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2016 has been a roller coaster. I've lost weight and re-enrolled into school. I got a new job recently that is ok but allows me to go to school while working full time. What excites me is I'm actually putting time and effort into school and I'm starting to see the fruits of my labor. There's this sense of accomplishment I've never had before. I decided to change my life around and have made great strides doing so. I know what I want out of life and I'm doing everything I possibly can in doing so. There are other contributing factors in my life change but hating myself for so long is the most important one.
I've learned to manage a lot of my issues.
My only big issue left is drinking. I've cut down tremendously but I feel as if I need to totally eliminate it. Any low I had this year has been directly contributed to alcohol. I won't get into details but there's been mornings (such as this one) where I wake up completely hating myself from the night before. I feel as if one of these days it's going to catch up to me and completely ruin my life, knocking down everything that I have worked for.
I've improved a lot however and got it to the point where there's only one person I go out drinking with.
Enter the one friend that's always been there for me. I can't say I had many friends growing up but the ones I did have were great. There is one in particular that is above the others. He's the only person outside of my family that I have ever truly cared for. He's smart and a man of his word to others. Need help moving something? He's there. Need something done by Friday? He'll have it done Thursday. Need a place to crash? He'll have a pillow and blanket ready for you along with some warm food. He's even let friends borrow his car. In a sense, he's very trustworthy. This friend has never told a lie and can tell the truth to other people in a respectful manner. Having said all of this however , for some reason , he can't seem to improve himself. The only person he lies to is himself. He has a drinking problem and I have encouraged him to slow down but he doesn't listen to me He thinks drinking before work and downing a six pack every night is normal. In fact he thinks drinking 12 beers is light weight. . He's attempted stopping several times but by the end of the week he's out getting ****faced. He still lives with his mom and just recently quit his job simply because he hated it (he's a good worker but couldn't stand it anymore). I've done everything I can to help him follow his dreams but he has done nothing in attempt to do so. He encourages others to do great things in life ... but for some reason can't do so himself.
I hate to admit this...but I guess ... it's getting to the point where I feel kind of obligated to hang out with him since , in a way, he's a good person.
I need help moving on... I know my life will be better if I do so..
I just don't know if I can let someone who's been nothing but good to me , go.
I've learned to manage a lot of my issues.
My only big issue left is drinking. I've cut down tremendously but I feel as if I need to totally eliminate it. Any low I had this year has been directly contributed to alcohol. I won't get into details but there's been mornings (such as this one) where I wake up completely hating myself from the night before. I feel as if one of these days it's going to catch up to me and completely ruin my life, knocking down everything that I have worked for.
I've improved a lot however and got it to the point where there's only one person I go out drinking with.
Enter the one friend that's always been there for me. I can't say I had many friends growing up but the ones I did have were great. There is one in particular that is above the others. He's the only person outside of my family that I have ever truly cared for. He's smart and a man of his word to others. Need help moving something? He's there. Need something done by Friday? He'll have it done Thursday. Need a place to crash? He'll have a pillow and blanket ready for you along with some warm food. He's even let friends borrow his car. In a sense, he's very trustworthy. This friend has never told a lie and can tell the truth to other people in a respectful manner. Having said all of this however , for some reason , he can't seem to improve himself. The only person he lies to is himself. He has a drinking problem and I have encouraged him to slow down but he doesn't listen to me He thinks drinking before work and downing a six pack every night is normal. In fact he thinks drinking 12 beers is light weight. . He's attempted stopping several times but by the end of the week he's out getting ****faced. He still lives with his mom and just recently quit his job simply because he hated it (he's a good worker but couldn't stand it anymore). I've done everything I can to help him follow his dreams but he has done nothing in attempt to do so. He encourages others to do great things in life ... but for some reason can't do so himself.
I hate to admit this...but I guess ... it's getting to the point where I feel kind of obligated to hang out with him since , in a way, he's a good person.
I need help moving on... I know my life will be better if I do so..
I just don't know if I can let someone who's been nothing but good to me , go.
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