I Hate Myself

[johnnyredstorm]

I just feel like where I am in life right now is a joke compared to what I'm capable of. I feel like an assclown. I wanna bang my best friend's ex for no particular reason. I just wanna **** and choke the **** out of her. I'm indifferent to my job and feel like I'll dread doing it in a few months, let alone a few years. My writing career has been basically nonexistent. I have some nice outlines and plenty of notes I wanna work on but the desire to actually get started and find that rhythm has been lacking. I just need to vent and Ninjahood won't let me post in the TAN

 

[freakydestroyer]

I just feel like where I am in life right now is a joke compared to what I'm capable of. I feel like an assclown. I wanna bang my best friend's ex for no particular reason. I just wanna **** and choke the **** out of her. I'm indifferent to my job and feel like I'll dread doing it in a few months, let alone a few years. My writing career has been basically nonexistent. I have some nice outlines and plenty of notes I wanna work on but the desire to actually get started and find that rhythm has been lacking. I just need to vent and Ninjahood won't let me post in the TAN

What is "TAN"?

 

[johnnyredstorm]

thread about nothing

 

[lil black jean jacket]

Don't give up & stay positive.

 

[RIP sleazyy]

I understand the feeling. I wish I had some uplifting words to say after that. I really do. good luck to you.

 

[chino905]

stay positive bro. life is good.

 

[ninjahood]

#firstworldproblems

 

[classy freshman]

Embrace the struggle my man. Life is not easy. There are going to be times where you are tested and pushed to your limits, and that is when you find out what kind of man you really are. But when you do overcome all of your obstacles, it is going to make the feeling of accomplishment and achievement that much more rewarding.

So stay positive, and keep at it, and you will be fine.

 

[Nawzlew]

. I just need to vent and Ninjahood won't let me post in the TAN

 

[jesusshuttlesworth34]

I guess it is all relative.


These "problems" don't seem like they warrant self hatred though. Better yourself and garner some confidence in your abilities.

 

[g14]

where is the ambition?

turn up hommie

 

[mr brown]

i say smash ol girl real talk. youll probably feel better after. don't tell no one though

 

[jwong]

Get yourself out of that funk man.

Change it up and do something you don't usually do: go on a weekend trip, meet up with a really old friend you haven't seen in a while, go on a really long run or walk, etc.

Good luck.

 

[nicelikechrist]

Aye man I want to **** and choke the **** out of damn near every girl I see and I'm feeling good

Don't beat yourself up

 

[andee]

JRS, stay up dude. You're a good guy from the times I've talked to you, and things don't progress as fast as we sometimes want. It's easy for us to be hard on ourselves but that type of thinking gets us nowhere. I spent the last year slamming dope in crackhouses, but now I have almost a month clean and I'm trying to get a job and finish school. It would be too easy to give up but I'm not going out like that. You'll be alright man.. You just gotta convince yourself that you're gonna make it. It's all about your attitude. Peace.

 

[noob saibot]

JRS, stay up dude. You're a good guy from the times I've talked to you, and things don't progress as fast as we sometimes want. It's easy for us to be hard on ourselves but that type of thinking gets us nowhere. I spent the last year slamming dope in crackhouses, but now I have almost a month clean and I'm trying to get a job and finish school. It would be too easy to give up but I'm not going out like that. You'll be alright man.. You just gotta convince yourself that you're gonna make it. It's all about your attitude. Peace.

You were a crackhead? Proud you made it out man, keep working hard

 

[Mactastic4167]

Always remember that is somebody somewhere who is going through something 10x worse. Stay positive and keep ya head up. All things come to pass, whether or not you will ever see it depends on your drive to see it through to the end.

Peace !

 

[freakydestroyer]

I don't want to come across as a jerk, but I thought OP was trolling.

 

[Gill Baka Esq. LLC.]

I just feel like where I am in life right now is a joke compared to what I'm capable of. I feel like an assclown. I wanna bang my best friend's ex for no particular reason. I just wanna **** and choke the **** out of her. I'm indifferent to my job and feel like I'll dread doing it in a few months, let alone a few years. My writing career has been basically nonexistent. I have some nice outlines and plenty of notes I wanna work on but the desire to actually get started and find that rhythm has been lacking. I just need to vent and Ninjahood won't let me post in the TAN

wut?

 

[a55a5in11]

Kadeem Carey rushed for over 350 yds today for Arizona. These PAC-12 defenses this year are not showing up at all

thats why y'all threw a goose egg up on my ducks

 

[matt53]

Kadeem Carey rushed for over 350 yds today for Arizona. These PAC-12 defenses this year are not showing up at all

thats why y'all threw a goose egg up on my ducks

.....anyway,

OP here is an experiment I want you to try:

For 2 weeks I want you to make a concious effort to do something of service for someone else, preferably something they can't do for themselves. Whether it's paying for someone's lunch or volunteering your time, do this every day for two weeks and I guarantee your view will change. If not, come talk to me. Serving others is the most basic way to find peace within yourself

 

[jhawk826]

Its easy to say stay positive when you aren't going through something, but its not easy. Miss me with "someone has it 10x worse". Yeah they do, but at the end of the day I still have my own **** to deal with whether someone is doing worse than me or not. I can relate to OP on a level especially not being where I want to be at this point in time with my career and how long I've been out of school. I've stayed off of Facebook because all it is at this point is a brag fest and I can't stand it.

 

[xbiker47]

stay positive bro. life is good.

 

[jjs]

If you don't like the person you are, change for the better.

Everybody can change. If you want it, go get it.

 

[fac3 tak30v312]

I've been exactly where you are and go through this from time to time. You need to wallow in that self pity/hatred for a while. Then there's going to come a point where you get so disgusted with your self that you start moving things in the right direction. At least that's how it works for me. Stay away from empty words of positivity, you'll be better off living in this feeling, listening to it, then fighting your way out of it. Honestly, I've felt the same exact way, even down to the angry sex.