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I lost my baby girl after 6 years. I will admit looking back it was my fault, but why didn't i see it when i was acting like a jerk? I admit now that we've had months apart i actually did and do love her... and it's probably a lot. no not probably it is a lot. I still can't believe we broke up after 6 years I'm thinking like I should have asked her to marry me but maybe we would have gotten divorced before anything popped off to become official, lol. I was the jealous type and did things like call her phone OD, verbally abuse her, keep bringing up this guys name i felt she was cheating on me with, take money as if her purse was my mother's purse and etc especially since the TRUST wasn't there and talking to her nowadays she stress' that to me a lot. Maybe if there were some TRUST in the relationship things would have gone swell. TRUST is a big thing to ladies i'm beginning to see and understand that fact.
i'm soo stupid. I want her back but I know i will have to wait it out and all i do is think about if she'll be taking by someone who'll know her worth and put her first. I was doing music at the time and music was my number 1 girl and I basically igg'd her the whole relationship putting myself on pedestal as if I needed the praise. I'm mainly wondering do you guys think I have a shot at even getting back with her... i'm mean we are probably going to be apart for at least 2 years or maybe more and I have no idea if I even have a shot at dealing with her sometime in the future. She tells me there's no telling what the future holds and I do know that but I still feel like my baby is gone forever... I messed up so bad and I blame myself so much but this completely sucks!!!
all i do is think about her and call my friends on downtime who haven't been supporting me the way REAL friends should support their buddies or maybe they don't know how to support me... I tend to look deep into things when it's not necessary and make a fool out of myself.
Nowdays for me, I find myself in a clinic talking to a support group taking medication... Life for me sucks and when it'll rise and get better I have no understanding. But life for her is pretty cool I can tell by the facebook pictures she posts of all her good times hanging out with the buddies I hung out with... crazy part is when I was around I don't even remember them wanting to hang out like that... I guess women get there way regardless in todays world on the eastern front.
do you guys think one day we'll get back together? how do you get over a break up especially one that lasted 6 years and we've been through so much some other things I won't list because it's personal to me but... I'm thinking like wow at least if we don't get back together I hope she never forgets me
I lost my baby girl after 6 years. I will admit looking back it was my fault, but why didn't i see it when i was acting like a jerk? I admit now that we've had months apart i actually did and do love her... and it's probably a lot. no not probably it is a lot. I still can't believe we broke up after 6 years I'm thinking like I should have asked her to marry me but maybe we would have gotten divorced before anything popped off to become official, lol. I was the jealous type and did things like call her phone OD, verbally abuse her, keep bringing up this guys name i felt she was cheating on me with, take money as if her purse was my mother's purse and etc especially since the TRUST wasn't there and talking to her nowadays she stress' that to me a lot. Maybe if there were some TRUST in the relationship things would have gone swell. TRUST is a big thing to ladies i'm beginning to see and understand that fact.
i'm soo stupid. I want her back but I know i will have to wait it out and all i do is think about if she'll be taking by someone who'll know her worth and put her first. I was doing music at the time and music was my number 1 girl and I basically igg'd her the whole relationship putting myself on pedestal as if I needed the praise. I'm mainly wondering do you guys think I have a shot at even getting back with her... i'm mean we are probably going to be apart for at least 2 years or maybe more and I have no idea if I even have a shot at dealing with her sometime in the future. She tells me there's no telling what the future holds and I do know that but I still feel like my baby is gone forever... I messed up so bad and I blame myself so much but this completely sucks!!!
all i do is think about her and call my friends on downtime who haven't been supporting me the way REAL friends should support their buddies or maybe they don't know how to support me... I tend to look deep into things when it's not necessary and make a fool out of myself.
Nowdays for me, I find myself in a clinic talking to a support group taking medication... Life for me sucks and when it'll rise and get better I have no understanding. But life for her is pretty cool I can tell by the facebook pictures she posts of all her good times hanging out with the buddies I hung out with... crazy part is when I was around I don't even remember them wanting to hang out like that... I guess women get there way regardless in todays world on the eastern front.
do you guys think one day we'll get back together? how do you get over a break up especially one that lasted 6 years and we've been through so much some other things I won't list because it's personal to me but... I'm thinking like wow at least if we don't get back together I hope she never forgets me