had to create a helpful positive thread for down NTers

[dipsetgeneral]

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read it. it will change your life.

May look into this...

 

[elcatfisho]

yeah she is awesome... we've been getting to text a lot more now and it just feels fun to text her and get that interaction going. i wouldn't have felt this way if I didn't get help. i really mean it. i think as people we all have a need to be emotionally connected, but some of us just don't know how, and aren't given the right skills at an early age to deal with their changing environments.

some people in therapy have retired and realized that they weren't happy all along. i feel lucky to still be alive to be with the people i know now. and that's the key word, is now, because what you did a moment ago isn't there anymore. i've been living in the present for the past few hours and it just feels like continual relief.

it also may be because im blazing that loud.

 

[andretti]

yeah she is awesome... we've been getting to text a lot more now and it just feels fun to text her and get that interaction going. i wouldn't have felt this way if I didn't get help. i really mean it. i think as people we all have a need to be emotionally connected, but some of us just don't know how, and aren't given the right skills at an early age to deal with their changing environments.

some people in therapy have retired and realized that they weren't happy all along. i feel lucky to still be alive to be with the people i know now. and that's the key word, is now, because what you did a moment ago isn't there anymore. i've been living in the present for the past few hours and it just feels like continual relief.

it also may be because im blazing that loud.

Maybe I'm blazing too much of it
Keeps my mind off of my issues

It's getting better though since I've learned how to deal with it.

 

[elcatfisho]

nearly had a depressive relapse today... lot of emotions today in therapy. it wears you out. but Im really happy now.

Girl has been sending me good night texts now. Tears of joy right now. Live in the now and you all will be fine. It is all good no matter what, love is coming for us all.

Put down the gun, pills, rope, and just reach out to somebody.I am living proof that you can make it. You arent a burden, you are worth loving and living for.

 

[Roderick Kingsley]

i've been dealing with depression on and off for almost 7 years. almost offed myself 2.5 years ago and i'm glad i failed.

i'm at a low right now & suicidal thoughts come, but i'm fighting it. 

i've been MIA from my friends for awhile. the only people i want to talk to are my parents and my boyfriend. =\

my mom finally agreed to let me go back to therapy after seeing me having a ptsd episode two weeks ago. finally.

 

[clyde the glide]

^why wouldn't your mom let u go to therapy?

 

[elcatfisho]

i've been dealing with depression on and off for almost 7 years. almost offed myself 2.5 years ago and i'm glad i failed.

i'm at a low right now & suicidal thoughts come, but i'm fighting it. 

i've been MIA from my friends for awhile. the only people i want to talk to are my parents and my boyfriend. =\

my mom finally agreed to let me go back to therapy after seeing me having a ptsd episode two weeks ago. finally.

It is hard, but change isn't easy. If you want to change how you feel, you have to accept your emotions for what they are and let yourself reach out to someone and let them know how you feel.

You'll be surprised how much your friends care about your happiness.

Good luck with the therapy. There are a lot of emotional skills you can apply to establish a baseline so to speak. Take care of yourself as much as you can.

 

[johnnyredstorm]

Stay strong everyone. Just try and stay positive and use positive affirmations. Time heals everything.

 

[elcatfisho]

Yes, definitely man. BTW anyone is welcome to PM me about anything you're going through. A few NT'ers have reached out to me in the past and I'm returning the favor as needed.

 

[tony plush]

 

[calibeebee]

OP when you went to the hospital what kind of hospital was it? Was it ER, urgent care, or a special psychiatric hospital? I just had some real bad stuff happen to me and I haven't eaten for 3 days, I can barely sleep, I'm having panic attacks where I think my heart is gonna explode, and worse. I want to go get help but I don't know how. Would a regular hospital treat me for depression? I'm not suicidal I just need help. Thanks for sharing your story

 

[AgentZero]

OP when you went to the hospital what kind of hospital was it? Was it ER, urgent care, or a special psychiatric hospital? I just had some real bad stuff happen to me and I haven't eaten for 3 days, I can barely sleep, I'm having panic attacks where I think my heart is gonna explode, and worse. I want to go get help but I don't know how. Would a regular hospital treat me for depression? I'm not suicidal I just need help. Thanks for sharing your story

That sounds serious. Since you haven't gotten a response I'd advise making sure you're good and taken care of physically at the ER or a standard hospital before trying to go to a special psychiatric hospital where you can be evaluated and treated for those underlying causes.

 

[calibeebee]

OP when you went to the hospital what kind of hospital was it? Was it ER, urgent care, or a special psychiatric hospital? I just had some real bad stuff happen to me and I haven't eaten for 3 days, I can barely sleep, I'm having panic attacks where I think my heart is gonna explode, and worse. I want to go get help but I don't know how. Would a regular hospital treat me for depression? I'm not suicidal I just need help. Thanks for sharing your story

That sounds serious. Since you haven't gotten a response I'd advise making sure you're good and taken care of physically at the ER or a standard hospital before trying to go to a special psychiatric hospital where you can be evaluated and treated for those underlying causes.

thanks man, i ended up going to ER to get my vitals checked and everything. they offered me an IV which I turned down and some advice on some medicines to help me sleep and help with my nausea. They also gave me recommendations on a therapist to see. It was helpful talking to the doctor a little bit though. I think If i can just sleep a little bit, i'll the energy to get out and be productive and take my mind off things. hopefully that will bring my appetite back

 

[elcatfisho]

OP when you went to the hospital what kind of hospital was it? Was it ER, urgent care, or a special psychiatric hospital? I just had some real bad stuff happen to me and I haven't eaten for 3 days, I can barely sleep, I'm having panic attacks where I think my heart is gonna explode, and worse. I want to go get help but I don't know how. Would a regular hospital treat me for depression? I'm not suicidal I just need help. Thanks for sharing your story

That sounds serious. Since you haven't gotten a response I'd advise making sure you're good and taken care of physically at the ER or a standard hospital before trying to go to a special psychiatric hospital where you can be evaluated and treated for those underlying causes.

thanks man, i ended up going to ER to get my vitals checked and everything. they offered me an IV which I turned down and some advice on some medicines to help me sleep and help with my nausea. They also gave me recommendations on a therapist to see. It was helpful talking to the doctor a little bit though. I think If i can just sleep a little bit, i'll the energy to get out and be productive and take my mind off things. hopefully that will bring my appetite back

hey man sorry I've been away from NT for a bit.

I voluntarily checked myself inpatient. I was put into what they call a "Calm" Unit where nurses & psychiatrists (mental health doctors) talked to me about my symptoms. Lot of vitals measurement and explaining what I've been going through to people. I was then transferred into an observational living unit where I was given time to live in a hospital ward with other patients and was seen by various nurses, physicians, and all other kinds of medical professionals to talk about medications and my own patient history.

Currently I'm doing an outpatient therapy program, which is a daily thing I go to from 9-noon Monday-Friday. The first 5 days I went in from 9-3 pm. It all depends on your insurance provider though, which might be different for everyone else. Anthem BlueCross BlueShield has covered most of my needs, but I'm still a young student and under my dad's plan, so I really can't talk too much about how that business works.

I'm feeling a lot better, and regardless of how much treatment I had to go through, I'm doing a lot better too. Just had lunch with that girl today and we seriously had a great time hanging out together. It takes a lot of work, courage, determination, and effort to want to feel better, but I can tell you all that I feel way better than I did when I was tying nooses and loading a firearm. I don't feel ashamed at all that I went in to get help. I want to live for people and do things for people, it's not my decision to die, and that's why I'm still here.

if you have any more personal questions you want to ask, feel free to PM me if you feel comfortable sharing.

 

[Roderick Kingsley]

It is hard, but change isn't easy. If you want to change how you feel, you have to accept your emotions for what they are and let yourself reach out to someone and let them know how you feel.

You'll be surprised how much your friends care about your happiness.

Good luck with the therapy. There are a lot of emotional skills you can apply to establish a baseline so to speak. Take care of yourself as much as you can.

thanks fam. i used to go therapy back at my old university but i stopped because i didn't want my parents to find out.

my problem is that i just kept everything in for so long because i didn't wanna be a burden to my family and friends. i never properly dealt with the trauma and the feelings properly because i was ashamed of myself. it still haunts me until this day, but i try to keep telling myself that it's not my fault.

i hope everything's going well with you.

 
^why wouldn't your mom let u go to therapy?

my parents said i don't need it. but then my mom finally believed me when she saw me break down in anxiety. caring for mental conditions are quite taboo in my culture, i suppose. =\

my class schedule this semester is pretty sweet so hopefully i can regularly go back to therapy and finally get over my situation.

 

[rexmakesbeats]

depression is no joke. glad fellow NTers are here and able to share their stories and advice today.

 

[elcatfisho]

It is hard, but change isn't easy. If you want to change how you feel, you have to accept your emotions for what they are and let yourself reach out to someone and let them know how you feel.


You'll be surprised how much your friends care about your happiness.


Good luck with the therapy. There are a lot of emotional skills you can apply to establish a baseline so to speak. Take care of yourself as much as you can.

thanks fam. i used to go therapy back at my old university but i stopped because i didn't want my parents to find out.

my problem is that i just kept everything in for so long because i didn't wanna be a burden to my family and friends. i never properly dealt with the trauma and the feelings properly because i was ashamed of myself. it still haunts me until this day, but i try to keep telling myself that it's not my fault.

i hope everything's going well with you.

 
^why wouldn't your mom let u go to therapy?

my parents said i don't need it. but then my mom finally believed me when she saw me break down in anxiety. caring for mental conditions are quite taboo in my culture, i suppose. =\

my class schedule this semester is pretty sweet so hopefully i can regularly go back to therapy and finally get over my situation.

That is a really common thing to say, that being mentally ill makes you feel like a burden. In my opinion people don't give mental illness enough credibility for being a handicap on daily living. The brain is such a complex organ that handles so much sensory information that dictates how you are able to move around and cope with your environment.

They have done brain scans (MRI's) of depressed and non-depressed people, and neuroscientists are mapping out all sorts of emotional responses linked to rapidly activated neurons. I won't get too in depth with the physiology of the brain, but the limbic system is the center part of our body that acts as our 24/7 CPU. To tell someone they should stop feeling bad about their depression or mental illness concerns is like telling someone with a torn ACL to start running again. It's impossible and shows lack of empathy. By going to therapy, you are rewiring your brain (seriously) to learn healthy coping behaviors when faced with stressful situations. I'm already able to make much better decisions in daily life such as talking to people for errands at work and I have noticed I'm getting better at driving in traffic. Little things here and there have been big wins for me.

 

[Roderick Kingsley]

That is a really common thing to say, that being mentally ill makes you feel like a burden. In my opinion people don't give mental illness enough credibility for being a handicap on daily living. The brain is such a complex organ that handles so much sensory information that dictates how you are able to move around and cope with your environment.

They have done brain scans (MRI's) of depressed and non-depressed people, and neuroscientists are mapping out all sorts of emotional responses linked to rapidly activated neurons. I won't get too in depth with the physiology of the brain, but the limbic system is the center part of our body that acts as our 24/7 CPU. To tell someone they should stop feeling bad about their depression or mental illness concerns is like telling someone with a torn ACL to start running again. It's impossible and shows lack of empathy. By going to therapy, you are rewiring your brain (seriously) to learn healthy coping behaviors when faced with stressful situations. I'm already able to make much better decisions in daily life such as talking to people for errands at work and I have noticed I'm getting better at driving in traffic. Little things here and there have been big wins for me.

i just feel like one of the biggest factors i refused to go to therapy is my parents -- they haven't been supportive of me at all. ironic, but both my parents are in the healthcare field, and they refuse to help their daughter. 

the main thing that made me go in a downwards path is something i would forever be ashamed of. it happened 6-7 years ago. my father doesn't even know of it. ****, if i told him, he would just blame ME for the situation.

i've just been suffering silently because in my culture, someone with mental condition is automatically labeled as a nutcase in the most offensive way. i confronted my mother about this when i had that ptsd episode and told her THAT'S the reason i never said anything. she said that's just how people back home refer to those with mental conditions. like, if they called two of my friends straight up "crazy" for having bipolar disorder, they would do the same for me -- if they knew i had a legitimate anxiety disorder. funny enough, my mom did call me crazy that night.

what hurts me the most is that my mother had to see WITH HER OWN TWO EYES that i was not lying. my father especially makes me feel even more depressed. the things he says when he puts me down are triggers of the factors that led me to be this way.

tonight is one of those nights. i feel like if i did something stupid (god forbid), it would be due to the lack of support from my parents.

 

[elcatfisho]

shoyru,

I completely understand. Wish there was something I could do to help.

today has been a ****** day for me. Turns out that girl just wants to be friends and sees me nothing more than a friend. I'm really depressed now.

I guess this isn't a very uplifting post to my own positive thread, but it is very much real. It takes effort to find a way out of depression and it takes effort to manage it, because it never goes away. It comes back and makes you want to escape.

 

[andretti]

shoyru,

I completely understand. Wish there was something I could do to help.

today has been a ****** day for me. Turns out that girl just wants to be friends and sees me nothing more than a friend. I'm really depressed now.

I guess this isn't a very uplifting post to my own positive thread, but it is very much real. It takes effort to find a way out of depression and it takes effort to manage it, because it never goes away. It comes back and makes you want to escape.

Pm coming your way

 

[elcatfisho]

shoyru,

I completely understand. Wish there was something I could do to help.

today has been a ****** day for me. Turns out that girl just wants to be friends and sees me nothing more than a friend. I'm really depressed now.

I guess this isn't a very uplifting post to my own positive thread, but it is very much real. It takes effort to find a way out of depression and it takes effort to manage it, because it never goes away. It comes back and makes you want to escape.

Pm coming your way

thanks man

looking forward to it.

everybody have a happy Friday! Fight for your happiness!

 

[elcatfisho]

Gonna go to work soon, but I'm taking some time now to write about my progress.

Still feel like **** because of that girl and what she said to me yesterday, but something inside me wants to be better in so many ways that I just don't want to ever get back to the point where I put girl problems over my own. Better exercise, better diet, better study skills, better work ethic, better team leadership. I think this thread is helping me gradually get over some long-term things I've been hard on myself for. Typing this out is helping me, so I hope I can look back a few weeks from now and see where I came from.

Today I'm gonna try to focus on my self improvement while establishing a work ethic that will get me by 15 minutes at a time. I'm reading this book called The Self-Esteem Workbook, by Glenn R. Schiraldi Ph.D. If I can get through a few pages in this book and feel like I learned something, I'm going to feel good about my efforts.

I think I've been searching too hard for someone to love me back, and it's just sad to think about how hard I've tried to make someone like me or love me back. All those years gone by and I never took the time to care for myself. I guess I'll spend some time today working on that.

Have a based Saturday NT, and never give up on your goals. PM me if you want to talk!

-Pat

 

[AgentZero]

I think I've been searching too hard for someone to love me back, and it's just sad to think about how hard I've tried to make someone like me or love me back. All those years gone by and I never took the time to care for myself. I guess I'll spend some time today working on that.

Often times you'll find that person that you've been searching for when you're not actively searching and when you least expect it. It's funny how it works. Continue to better yourself first and try and keep that positive attitude.

 

[Roderick Kingsley]

Gonna go to work soon, but I'm taking some time now to write about my progress.

Still feel like **** because of that girl and what she said to me yesterday, but something inside me wants to be better in so many ways that I just don't want to ever get back to the point where I put girl problems over my own. Better exercise, better diet, better study skills, better work ethic, better team leadership. I think this thread is helping me gradually get over some long-term things I've been hard on myself for. Typing this out is helping me, so I hope I can look back a few weeks from now and see where I came from.

Today I'm gonna try to focus on my self improvement while establishing a work ethic that will get me by 15 minutes at a time. I'm reading this book called The Self-Esteem Workbook, by Glenn R. Schiraldi Ph.D. If I can get through a few pages in this book and feel like I learned something, I'm going to feel good about my efforts.

I think I've been searching too hard for someone to love me back, and it's just sad to think about how hard I've tried to make someone like me or love me back. All those years gone by and I never took the time to care for myself. I guess I'll spend some time today working on that.

Have a based Saturday NT, and never give up on your goals. PM me if you want to talk!

-Pat

love comes at the most unexpected times. i wasn't looking a several years ago because i was still heartbroken over an ex boyfriend & the things he did to me. then my current boyfriend came into my life and i fell head over heels in love. 

i know it's great to have a significant other, but you ultimately come first. learn to be selfish sometimes -- it's during this time that you can do anything you want.

 then someone amazing will cross your path. let love come to you. it'll be a sweet, unexpected surprise. 

plus you deserve someone who likes you for YOU and will accept you for who you are; someone who will be there even during the rough times.

PM me if you need someone to vent to!

shoyru,

I completely understand. Wish there was something I could do to help.

thank you. 

 <3

 

[Gill Baka Esq. LLC.]

I just wanna say that you brah's doing something about your stress, anxiety, worry or whatever it may be is the best thing you can do.

You have to know that you belong to a larger community of people going through a similar feeling despite the situation being different.

Don't ever give up hope, not for one second.

I often feel like i'm drowning in my own problems...literally. I feel as if there's a noose around my neck sometimes. But I have always taken strides to realize that my problems are really all in my mind and that I complicate my situation even more by thinking negatively when we truly live in abundance. The hard part is truly realizing that and that today is not your last day.

Treat everyday as if it's a new life. Work at becoming a better you. There are ways to do this.

I'm a big reader and I just wanna make some recommendations to brah's that have some time to read positive things:

Yes! Attitude by Jeffery Gitomer
What to say when you talk to yourself - Shad helmsetter
Keep calm and carry on - Mark Reinecke
Creative Visualization - Shakti Gawain
the greatest salesman - OG Mandino
The greatest miracle - OG mandino
Mud, Sweat, and tears - Bear Grylls
Step out on nothing - Byron Pitts
Acres of diamonds
the strangest secret - earl nightingale
the magic of believing - Claude Bristol
The silva mind control method

Some of these books are on audio on Youtube, specifcally the strangest secret.

I believe therapy with the right therapist and personal introspection can take you a long way. Also cutting negative influences out of your life definitely helps (t.v. shows, the news, bad family/friends/girlfriend)

Have faith that tomorrow will be better than today and work towards it. Give yourself some breathing room and create the life you want with the cards your dealt. See this life through and suspend expectations of yourself for the time being until your back to speed on things. And never let other dictate your life to you. You are the master and commander of your own ship.