real talk NT vol: depression

[carbine]

lately i feel like i find myself staying up at night constantly thinking of my childhood and parts of my life. i keep wishing i could go back and change somuch, even though i know i cant. theres so many things i would have done different, i wish i didnt give my parents such a hard time and just appreciated howgood i had it. i mean i think of hurtful things i said to them and wonder if they still remember them as clearly as i did. i mean sometimes i feel like thereisnt much else to look forward to, like i just feel like dying at times. like it would be easier than this, not that my life is prespectively all that bad. ijust seem to hold on to every fault of mine and i cant forget or move on. can anyone recomend me some helpful things?

sorry, no cliffnotes. and i know i will get flamed for this, so call me a !+$#* or w/e. but help would be appreciated. i just needed to vent.
lock this if neccesary

 

[ballinb]

keep your head up, it's never too late to clear up issues with family

 

[brooklynnyc3000]

It's never too late to make a change man.

Go have a talk with your parents and tell them how you feel.

 

[physicx]

how old are you if you dont mind me asking?

and yeah, its never too late to patch thing up with the family

 

[carbine]

^

17

 

[physicx]

have you already moved out out of your parents house?

you said how you wondered if they remembered the old you

 

[thipham]

well what are you doing wrong? btw 17 is still young still have a lot going for yourself

 

[18key]

17 is too young to be worrying about your past. It's especially too young to let your past affect you. So if you need to, just apologize to everyone youdid wrong.
Dont look to drugs tho, just in case you smoke weed or something. If you're depressed and start doing drugs you're gonna ruin your life. Either byforming a dependence on something like alcohol or moving on to harder things like heroin.

 

[p0tat0 5alad]

Fam, its like you read my mind.

How long you been feeling this way? I've been in my rut since summer started. Its just constant arguing with parents, summer classes/homework, looking fora job, car problems, no girl, no friends to hang out with, living in new area, etc. Everything that can go wrong does go wrong. It seems like no matter what Ido, it doesn't release stress, it is only temporarily gone.

 

[crank lucas]

ehh you'll be fine

 

[13saldana13]

Surround your self with people that you like and try to make up for the wrongs that you have done. If you can't make up for the wrongs, for example, theones with your parents, try to forget it nothing you can do now.

I've said some things to my parents, I never actually have said sorry, but I try to improve my attitude and act nicer towards them-basically try to makethem happy. Sometimes they deserved what I said to them though.

Be more social if you already aren't and like I said surround yourself with people who give you a positive vibe. There's many things to live for;helping your family, becoming wealthy, having a family, having children, and if you're not a family hooking up with as many women as you possiblycan...believe there's many things you can do.

I have some mental issues; anxiety disorder, minor ocd, bi-polar (i think because sometimes my mood alternates drastically), and clinical depression. I'vehad all those things since I was a little boy and I've lived a happy live, sure the anxiety and depression come back sometimes, but then I realize it'sall in my head.

P.S. if you're not able to get over the depression by yourself, go see a psychiatrist so you can get some anti-depressants or at least so you can talk tosomebody.

 

[kix4kix]

 

[carbine]

Originally Posted by 18key

17 is too young to be worrying about your past. It's especially too young to let your past affect you. So if you need to, just apologize to everyone you did wrong.
Dont look to drugs tho, just in case you smoke weed or something. If you're depressed and start doing drugs you're gonna ruin your life. Either by forming a dependence on something like alcohol or moving on to harder things like heroin.

i dont want to get too personal. i just have a lot of guilt for past actions/words and things ive put my parents through. ive thought about it, i just dontknow how to go about it. i feel like my parents will just see it as pathetic. havent smoked weed in a while, but lately i look forward to drinking on theweekends. nothing feels quite the same anymore, my team winning, making 10 baskets in a row, it just dosnt feel the same. maybe im not depressed and im justgetting older. :/

 

[rko2004]

We all make mistakes bro. Its a part of life. The goal is to use our past to mold our future. Use your problems from the past to better the future. If youtruly feel upset, get the monkey off your back and talk about this with your parents.

As for depression, I believe we all deal with it from time to time. You have to find a way to channel it in to positivity.

 

[freshkrn]

puberty, so dont worry

 

[filipin0y]

i feel the same damn way homie

 

[18key]

Originally Posted by carbine

Originally Posted by 18key

17 is too young to be worrying about your past. It's especially too young to let your past affect you. So if you need to, just apologize to everyone you did wrong.
Dont look to drugs tho, just in case you smoke weed or something. If you're depressed and start doing drugs you're gonna ruin your life. Either by forming a dependence on something like alcohol or moving on to harder things like heroin.

i dont want to get too personal. i just have a lot of guilt for past actions/words and things ive put my parents through. ive thought about it, i just dont know how to go about it. i feel like my parents will just see it as pathetic. havent smoked weed in a while, but lately i look forward to drinking on the weekends. nothing feels quite the same anymore, my team winning, making 10 baskets in a row, it just dosnt feel the same. maybe im not depressed and im just getting older. :/

Unless your parents consistently win the Worst Parents of the Year award, they wont see any weakness in you admitting your faults. Hell,they'll probably see you as stronger for being able to admit your !*!# ups and say sorry. Signs of respect.
Cut back on the drinking son. My best friend almost ruined his life with alcohol. Luckily he got arrested and put on probation. If it weren't for that, hemight be dead.

 

[carbine]

Originally Posted by p0tat0 5alad

Fam, its like you read my mind.

How long you been feeling this way? I've been in my rut since summer started. Its just constant arguing with parents, summer classes/homework, looking for a job, car problems, no girl, no friends to hang out with, living in new area, etc. Everything that can go wrong does go wrong. It seems like no matter what I do, it doesn't release stress, it is only temporarily gone.

its hard to judge exactly, it comes and goes. i would say it hasnt been like this during school, maybe i had more things to occupy my time. ive had a girl fora while and idk i just dont feel as happy anymore i need more time with my friends. im so out of it with some of my best friends its been years since wevereally hung out. maybe i need to get out of this serious relationship and stop pretending to be 25 and married and just be 17 while i can

 

[nick0lis]

i feel the say way too. NWO??

 

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[carbine]

Originally Posted by filipin0y

i feel the same damn way homie

you ever feel like everything has gotten so routine that true happiness like you had as a child doesnt really happen anymore?

 

[rko2004]

Originally Posted by carbine

Originally Posted by filipin0y

i feel the same damn way homie

you ever feel like everything has gotten so routine that true happiness like you had as a child doesnt really happen anymore?

Hmmm, what are some things that interest you that you haven't tried yet?

 

[gregzzy23]

Sounds like you're just going through a rough patch, we've ALL been through it..there's NOTHING you can do to change the past but you can startshowing appreciation for your parents and TRUST me, eventually those hurtful things/actions will be thrown out the window because nobody's parents WANT tohold grudges against their children.

Also definitely stop yourself if you find yourself relying on alcohol/drugs to be in a good state of mind because that would be more damaging to your parentsthan any hurtful words you could come up with.

Just keep your head up.

 

[ryda421]

IMO

everyone is depressed.

it just depends on the situation

-smile

 

[papageorgeo]

Meh, this thread is depressing..lmao...we need a theme song....