Life def has a way of changing once you sober up. I've thought about lighting up like ninja suggests but I'm not sure if I'm ready to rid one addiction for another possible addiction. My goal has to change my life by sobering up, which has happened. I've had several opportunities come my way that wouldn't have occured if I was still abusing alcohol, and I'm about to start a new job that's paying me the most money I've ever made in my life next month, but I'm bored as hell. I used to love getting bent and acting a fool espacing death or arrest some nights for a cheap thrill, but I miss the rush of being a drunk low life as sad as it sounds. I think I need to join some type of athletics league or hit the gym like many NTers have requested. My addiction resulted in me not caring about my health which resulted in me gaigning weight. I need to get in the gym but simply going to the gym doesn't sound fun to me. In my head it's easier to get drunk, spit drunk game at some bimbo and take her home if my drunk game was good enough that night. Being sober I've realized that my mouth piece and game isn't as tight as I'd like it to be and I feel like Kobe during his last season in the league throwin up bricks, no 60 point final game. It's kind of a beautiful struggle to regain my confidence, rebuild my body and mind while fighting off addictions all while getting ready to start this new career. I have some great opportunities lined up for me and it's like I can't appreciate them because I'm sober and bored....
