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man I'm sittin here smoking this black and trippin...
I spent all day over my ladies' crib and for the first time in a LONG time, I felt like part of a real family. We chilled real decent, but moreimportantly, her family had a serious family talk that lasted about an hour. It broke me down to tears to hear this woman's mom give the VERY same motherlyadvice to her and her fam that I used to hear. It was crazy man. I ended up telling them all that the fact that they were sitting down talking like a family ismore valuable than any of them understand and that they should ALWAYS cherish the fact that they still have a caring mom to sit and talk with. It reallytouched me. I've never seen a whole family come together in God's name and have a sit down meeting like that. It was a beautiful thing to witness andbe a part of. They all spoke about the good and the bad and how they can work on things to be better people and relatives and they all decided that I was apart of that family too
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So I drove home, feeling smug as a bug after watching Jumper (my lady sent me on my way with a talk cup of chamomile tea and a bag of sunflower seeds
). AsI was getting off the e-way (I-65), my car lost traction and started to slide. I mastered the slide and all, but the car behind me completely spun out.Foreshadowing is a !@%$@.... so then, on my way home still, I got on another e-way (80/94 for those that know what's up) to skip from Broadway to Grant thequicker way. As I was getting off that exit, I went into an overturn slide. So as I'm sliding sideways up this exit ramp, I'm rapidly approaching aparked semi on the outer edge of the curve. I know right? Who parks semis on off ramps?!Lucky me, I too mastered that slide and steered the spin into the grasson the inside of the turn. I guess I was driving too fast because the tea had me sleepy and in a rush to get to bed. I'm sure the black ice and snowyweather didn't help either. But anyway, I'm perfectly fine.
I said all of that to tell you guys this: Though I realize I could have very well ended my life tonight, I'm glad Ididn't. for a second, I wished it had happened. Right now I'm sitting here thinking of how close I was to being next to mom in heaven and how messed upmy family has been since she left, but GOD knows I'm thankful for my %%*%#! up life and %%*%#! up nuclear family. I'm thankful for my new Cosbyish"in laws". This world is crazy ya'll. Just when things get bad, God'll put a sign in your life to let you know it ain't over yet. First,he gave me solace in knowing that there's a family for me even if it isn't mine. He let me know that the world is filled with people who can relate tomy issues, whether I knew it or not. They accept me for who I am and even feed my greedy @*@
. And secondly, He showed me that it's withing his wrathto take it all away but that His mercy let's me keep what I have. That's all. Good night guys. Be safe out there..
I spent all day over my ladies' crib and for the first time in a LONG time, I felt like part of a real family. We chilled real decent, but moreimportantly, her family had a serious family talk that lasted about an hour. It broke me down to tears to hear this woman's mom give the VERY same motherlyadvice to her and her fam that I used to hear. It was crazy man. I ended up telling them all that the fact that they were sitting down talking like a family ismore valuable than any of them understand and that they should ALWAYS cherish the fact that they still have a caring mom to sit and talk with. It reallytouched me. I've never seen a whole family come together in God's name and have a sit down meeting like that. It was a beautiful thing to witness andbe a part of. They all spoke about the good and the bad and how they can work on things to be better people and relatives and they all decided that I was apart of that family too
So I drove home, feeling smug as a bug after watching Jumper (my lady sent me on my way with a talk cup of chamomile tea and a bag of sunflower seeds
I said all of that to tell you guys this: Though I realize I could have very well ended my life tonight, I'm glad Ididn't. for a second, I wished it had happened. Right now I'm sitting here thinking of how close I was to being next to mom in heaven and how messed upmy family has been since she left, but GOD knows I'm thankful for my %%*%#! up life and %%*%#! up nuclear family. I'm thankful for my new Cosbyish"in laws". This world is crazy ya'll. Just when things get bad, God'll put a sign in your life to let you know it ain't over yet. First,he gave me solace in knowing that there's a family for me even if it isn't mine. He let me know that the world is filled with people who can relate tomy issues, whether I knew it or not. They accept me for who I am and even feed my greedy @*@
