Official Depression thread

Have suffered from acid reflux disease for ten years. This year it has gotten severe . I don't have the best medical so everything is a long process and a struggle. My stomach acid doesn't stay in my my stomach anymore. My teeth are eroding, my throat burns 24/7 . Everything I eat comes up like nothing. I'm in the process of getting approved for surgery to fix it but it's like damn, takes a long time. I haven't felt normal for the longest. I forgot what it was like to feel normal. Never been depressed before in my life till this year.

Always have suffered from social anxiety and other mental issues and I always will but this is the worst year of my life. My whole life feels like it's hold. Hard to have any positive thoughts when I'm struggling with so many different health issues.
 
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Have suffered from acid reflux disease for ten years. This year it has gotten severe . I don't have the best medical so everything is a long process and a struggle. My stomach acid doesn't stay in my my stomach anymore. My teeth are eroding, my throat burns 24/7 . Everything I eat comes up like nothing. I'm in the process of getting approved for surgery to fix it but it's like damn, takes a long time. I haven't felt normal for the longest. I forgot what it was like to feel normal. Never been depressed before in my life till this year.

Always have suffered from social anxiety and other mental issues and I always will but this is the worst year of my life. My whole life feels like it's hold. Hard to have any positive thoughts when I'm struggling with so many different health issues.
Just dropped in to give a quick note. All those acid reflux meds (PPIs) actually make things worse. Look up apple cider vinegar, it has been a miracle for many people with stomach acid problems.
 
I get depressed outta boredom, at the moment my life is boring as a *****...

I'm broke, I ain't gon front. I can have plenty cash but I lost alot so I'm really starting from the bottom.

I drink and smoke alot to mask my troubles, it makes me feel good while inebriated and everything is all good, cures my boredom... but when I'm not on it, I'm back in the doldrums.smh It also makes me lazy and slightly dependent.

I'm not an addict and I have a high tolerance but I know it's something I have to trade for other things.

I just need new avenues, people and ventures in my life. I'm tired of the same daily BS.

I rather be in a temple in the mountains meditating for a few years.
 
Just dropped in to give a quick note. All those acid reflux meds (PPIs) actually make things worse. Look up apple cider vinegar, it has been a miracle for many people with stomach acid problems.
tried it. I don't take any ppi. I used to years ago but they didn't help and I have trouble taking any medication cause I have liver problems.
Have tried the Apple cider vinegar. I've researched this. This has taking over my life. My valve that is supposed to stay closed is always open.
.My saliva has an acid pH level of 2. that's why my teeth are eroding and my throat always Burns.I have extra saliva but it's acidic. My breath always is nasty and it grosses me out to have such a bad taste in my mouth constantly.
this is a 24/7 thing and my diet is perfect. no spicy , no chocolate, low fat, no tomatoes or tomato sauce foods , eggs beans or dairy and I drink nothing but water
. Ive seen like 5 different gi specialist. Now I'm in the process of going to see a specialist at UCLA to see about getting me fundoplication surgery .
 
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tried it. I don't take any ppi. I used to years ago but they didn't help and I have trouble taking any medication cause I have liver problems.
Have tried the Apple cider vinegar. I've researched this. This has taking over my life. My valve that is supposed to stay closed is always open.
.My saliva has an acid pH level of 2. that's why my teeth are eroding and my throat always Burns.I have extra saliva but it's acidic. My breath always is nasty and it grosses me out to have such a bad taste in my mouth constantly.
this is a 24/7 thing and my diet is perfect. no spicy , no chocolate, low fat, no tomatoes or tomato sauce foods , eggs beans or dairy and I drink nothing but water
. Ive seen like 5 different gi specialist. Now I'm in the process of going to see a specialist at UCLA to see about getting me fundoplication surgery .
Sorry to hear that man, yea the valve surgery is sometimes a last resort for people. I can only imagine it even affects your sleep.

Hope you're able to get the help you need. In the meanwhile a trick I used to get better is not to drink anything until at least 20-30 mins after eating, also drink only spring water as tap water messes with acidity.

Whatever it is don't let this defeat you, I've been there and things eventually got much better.
 
Been reading up on BA (Behavioral Activation). Interesting points made on getting out of the norm and seeking positive reinforcement rather than waiting for it. Key thing I get from it is the word "waiting".

The stories in these last few pages have caught my attention and it's disheartening that my fellow NT go through this.

Try to go out and experience new things. Their are plenty of activities in the community that are free and cost little $$ to attend. I've worked with at risk adolescents on social skills and I know it's hard to engage in real time. But hey.. U took the step on airing out your biz on NT.. That's a positive reinforcement right there..

Keep y'all heads up and seek new things in life.. One Love..
 
Just dropped in to give a quick note. All those acid reflux meds (PPIs) actually make things worse. Look up apple cider vinegar, it has been a miracle for many people with stomach acid problems.
tried it. I don't take any ppi. I used to years ago but they didn't help and I have trouble taking any medication cause I have liver problems.
Have tried the Apple cider vinegar. I've researched this. This has taking over my life. My valve that is supposed to stay closed is always open.
.My saliva has an acid pH level of 2. that's why my teeth are eroding and my throat always Burns.I have extra saliva but it's acidic. My breath always is nasty and it grosses me out to have such a bad taste in my mouth constantly.
this is a 24/7 thing and my diet is perfect. no spicy , no chocolate, low fat, no tomatoes or tomato sauce foods , eggs beans or dairy and I drink nothing but water
. Ive seen like 5 different gi specialist. Now I'm in the process of going to see a specialist at UCLA to see about getting me fundoplication surgery .

Have you tried Betaine HCl tablets before eating? ACV is a much more mild form of adding acid to the stomach for easier digestion, which obviously didn't work in your severe case.

Additionally, digestive enzymes might also help with the breaking down of food.

There is a brain-gut connection and if I'm not mistaken you've had anxiety for most of your life? This will wreak havoc on your digestion even after you get the corrective surgery.

Have you been tested for h. pylori? This is another thing to consider as this infection makes the gut unable to produce stomach acid. Without sufficient stomach acid our body cannot properly digest food and thus our intestinal tract will not be able to absorb key vitamins and minerals. So you're looking at B12, Vitamin D, and magnesium deficiences which result in mental disorders. It's all a massive domino effect.
 
The stories in these last few pages have caught my attention and it's disheartening that my fellow NT go through this.
I'm seriously starting to believe it's an American issue. Maybe even worse up here in the Northeast. Do other countries have an issue with mental health to the extent that we do? I doubt it.

Seems like there is too much emphasis on material success as opposed to spending the majority of life bonding with oneself, others, and nature. I have some friends that are outdoorsy (hiking, climbing, camping, snowboarding, etc) and they all seem the most legitimately content. I think the pressure of American's idea of success leads to a lot of these anxiety and depression issues.
 
 
I'm seriously starting to believe it's an American issue. Maybe even worse up here in the Northeast. Do other countries have an issue with mental health to the extent that we do? I doubt it.

Seems like there is too much emphasis on material success as opposed to spending the majority of life bonding with oneself, others, and nature. I have some friends that are outdoorsy (hiking, climbing, camping, snowboarding, etc) and they all seem the most legitimately content. I think the pressure of American's idea of success leads to a lot of these anxiety and depression issues.
America seems to have more problems with mental health that turns into violence but as far as general anxiety and depression go I'd say that's more or less the same no matter the country. I think the US gun culture plays a large role in aggravating mental health issues to violence. 
 
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Have you tried Betaine HCl tablets before eating? ACV is a much more mild form of adding acid to the stomach for easier digestion, which obviously didn't work in your severe case.

Additionally, digestive enzymes might also help with the breaking down of food.

There is a brain-gut connection and if I'm not mistaken you've had anxiety for most of your life? This will wreak havoc on your digestion even after you get the corrective surgery.

Have you been tested for h. pylori? This is another thing to consider as this infection makes the gut unable to produce stomach acid. Without sufficient stomach acid our body cannot properly digest food and thus our intestinal tract will not be able to absorb key vitamins and minerals. So you're looking at B12, Vitamin D, and magnesium deficiences which result in mental disorders. It's all a massive domino effect.
yeah I have social anxiety.

Yeah I've been tested for h. Pylori. I have gastritis and liver problems as well. My gallbladder was removed years ago. I've also had a couple upper gi endoscopies.
 
I get depressed outta boredom, at the moment my life is boring as a *****...

I'm broke, I ain't gon front. I can have plenty cash but I lost alot so I'm really starting from the bottom.

I drink and smoke alot to mask my troubles, it makes me feel good while inebriated and everything is all good, cures my boredom... but when I'm not on it, I'm back in the doldrums.smh It also makes me lazy and slightly dependent.

I'm not an addict and I have a high tolerance but I know it's something I have to trade for other things.

I just need new avenues, people and ventures in my life. I'm tired of the same daily BS.

I rather be in a temple in the mountains meditating for a few years.

What are your hobbies?
 
I think this post has been a long time coming.

I've been battling depression for a while now, but things have been on a slide more recently. A quick background: I grew up in an immigrant family, had nothing, and worked incredibly hard for everything I have now. So let's take a look at the major factors:

Family = good -- everything's going along okay, a couple of divorces lately, but overall good
Relationships = decent -- have a main girl who I like, but don't really have any major feelings for
Friends = okay -- everyone's on their grind and really busy -- less time to get together
Career/life goals = okay -- could be a lot better, not where I want to be at 24yo, honestly not completely sure if this is the right field
Money = okay -- no debt, no major issues, still pretty frugal
Social life = okay -- could be better; I meet a lot of people, but it all seems very transitory/somewhat fake
Alcohol = I'm nearly a high-functioning alcoholic

I feel as if I'm watching myself live my own life, sorta like an out-of-body experience. More recently, I've been thinking a lot about suicide, different ways to do it without creating a mess, potential plans of how I would carry it out, and I've been teaching my family how to do certain things as a preemptive measure just in case. It is incredibly frustrating and unsettling. At the core of it, I feel empty and am really aimless in my life.

I was having dinner with a close homie recently and he made a comment that although I speak very enthusiastically and seem engaged in convo, he notices that I have sad eyes/demeanor and talk as if I'm just responding for the sake of convo with no investment/interest/as if I'm not "all there." I hadn't noticed it before, but I've found this to be true when I look at it further. Until I truly figure it out, I'll do what I've always done: plugging and chipping away.

To be honest, I go to sleep every night and hope that I don't wake up the next day.

How you feeling lately my guy? Please reply.
 
Anyone ever take cipralex? Just got a prescription for it. I was taking propanolol and trazedone but i cant rock with it
 
I finally saw a psychiatrist and was diagnosed with general anxiety disorder and was prescribed Zoloft. Has anyone here ever taken it? I'm kind of apprehensive because I heard it can cause sexual dysfunction.

I have and am trying to take get prescribed again. If by sexual dysfunction you mean erection problems that's unlikely. The only thing that I had a problem with was due to my circumstances with my psychiatrist I had to stop. And the withdrawal messed me up for about a week or so. After that I was fine but anxious around people again. I had leftovers and attempted to get back on but I got dizzy because the dosage was too high and couldn't do much after. It was similar to taking a very high dosage of adderall.

Other than that it worked wonders for me. I was an introvert but if I had to I could deal with social situations and not get anxious or self-concious.
 
I finally saw a psychiatrist and was diagnosed with general anxiety disorder and was prescribed Zoloft. Has anyone here ever taken it? I'm kind of apprehensive because I heard it can cause sexual dysfunction.
Zoloft worked wonders for me when I was at my worst.  Honestly made me feel 100% better.  I was on it for about 18 months, then tapered off of it.  Withdrawal symptoms were mild.  The biggest issues I had on the drug were weight gain and sexual dysfunction.  The weight gain was mostly due to my diet.  I wasn't mindful of it at the time, and I finally got my appetite back after I wasn't so depressed/anxious...both of which led me to gain about 30 pounds (I lost it as soon as I got off of the meds).  The sexual dysfunction was mild, really.  I could still "perform," but my desire to have sex was somewhat blunted.  Hard to say if that was entirely due to the meds or the fact that I was in a long-term relationship at the time.  I could have very well just been bored.

Overall, I think the positives outweighed the negatives.  It's been 8 years since I got off of it and I haven't touched a psych med since.  
 
I have and am trying to take get prescribed again. If by sexual dysfunction you mean erection problems that's unlikely. The only thing that I had a problem with was due to my circumstances with my psychiatrist I had to stop. And the withdrawal messed me up for about a week or so. After that I was fine but anxious around people again. I had leftovers and attempted to get back on but I got dizzy because the dosage was too high and couldn't do much after. It was similar to taking a very high dosage of adderall.

Other than that it worked wonders for me. I was an introvert but if I had to I could deal with social situations and not get anxious or self-concious.

Thank you so much for the response. What kind of side effects did you experience when you first started and how long were you on it? Thanks again
 
Zoloft worked wonders for me when I was at my worst.  Honestly made me feel 100% better.  I was on it for about 18 months, then tapered off of it.  Withdrawal symptoms were mild.  The biggest issues I had on the drug were weight gain and sexual dysfunction.  The weight gain was mostly due to my diet.  I wasn't mindful of it at the time, and I finally got my appetite back after I wasn't so depressed/anxious...both of which led me to gain about 30 pounds (I lost it as soon as I got off of the meds).  The sexual dysfunction was mild, really.  I could still "perform," but my desire to have sex was somewhat blunted.  Hard to say if that was entirely due to the meds or the fact that I was in a long-term relationship at the time.  I could have very well just been bored.

Overall, I think the positives outweighed the negatives.  It's been 8 years since I got off of it and I haven't touched a psych med since.  

Thank you as well for the response. How were the side effects for you starting off and how long did it take for the meds to start working for you? How did you feel while on them? I've read that it kinda makes you like a zombie but for others it works. Also how long did the sexual side effects last after you tapered off of the meds? Thanks again for the response.
 
 
Zoloft worked wonders for me when I was at my worst.  Honestly made me feel 100% better.  I was on it for about 18 months, then tapered off of it.  Withdrawal symptoms were mild.  The biggest issues I had on the drug were weight gain and sexual dysfunction.  The weight gain was mostly due to my diet.  I wasn't mindful of it at the time, and I finally got my appetite back after I wasn't so depressed/anxious...both of which led me to gain about 30 pounds (I lost it as soon as I got off of the meds).  The sexual dysfunction was mild, really.  I could still "perform," but my desire to have sex was somewhat blunted.  Hard to say if that was entirely due to the meds or the fact that I was in a long-term relationship at the time.  I could have very well just been bored.

Overall, I think the positives outweighed the negatives.  It's been 8 years since I got off of it and I haven't touched a psych med since.  
Thank you as well for the response. How were the side effects for you starting off and how long did it take for the meds to start working for you? How did you feel while on them? I've read that it kinda makes you like a zombie but for others it works. Also how long did the sexual side effects last after you tapered off of the meds? Thanks again for the response.
I'll address this point-by-point:
 

1.  How were the side effects for you starting off and how did it take for the meds to start working for you?:  the main side effect I had was a generalized restlessness.  I gave my family a head's up to keep an eye on me for the first few weeks, but I came out alright.  Felt like my skeleton wanted to jump out of my mouth for a day or two, but it quickly subsided.  Between 7-10 days I was on my way to going back to my regular self.  

2.  How did you feel while on them? I've read that it kinda makes you like a zombie but for others it works. : No sensations of being a "zombie,"  just felt more like myself when I was on it.  Confidence was back, sense of humor was back, and my anxiety/depression was at a minimum.  Felt it was easier to build and maintain social relationships.  There were no issues of control, either. Just felt like a a wall between me and my happiness had been broken down.

3. Also how long did the sexual side effects last after you tapered off of the meds?  For me? Right away.  It's hard for me to depict the course everyone is gonna take, though.  I was getting involved with a lot of girls around the same time I was getting off Zoloft, but I was also getting out of a long-term relationship and was admittedly bored.  If the girl is worth it, you'll be able to perform...believe me.  

Hit me up if you have any more questions. 
 
I took Lexapro, did the job for me. It wasn't automatically noticeable to me just one day I realized "I feel okay today". What I appreciated the most were even when I had sad moments it was just that, a moment compared to before I would let it consume my entire day. Some people call that blunted emotions but I needed it at the time.

The wild sign effects really don't happen as much as people say. Withdrawal is a doozy though :smh:
 
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Thank you so much for the response. What kind of side effects did you experience when you first started and how long were you on it? Thanks again

I honestly can't think of a side effect, maybe slight dizziness. I would say I was "dulled" from wanting sex, but it's hard to say if that is a side effect since it wasn't too much different than I normally am.

I was on it for about a year. Slowly but surely the dose was increased and it takes about a week or two to get in and out of your system. The out was the only side effect that actually was messing me up. Which made me dizzy and gave me an "out of it" feeling.
 
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