gatzbygordon
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i can speak from experience, that the drugs ARE your life when youre using, i was a heroin addict for almost 4 years, i got clean in april, thank god my parents were not addicted to drugs or else i would of had nothing to motivate me to get my act together i also had a supportive girlfriend, last year i spent my x-mas smoking heroin in a hotel room in the bad part of town all by myself.I have unfortunately dealt with this for most of life. Both of my parents started using cocaine and heroin when I was in the 4th grade. On top of that they were both alcoholics too. It was pretty rough because they both ended up losing their jobs and lost everything they owned, My mom is now serving 5 years for possession and my father passed away last year. It gets easier with time to accept. I'm 21 now and It does not really bother me anymore like it used it. Drugs really are a scary thing though. They change people so much. When you are on drugs, you don't give a damn about anything else except your next high. It changed my parents so much mentally too. It was like they became so disconnected from society and did not know what normal was anymore. If that makes any sense? I know it can be rough though man. If you need anyone to talk to about you can post here or PM me about. I dont mind talking about it.
there was times when i was withdrawing so bad i put the barrel of my shotgun in my mouth and thankfully i locked my shells up in my safe...it also took for a friend of mine to get killed, for me to get my ish together, he broke into some dudes house took some heroin and a gun so they took him and killed him in the desert... when you get clean it feels like youre picking up your belongings after a tornado, everyday i apologize to my girl for the ish i put her through, and try to visit my family on the weekends, i was not allowed to come over when i was using or see my lil brother, now he is allowed to come over every weekend and i took him school shopping, something i would've never been able to do before or ever thought id ever do...