page (Grace Heilbeg, Tyler Oakley, etc.)
If you think about it, the only Asian youtubers who are still around have mostly been here since day 1 of youtube.
It's hard for another dude to come up because youtube only cares about pushing profitable white people.
Also random, do you guys ever realize how every Asian beauty youtube girl has a foreign white boyfriend? (Michelle Phan, Jen Im, etc.)
Also if there are any Asian youtube channels you guys follow lemme know cause I'm always down to support my people.