Listen to this man
Yo real talk my first relationship was like this

got forced into it because of an ultimatum
Shorty I been talking to for like 4 months finally moved back, I smashed and got caught up in the box. Smashed every day for about 3 weeks. I sweartagod I was at Walmart buying boxes of condoms every week and a half.
One day she gave me the talk, and me, being the real ***** I am, wasn't giving no straight answers. Questions like "what are we?" (I HATE THAT QUESTION) and I'm like "we is what we is ma"
Eventually she's like "well we need to be in a relationship or you ain't getting no box from me" (wasn't what she said but it's what I took from it). Now if I knew then what I know today, I would've said **** it and said no relationship, because I KNOW that I would still be able to smash. Damnit why didn't I take that route
Anyways I was a sucka ***** and succumbed to the relationship. I ain't gonna lie, it was cool while it lasted though (1.5 years) but after that 1 year mark it went downhill. Arguments, shorty had trust issues, shorty was crazy, etc started to come about and I wasn't trynna have parts of that. I circumcised her from my life after that. The box kept calling me though, so of course me being the man I am is gonna go to the most convenient source of box. So I go for about a week straight, smashing every day...till I get that text "so what are we?"
NOPE..wasn't falling for that again
Moral of the story. Go with what your heart and mind tells you to. Don't follow your **** because it will not lead you to the best destination. The most convenient thing ain't necessarily the smartest thing