On the 21st it'll be 90 days for me currently in the 2nd phase of Kaisers chemical dependency program. I attend AA meetings regularly, even more when I can't make it in to the Kaiser recovery meeting.(like this week)
It's def one of the hardest things I've ever done(quit alcohol and herb) but i can honestly say I'm getting to know/like myself better and my marriage has improved a great deal with my wife knowing she won't find me passed out on the couch after she gets off from work. I'm actually holding up my end of the bargain. I haven't told everyone but mostly people have been openly supportive out of those I have told, saying we can hang out do sober activities(i.e ANY activity without having to smoke a bowl/blunt or pregame), and that means alot when it comes from people that I've party hard with.
Relationships are def changing some for better, some for worse,
there's one that cuts me deep though
I'm not sure if the guilt of the people I've hurt, most notably my wife ever goes away, not sure if I want it to
This is by far the most humbling thing I'm currently going through, true honesty with yourself and who you are, I know it's something I didn't really take the time to do
glad someone made a thread
will def be checking in
and man I decided to get sober right before the holidays popped off, one of the most grueling things I've gone through mentally, I'm still shocked I did it.
Those that want to do it, just know its a COMPLETE lifestyle change, I don't go to bars, stay at peoples pads who just have alcohol for the taking
house parties are a no no, my wife makes sure we wait for a table even if there are plenty of tables and booths available in the bar area of a restaurant. I'm closed off from the world, isolated, Slowly gaining my legs under me to be able to hang out again, I'm grateful for those friends/family that still check in, still text support, show me love and are just waiting on the sidelines now, waiting to just hangout, I'm glad they understand that this is a process
I've known I've had a problem so my tactics may seem extreme, but thats what I needed
good luck to everyone