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some days are better than others
Official Depression thread
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Depression shouldn't be able to leave you. you can't be "cured" from it. When someone says they were depressed about something they just had a low moment in their lives to me. They struggled, been down and finally things pick up. Now what if everything looks ok, job, family, love life (if you wish) and still you look at the sun and see an eclipse above you and only you? It sucks man. You want to cry about anything until you can't cry anymore but you would like some reasoning behind it but can't find it. crying for the sake of crying. You get help to find that the chemicals the pills give work but if you talk about this subject instead of breaking down in front of your friends or family you have a smile on your face when you say "I don't want to be here anymore". the meds can twist your emotions towards yourself and what the public sees you but they can't hide the thoughts or the words coming out of your mouth. It gets to the point where you watch the news and begin to sympathize with those who succeeded in suicide. to the point of small jealously. It's a pain to live. I hate waking up knowing I have to possibly go another 24 hours here. i want to sleep. It's the only way I can stop the thoughts and not deal with people. I don't dream, I wake up to my nightmares.
If you can tell me "I was/am depressed about..." is the same as "having depression" then good for you. There is no point because nothing matters
I am getting help fyi but they can't hide everything because at the end of the godforsaken day I'm still dealing with it not you. I'm not responding or going back into this thread after this post
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Damn .. that was so real
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I can't do much strenuous activity anymore due to a currently undiagnosed disease. A special team of doctors similar to Dr. House's team is handling my case. They suspect a muscle disease. My preliminary biopsy results didn't show anything out of the oridinary so they're looking at auto-immune diseases too.
They're running a whole bunch of other tests on my biopsy sample which takes at least another month.
Basically I have terrible chronic pain in both my lower legs and severe muscle cramps when attempting to do strenuous activity.
My legs hurt every single second of the day. It's hard to really explain but imagine a constant feeling of pain, not stinging but more of a crushing pain, with a little bit of the feeling of being blowtorched at the same time.
I've been prescribed 400mg of Tramadol per day for about a year now. It's an opiate painkiller, it helps but not nearly enough. I've been asking for stronger painkillers for months now to no avail. The next steps up the opiate ladder are Oxycodone, Hydrocodone, Morphine, ...
I'm only 21 so doctors are reluctant in prescribing stronger opiates to someone of my age.
That's the first problem as to why I feel that I can't really do much. No matter what I do I have terrible pain. I find it hard to focus in the gym. They say doing activities helps you take your mind off the pain but not in my experience. I can't really zone out the pain.
The second problem is my muscles give out after very little physical activity. The specialists ordered a specific bloodtest and I tested 75 times the normal count of a muscle degenerative substance (don't recall the name) in my blood.
I can't ride my bicycle anymore. My legs completely cramp after 10 seconds on the bike. My legs cramp when I walk up a set of stairs. Since recently I can't even stay in the shower too long or my legs start to cramp.
As for my online business I can't really disclose much about it as it is technically illegal.
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I disagree.
I was diagnosed with depression when I was 24. I had no idea what was going on. I just wanted it to be night and I wanted to be in bed. It was like my safe place. Lost my appetite, was always tired, nothing was funny, nothing interested me, the news or documentaries about injustice or crime would make be OD emotional. Basically that completely hopeless feeling where I just felt emotionally sick. Went the meds and therapy route. It helped, but it wasn't something I wanted to prolong because it was time consuming and expensive. However, it was completely necessary given the spontaneous nature in which it initially appeared.
Years later it really is cured, unless it's in "remission."
I honestly think it was just something that came on with life combined with my predisposition to depression. I wasn't happy at the time, didn't know what I wanted to do with my life, I had no direction. It finally came to a head.
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^ Agreed, I know people who have struggled with it for years but were able to completely overcome it. They still have moments where they're sad, but depression is no longer a real issue for them. But then you have many people where its the complete opposite where it stays and every now and then they'll have moments (days, weeks, months etc) where they aren't depressed.
I could be wrong, but that's my current view of it.
I could be wrong, but that's my current view of it.
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Pretty much my story. I had a few years of legitimate clinical depression in my early 20s, took the meds and therapy route, and have been fine (for the most part) ever since. Any episodes of depression I've had since then have been situational.
Clinical depression is extremely scary the first time you experience it. When you feel "off" for no legitimate reason you start to think that you're going crazy/something way worse is wrong with you. Maybe I just understand the symptoms and recognize the warning signs more now and am able to cope with them more effectively, but I haven't been clinically depressed since my first episode.
Shout out to Zoloft.
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Why do people kick you while you are down?
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I've been compulsively thinking about death for a year and 3 months. I don't want to hurt myself but I just think about death.
All started after I lost my grandmother. **** is weird as hell and makes me wish I was religious. Truly believing in something probably would've prevented this. Whether the religion was right or wrong
I just always feel like ima die any day. Hard to enjoy life when you feel like that
All started after I lost my grandmother. **** is weird as hell and makes me wish I was religious. Truly believing in something probably would've prevented this. Whether the religion was right or wrong
I just always feel like ima die any day. Hard to enjoy life when you feel like that
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Imma be straight up with yall. Don't let ya head get to ya...the mind is a very powerful thing. If you can wake up everyday and breathe air on this planet use that for your strength and always think positive. Even fake smiling can do wonders. Don't dwell on the past either
sole blessed
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Just ignore. The best revenge is living well.Why do people kick you while you are down?
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Seriously though, all you need to know is theres some disgusting people out there, you could see them at work or anywhere really. I've had it thrown at me but I'm pretty strong.Why do people kick you while you are down?
Really is sick behaviour to try to break someone down, you dont know what someones individual situation is. Build the person up/be positive to folks know what I mean?!
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Been in a pretty good mood these past 2 weeks. Its bizarre. I sometimes start forgetting whats it like to feel "normal" for lack of a better term.
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ever look in the mirror and just feel disgusted?
i do.. when i actually have the courage to look in the mirror...
i do.. when i actually have the courage to look in the mirror...
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How many of you are taking a Vitamin D3 supplement right now? Your D stores can plummet in a month if you're not getting sunlight. Been taking 2,000 IU for the past few weeks and feeling happy. In conjunction with 50 days of nofap, I am getting back in my zone. A month ago I was crying myself to sleep thinking about death. Vitamin D plays a major role in our mental health.
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What's wrong g? You feel disgusted about yourself physically? Or is it due to not being able to look at yourself after doing something you feel bad doing?
sole blessed
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Me in the morning after a night of self cleaning the pipes. Have to do everything in the dark
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Kick them back. Stand up for yourself. That's part of it, get confidence and don't take **** from anyone. Not saying be a douche but always stand up for yourself. When people see that no one will say anything bad to you when they know you aren't going for it.
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Zoloft is what I was prescribed. Took it for a few months along with psychologist sessions.
I can say I came out of my depression much stronger than I was before. I think it's the Zoloft that helped me feel better initially and the therapy helped me get back on my feet again.
As for vitamins yes they are very important. Nowadays I don't really leave the house much so I take multivitamins daily.
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thisJust ignore. The best revenge is living well.Why do people kick you while you are down?
dont show that they got to you.
just gotta keep ..."L-I-V-I-N"
