im going crazy

[gangstagrillz]

realtalk im goin bat **** crazy. i dont know what to do anymore. its getting outta hand b

its so wild that i even look crazy. i used to smoke stupid amounts of loud and im pretty sure that has played a part. i smoked a bad bag at a wu tang concert like 2 years ago and since then i started having bad trips when i blaze. i also grew up in a pretty rough place.(chicago southside.englewood) but people NEVER try me cause they i look "crazy". i dont have anymore friends. dont talk to anybody in my family either except my grandmother. they all turned their backs on me. its hurts a lot because i feel like i need them more than ever right now. 

my whole life has been really really weird. like weird weird. not 'raped when i was a kid weird' but kinda like that you feel me?

a lotta times i think about shooting up the mall or runnin up in banks and blasting people. **** like that. or jumping off a bridge. i looked up some shrinks about a year or so ago made some calls to try and get myself some help but to no avail.

also, cant i get paid for being crazy? how do i go about that? cause i cant go to a job. i cant be around people no more. fu*k everybody. also i tweak out real bad if im on the train with hella people. people just too phony for me. i hate society some all the time.

 

[solexsup]

Def put out a mixtape

 

[mackmittenzz]

I feel this...not to the extent of going on a killin spree...but I ain't got no friends nether...I changed my lifestyle for the better, and everybody jus so fake...what can mac do for them, is the way they think...I can't stand people nether... It's all good tho cuz they wasn't real...they wanted 2 blow my loud ect. Ect.

I should b out goin ham rite now.....it's Friday....and I got paid.. But I really look at what ninjas even hit me up for in the first place now...seem 2 me like ****** only hmu cuz they want something, and I can't get down like that..

 

[guzzy]

Go take a long walk.

Clear your head,think about your life. Where its at, where its heading, where you came from.

That's what I do when I'm out of it. 

 

[johnnyredstorm]

sounds like you've been reading catcher in the rye every day for the past 20 years. number one, stop smoking weed. if your trips aren't lovely and calming, drop the habit. number two, find what you love in life and focus on that. your transformation won't happen in a day, it won't be a week, you'll need time and you have to realize and understand that. take each day for it is, one day with one chance to do something special. read some good literature, turn off the tv, and listen to some different music like classical for instance to open your mind up to some new sounds. start meditating, stop focusing on what bothers you and just focus on love. learn to love everyone and everything on this planet and you'll finally feel good enough to love yourself.

 

[freeze]

Don't hurt yourself, no anybody else. We all go a little crazy, but the first step in recovery is admitting you're losing it. Try the therapy angle again. Voicing your issues and taking ownership over them can help you cope with them. Remember, no matter how bad it gets, it can always be worse.

'The man felt bad he had no shoes, til he saw a man that had no feet'


Long as youre still in the game, you have a chance to change the score, remember that.

 

[so nyuh shi dae]

get a grip.

 

[mjdalegend]

don't worry, you're fine cuz we're all crazy mutha #($.

 

[serotonins]

So your environment when you were a youngin' is now hitting you how cold the world can really be.. Hmm 

Well you said you had a bad batch at the wu tang concert and every time you smoke now you have bad trips.. how hard is it for you to quit puffin?!

Where are all your old friends at doe.. I think you should surround yourself with an environment where you know there is positive energy and can make friends 

 

[elcatfisho]

You can't let the people around you define your life in ways that makes you turmoil inside. If they don't like you, move on from them. If you want to make a mixtape, do it. If you feel that marijuana is negatively impacting your quality of life, then stop smoking for a while.

I went through a tough time emotionally this past summer and I'm glad I went through it because it cleared up a lot of conflicts that I was bothered by. I still think about those conflicts. You need to think clearly about where you want to be in the future and if you think those certain individuals can't make your future happen for you, then don't include them.

Try to ask your friends for some support in your life. If they don't want to help you out when you're down, then they aren't what you need. You don't need people to enjoy life, and ironically people will vouch for that statement.

Go for a walk from time to time, shoot some hoops, or do an easy activity of some sort if you ever start thinking about bad things.

I thought about going full-crazy at one time but I realized that it'd lock me away from a lot of things I haven't even done or would want to enjoy in the future.

Don't be too hard on yourself.

 

[SHERLOCK87]

go full out job applications, no time for making excuses

 

[jpthe3]

You sound like me brah 

we should definetly blaze 1

I myself am crazy , in the same situation

I be on some cray cray , 

but bro , you can use the cray

empower yourself with the power of the cray , only you know who you reallly are so what people think dont matter , 

i say keep on blazing and drop a mixtape

youll go somewhere with that 

express your inner crazy

" BUSTAS THINK IM CRAZY , BUT IM STILL BLAZING