Hey everyone

[Zainjal26]

For the past 5 years me and my girlfriend were doing great. No major issues

last year I even ended up donating my kidney to her sister because I loved my girlfriend so much I didn’t want her to lose a family member.

all of a sudden 3 weeks ago a switch goes off - she tells me she’s seeing someone, and to leave her alone. I’m originally thinking maybe she just wants space - just so wierd because there were no arguments before this so - out of nowhere.

2 weeks go by and as you can imagine I am severely depressed .
So yesterday I ask her how she’s doing and if she needs anything . She calls me and curses me out

“ im Going to have my boyfriend come and **** you up“ , “ I’ll get the cops involved if you don’t stop bothering me” “ I hate you”

my heart sank. Felt like Mike Tyson punched me in the face. ( I live in Long Island and she lives in manhattan) I took the lirr that night to her place ( I didn’t knock or anything) I left a note in an envelope at her door with a necklace she gifted me saying if you’re reading this I’m probably already dead But it’s not your fault i genuinely hate myself.


the next morning cops / ambulance show up at my door for a wellness check since she reported me. keep in mind I was this THIS close to hanging myself but I didn’t. My mom kept me from doing it. I went to the hospital and explained the situation to them and they discharged me in 2 hours.
I get a call from her later in the day today saying “ if you don’t stop harassing me I will change my number and report you to the police and get a order of protection “ don’t worry I’m not contacting her anymore.

but this whole situation just has me so depressed and on the verge of suicide. I’m wanting so badly to chug bleach , or hang myself. my favorite person in the world just changed on me and is now seeing someone else. Part of my depression is thinking I’m not good enough and what this guy has that i don’t. Why god hates me and laughs at me when I pray for better days.



I’ve even written a note of 2 pages - one to my family and one to her . asking whoever finds this to let her know it wasn’t her fault I was having a lot of issues.

man through her good times and bad I was always there. Would drop everything to come and see her.
even donated my kidney to her sister so she doesn’t lose a family member. And I get told “ leave me alone or cops will get involved “




hahah. I hate myself. I hate life. I want it to end. It’s tormenting me in ways I can’t even explain.



Sorry needed to vent. I don’t have a lot of friends I can speak to

 

[robpzee612]

 

[Master Zik]

Seek help from a professional.

 

[Zainjal26]

Seek help from a professional.

I’ve tried bro they just make the problem worse

 

[s dubl]

Surprising that they didn’t put you on a 72 hour hold in some type of mental health hospital.

Trust and believe, that there are people that love and care for you. And God doesn’t hate you, nor is He laughing at you. At times, He will close doors, just to open new ones.

I don’t always have the right words to say, but my dm is open, always. Can even exchange numbers, and we can text or whatever.

Love you brother.

 

[6 Rings G.O.A.T.]

Seek help from a professional.

 

[dmbrhs]

 

[Zainjal26]

Called them 3 times today haha

 

[Master Zik]

I’ve tried bro they just make the problem worse

Consider commiting yourself voluntarily to a facility if you really want to live and for things to change/be better.

 

[ryda421]

If you have money saved up, take a trip far away. It will feel weird at first but then you'll realize that you can overcome it. Life is too precious to sink into that negativity.

Value yourself and then the wheels of fortune will turn.

 

[Zainjal26]

If you have money saved up, take a trip far away. It will feel weird at first but then you'll realize that you can overcome it. Life is too precious to sink into that negativity.

Value yourself and then the wheels of fortune will turn.

As pathetic as it sounds I spent every dime on her haha

 

[ryda421]

As pathetic as it sounds I spent every dime on her haha

Are you trolling? You said that your mom stopped you from committing death upon yourself?

I would think you have some kind of financial safety net if you're able to post here.

 

[Zainjal26]

Are you trolling? You said that your mom stopped you from committing death upon yourself?

I would think you have some kind of financial safety net if you're able to post here.

Not trolling. I spent every dime I had on her. Currently living with my parents broke af

 

[degenerate423]

As pathetic as it sounds I spent every dime on her haha

I’ve done that too, it happens to the best of us. While you’re getting your finances in order, would you consider volunteering at an animal shelter or food bank? You’d be making such a huge impact in your community and keeping yourself busy. Things WILL get better just give yourself some time to heal. Feel free to DM me if you need anything.

 

[Davey Magoo]

I don’t really know what to say.

Feels like the description of what happened is incomplete and there’s more to be said about why she may have moved on.

Either way I hope you don’t hurt yourself.

If enough time goes by you can get over any relationship. But it sounds like your pain goes deeper than a girlfriend who broke up with you.

Try to talk to as many people about this as you can. Staying in your house and becoming trapped in your own head would be the worst thing for you right now.

I hope things work out for you.

 

[finessence]

You learned a major lesson… you were too available and gave her too much, for too long.

She took advantage of you. You either learn from it or let it debilitate you. Can’t be giving women everything. Adults are responsible for their own happiness.

How old are you? Again, all you did was learn a MAJOR lesson.

Leave her in the past where she belongs. Strengthen your mind and learn to put yourself first

 

[ryda421]

Not trolling. I spent every dime I had on her. Currently living with my parents broke af

At least you're not homeless, you still have a roof over your head and I would think there's enough food in the fridge that you aren't starving.

Do your best to focus on the small positive steps, that should give you some sense of stability.

 

[cubanref]

No partner is worth taking your own life over OP....

Take this as an opportunity for a fresh start. Like others have said, focus on yourself and take it one day at a time.

DM is open if you need to chat

 

[putting in work]

Bro take it easy. We are here for you.

Nobody is worth taking your life over especially one that doesn't value you.

I know it's hard right now but you have to give it time and you will heal.

Start going out and just trying to talk to other girls it's the only thing that will get you over her faster.

Block her from all social media and don't go stalking her online or real life.

Don't go listening to love songs or r&b crap because it will only make you think of her.

As finessence said this is a lesson that you have to learn from.

And most importantly hit the gym and play basketball it will get your mind off of her.

 

[TURBO UNO]

OP needs to learn the lesson of loving yourself more. She got someone new? Cool, I'm gonna hit the gym, eat better, save money to build up and date new girls. What you should never do is take them back. Pour into yourself instead and enjoy the show

 

[ghenges]

Okay, first off, don't off yourself. Millions of people are getting their heart broken every day. It's part of life. It hurts. Terrible pain.

But bro there are 2 game 7s today on TV. The playoff Jordan VIIs are coming back out next year. We are getting True Blues and Spacejams later this year. Plus there are like 10 good movies releasing this year. Lots of stuff going on.

This stuff passes eventually then you look back and kind of cringe at how you were in current state.

 

[aepps20]

You are very valuable fam. Don’t give up. I know life is hard right now but you will get through this. I’m praying for you right now for healing in your mind and your heart. The world will be much worse without you. Think about your family and loved ones that will miss you. NT will miss you. Please call one of the resources listed here but please pm me if you would like to chat.

 

[703 hwy]

Life is rough for everyone even the people you see smiling. Don’t do anything stupid man. Take it day by day and as others have said reach out to any of us.

 

[DCAllAfrican]

She ain't better than you man. Cut out all that taking your life stuff. You are better than that, you just need to figure that part out.

Find a hobby if you don't already have one, or dig your heels into that hobby.

Just go get busy so you aren't sitting around thinking about someone that doesn't value you.

Cut out all that killing yourself talk though man.

 

[Davey Magoo]

Whatever you do, you CANNOT trust the voices in your head right now.

They’re lying to you about what’s real and what’s not.

Don’t listen to them.

Listen to people you trust until you can manage to climb over the hump of this seemingly hopeless feeling you have.

Because your situation is not hopeless.

It only seems that way right now.