some people dont have the patience to be alone
This track deff speaks to me man.
I worked in retail but I never put on a "face" maybe thats why I got canned from all my jobs . But I will say this being in that environment led me to full blown alcoholism. So much so I was pounding personal of Jameson right before a 9:00 am shift. Popping pills. Drinking throughout the day and as soon as I clocked out buying some more drank. Rinse and repeat. Stop it, do it one day. It's corny but try one day. See how you feel. Don't drink. You have to start somewhere, no one else will do it for you. I never thought I'd be able to stop drinking but I have, some bumps in the road but I've stopped. Here is to the next chapter.
Take a piece of paper. Put two separate lists: one side write things down you have to be appreciative/happy about. On the other side, write down what's making you feel down and/or worthless. Share some of it with us and I bet we'll be able to help you set short term and long term goals.
In the mean time, clean up your diet (make sure you're eating plenty of fruits/veggies). Also, step away from your TV and computer for at least a few hours. Get outside. Go do something like feed ducks at a pond or go to a pet store/kennel. Serious. Hit the gym or go for a run while listening to upbeat/motivational music. Stretch or do yoga to something relaxing music. Get a massage. Go volunteer at a soup kitchen. Clean your entire house/apartment. Read a book like "The Alchemist" or "Tuesdays with Morrie."