Nek32 wrote:
How do you feel? If some of you remember about a year ago I posted a "girl problem" thread about the girl I split up with....who had possibly lead the most messed up and heartbreaking life in her 21 years; which left her with many many mental disorders and personal problems. We had a horrible split and never talked again...until yesterday. She tracked me down, as well as a number of our common friends and her family, and I found out she has pancreatic cancer and it is far along....she doesn't have much time to live, she is moving back from las vegas to wisconsin to be with her family. Aside from all the horrible things I said about her when we split, I feel like a member of my family is dying....even though this is someone who did very bad things to me and I haven't heard from in a year. I've been in shock and holding back breaking down all day, and after the convo I had with her on the phone it's even worse. I mean, i hated her for what she did to me...but NOBODY deserves this. Especially after all the crap she grew up with, I feel so terrible when I think about she basically has been on this earth for 22 years to just suffer
For those who don't remember my post about her past....this is some of the stuff she's gone through...
- She was raised by her alcoholic mother. No father.
- Basically cared for her mother and raised her little sister.
- Was raped as a young girl by her uncle.
- Was forced to stay with relatives who sexually abused her on a daily basis.
- Was disowned by most of her friends because of who her mother was...had no friends in high school and ate lunch with student teachers
- In an abusive relationship with a man who used to hit her, got her pregnant and moved away. She then got an abortion and the guy came back.
That's just some of it......and now, she has to suffer through this. I wish I could see where God's plan calls for 22 years of pain and suffering for someone.
Originally Posted by Nek32
^ She asked me to be there for her. I said I will be, and I plan to be. I've let everything in our past be gone and I'm giving her all the strength I can...it's no longer a "she did me wrong" type of thing....it's more of a one human being to another, I don't wish this upon anybody. If me being by her sides comforts her, then that where I'll be, as hard as it may be.
