The sobriety thread

[Belgium]

I haven't been sober for 1 minute in almost 2 years and I'm 21.
Been prescribed a max dosage of opiates since my chronic pains got unbearable almost 2 years ago.
Honestly don't remember what it feels like being sober.
I'm trying to quit my painkillers on specialist's orders to try a non-opiate painkiller like Lyrica or Gabapentin so for the first time in years I might experience a little sobriety again.

 

[Belgium]

Hooked? U mean weak minded, right?


Will power and grown some balls and limit yourself.

**** a sober life. I dont mean to sound ignorant but grow some balls and sense of responsibility. Dont have to live sober to make reasonable responsible choices.

This is an extremely ignorant post. Once addicted to Xanax you must follow a strict taper schedule to quit the drug because quitting cold turkey or at a too fast rate can literally kill you.

 

[Belgium]

People who deal with chronic pain that are opiate dependent are dealt a horrible hand in life, add other forms of mental illness to the mix and it can be disastrous. My advice to you is try everything....therapy, acupuncture, massage therapy etc. If you don't have any structural reasons for your pain sometimes physical pain can actually be a symptom of psychiatry illness. 

I was 19 and in nursing school, in great shape, great social life, ... then I got dealt an extremely bad hand lol.
It started with nearly dying from a rare lung defect. I had an extremely complex form of intralobary pulmonary sequestration. Basically I had a malicious aorta sized artery and bloodflow system in my right lung. Because the artery was so big and the blood pressure so high it got a tear and bled into my longs. I only needed to cough up large blood clots all day but it if the tear in the artery was any bigger I'd be dead instantly. Had to get half of my right lung removed in a 4 hour surgery. That was now 2 years ago and I still have lasting damage from the surgery.
My lung capacity is 50-55% at any given time, which actually isn't as bad as you would think, and I lost motor function of half of my right hand due to the 4 hour narcosis.
My balance is also still a bit off.
A few months after that the chronic leg pains started and they haven't gone away since. Every second of the day it feels like they're being crushed and blowtorched at the same time.
Opiates were the only thing that actually helped but even then the max dosage of Tramadol only made it somewhat bearable. Doctors wouldn't give me stronger opiates like Oxycontin due to my age.
As for mental illness a few months after the chronic pains I also started getting nightly psychotic attacks for a total of 4 or 5 times but they only lasted 3-4 hours and I was cleared of any mental illness because it was all very atypical. Drug interactions were also ruled out.
I haven't had any attacks like that for a year now but I still have peripheral hallucinations every day. Non-moving objects in my peripheral view start moving if I focus on them.
It doesn't really bother me except when I'm taking a dump and the doorknob starts moving around.
I've tried pretty much everytthing you can imagine. I don't even know what's wrong with me.
Specialists have ruled out a psychological cause for my pain. Not sure why but when I told them I lost sensation in half my lower leg but pinching it is like being electrocuted they immediately dismissed any psychological aspect.
I've now been referred to an elite team of doctors who try to diagnose unresolved cases. Basically like what Dr House does if you've ever watched House MD.

I'm excited to try a non-opiate alternative painkiller but trying to quit my opiates is the hardest thing I've ever done. Harder than trying to live with my conditions.
I had a period of depression when I had to drop out of school and the psychotic attacks started but I got therapy and anti-depressants and have been off them for a year. I stay strong and haven't cried once about my situation since.
I guarantee all the people saying ignorant stuff like "it's just willpower, you're weak" wouldn't last a day in my shoes. Addiction is not a joke and it's not something that is cured simply by having "willpowder". It messes with your brain, you can control your actions to a certain extent but you can't stop your brain from making you think about your addiction and that mental craving.

 

[frshstunna]

I decided to give up alcohol to improve my health, it's been 60 days and I feel like crap.  I need to figure out how to have fun socially sober. I'm literally one of these dudes at parties when I don't drink.

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once you start partying on that liquor it's hard to go back to partying sober, might as well just be in the crib chillin

 

[mackmittenzz]

The problem is once u accumulate some clean time and you think you can go back, and handle stuff in moderation, it starts Right where u left off , your doing the same amount as u where when u quit.... Fast. And your tolerance isn't up to par and that's how we have people overdosing.


Some people are just ignorant... I lost my brother , my young bol , and my old head all too overdoses. You think that will power had anything to do with it? Your wrong buddy. People like you will look down upon people like me saying stuff like why can't you just stop? And then when your son or daughter or someone you really care about becomes a addict you will rely on someone like me to Help that person. You make it hard. But u kno what just because of Your ignorance , I won't take it out on somebody You care about , I'll be there too help the next man. Hopefully before it gets too bad.

 

[jape]

Hooked? U mean weak minded, right?


Will power and grown some balls and limit yourself.

**** a sober life. I dont mean to sound ignorant but grow some balls and sense of responsibility. Dont have to live sober to make reasonable responsible choices.

this is how i feel but at the same time you can't be so insensitive.  drugs/meds do different things to different people. it really is a mental issue with some. 

 

[unkn0wn]

 

[illicit305]

if it was court mandated it had to be a higher offense than just marijuana.........i ended up court-mandated at na meetings but cause of the felony charge ( xanax ) i have 2 misdemeanors for weed and theyre just fines / court option class but no NA 

 

[gregzzy23]

I smoked weed for 8 years regularly and stopped early August, been clean since but I keep thinking about when I graduate how much Imma smoke again (I joined a school that drug tests)

How long till you graduate? If its years, you plan on touching it at all during that duration?

I'm on day 1 of a preemptive extended weed break. I think potheads really underestimate how positive of an effect being sober can have. I just want to find a balance with bud. I'm either completely clean or smoking every day, which is really disruptive. I want to take a super extended break but cold weather is prime for being baked. Might really make the push to thanksgiving or even end of the semester (mid December).

 

[mplsdunk]

I smoke all day everyday and I've never been better. It's all on the person. If you're lazy af tree is gonna magnify that. Me I work a grip and just blaze in my downtime to keep me going. Mini vacations. my job is stressful and it keeps me chill.

People put to big an emphasis on the tree. It's not gonna change your personality. If you're lazy you're lazy. If you do work and stay high rock on. Most guys I know who do manual labor are heavy smokers. Kinda comes with the territory.

 

[pretty tony]

Never been a drinker. I guess I'd classify myself as a social drinker. I'll have one if I'm out with a group. Never understood getting incoherent drunk. im taking a break from smoking...which every smoker should do from time to time. I used to smoke everyday for three years straight and got to the point where The high lasted for shorter times so I smoked even more just to stay high. Hit a wall where eventually I wasn't getting high at all. Even dab hits wasn't doing anything for me.

 

[Mr.Guy]

A month and some change sober. Let's go!!!!!!

 

[andretti]

I smoked weed for 8 years regularly and stopped early August, been clean since but I keep thinking about when I graduate how much Imma smoke again (I joined a school that drug tests)

This was me but I was about 5 yrs from 17-22. That really had my whole personality rewired. After two months clean for the test I realized I didn't even like it that much anymore. I'm a million times more outgoing without and been doing great with the yambs. I went back to smoking but only like twice a week when I really dont have **** to do. I still love weed, I credit it with enlightening me on tons and freeing my mind but I know I don't need to be baked 24/7 to enjoy my day anymore.

I smoke all day everyday and I've never been better. It's all on the person. If you're lazy af tree is gonna magnify that. Me I work a grip and just blaze in my downtime to keep me going. Mini vacations. my job is stressful and it keeps me chill.

People put to big an emphasis on the tree. It's not gonna change your personality. If you're lazy you're lazy. If you do work and stay high rock on. Most guys I know who do manual labor are heavy smokers. Kinda comes with the territory.

Most of this

And "People put to big an emphasis on the tree. It's not gonna change your personality. If you're lazy you're lazy. If you do work and stay high rock on. Most guys I know who do manual labor are heavy smokers. Kinda comes with the territory" that's me basically
I'm lazy and it enhances that . I like the feeling but it cost me money.

its difficult to quit when I'm bored most of the time .

 

[elcatfisho]

Well i've been sober for over a month now because I have so much school stuff to do. :\

Being drunk is a lot of fun but the next day or two I get really depressed. Like suicidal depressed, I hate my existence, that kind of depressed. I'm not supposed to be drinking anyway since I've been prescribed Prozac to help with the depression. I'm trying to avoid drinking as long as I can, until maybe the holidays (with family).

It's so hard man not to give in. You want to escape reality or take something that makes reality suck less and makes boring things fun.

I'll say this, make sure you keep yourself occupied. If you don't, your mind will ruminate and you start hating yourself. Forgive yourself if you slip up, perfection doesn't exist.

 

[Los Angeles]

Been sober since 2003.

I mean it was weed, ecstasy, nos, acid, ketamine, coke then hooked on meth for a couple years

 

[bonez7 back]

Good thing you didnt get to heron or roks, anything uncontrollably addicting.

You can smoke trees its not altering enough to do harm, imo

 

[Mr.Guy]

Been sober since 2003.

I mean it was weed, ecstasy, nos, acid, ketamine, coke then hooked on meth for a couple years

I heard Ketamine is crazy. I listen to the all out show on shade 45 and Rude Jude and Lord Sear are always talking about Ketamine.

 

[Mr.Guy]

Well i've been sober for over a month now because I have so much school stuff to do. :\

Being drunk is a lot of fun but the next day or two I get really depressed. Like suicidal depressed, I hate my existence, that kind of depressed. I'm not supposed to be drinking anyway since I've been prescribed Prozac to help with the depression. I'm trying to avoid drinking as long as I can, until maybe the holidays (with family).

It's so hard man not to give in. You want to escape reality or take something that makes reality suck less and makes boring things fun.

I'll say this, make sure you keep yourself occupied. If you don't, your mind will ruminate and you start hating yourself. Forgive yourself if you slip up, perfection doesn't exist.

I don't miss being drunk. It may sound crazy but being sober feels like reburth. I was pretty much drunk and tipsy every day so I didn't appreciate the lil things like having a clear mind and enjoying the breeze outside. I enjoy life way more now that I'm sober. I would get drunk and go straight home to crash. I also wasted a lot of money getting drunk. The $$ I spent on alcohol could have been used to travel around the world.

 

[AZwildcats]

Don't drink due to religious reasons, but i have been meaning to stop drinking sodas, or at least reduce my consumption. I have at least one a day