Confessions

Just saw my friend for a bit and we talked about Electric Forest (the camping fest we were at 2 weeks ago) and it makes me more annoyed about that girl.

I was like "man, besides for our first day there, and time at the campsite, I didn't really see you at all, I spent all my time with that stupid girl who won't even talk to me now, when I coulda been hanging out with you and everyone else man!"

I always told myself I would hate to be that guy at a festival who does everything with his girl, and she wasn't even my girl at me. Lesson learned though, and in hindsight it was still a great weekend none the less.

It was a great weekend so no need to stress about it bro. If you didn't have fun, then it'd be a different story.

Im a scumbag

That sucks that you have to be coerced into being a certain way against your wishes, shevshenko . I'm sure your people really care for the best of you. You guys just need some sort of mutual understanding somehow.
Also, I've been spending a lot of time with this Viet girl (first gen American) I went to high school with. Everything is great , and she's awesome. We're practically together. Honestly, I sometimes think about how it'll be to meet her people. I mean, I'm not really phazed, I'm just curious about to reception being as though I'm black. I'm really confident in myself so I brush it off when ever the thought comes to my mind.

@Kurr

Yeah I know that their intentions are good and I learned just to accept it and move on and not let it worry me too much.

And thats awesome that you are with a Viet girl. Im first generation as well and I prefer white girls for some reason . Anyways for me and other Viets my age we are accepting of whoever you are, whatever your race is, its all cool with us as long as you guys got the feels lol. Our parents are a different story tho lol.

TroyD said:

Im a scumbag

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Why are you a scumbag, Mr. D?

I'm attracted to 99% of skinny/ well groomed women I see...and in general about 60% of all women I see...I may have a problem. Like everyone semi-attractive women I see I imagine naked, it's not really affecting my daily life, but it is somewhat annoying.

^^ congratulations, you have come to the realization that you are a red blooded male with a ****

GymJones said:

i feel myself becoming an ahole. been through too much to have relationships with people without somehow benefiting. the bad thing is i feel its justified

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Bro, this! I'm tired of being humble.

Nah man. it has to be more than that. And if it's normal to think about sex that much, do girls? And if they do, why is getting sex so hard? The longer I'm single, the more girls I meet, the more I realize I don't want a relationship, but the more I realize a relationship is the only way for steady cudi...well that and hookers, but who has the money for hookers, amirite?

gamble said:

^^ congratulations, you have come to the realization that you are a red blooded male with a ****

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I was thinking the same thing. Like what? We all think like that.

filipino moms are the best tho.


the best.

shoyru said:

 Yeah I'm Asian. I'm filipino. I'm at UC Berkeley right now as a biomedical engineer major so I understand why he's so pushy. But 95% of parents I know remind their kids to relax once in awhile and remember to have fun too. I would go to the Asian supermarket and he would think I'm doing something foolish. Everytime I would cry to my mom or my other family members when my dad accuses me of something that's not true, they tell me to not listen to him because they know that his accusations have no truth in it whatsoever. They know I'm not irresponsible like he thinks I am. It sucks, but it's my father. I still love him.
yup. i'm asian. i wanted 
My dad was pissed when I didn't get into an Ivy League school and assumed that 95% of the kids in my high school class was Ivy League bound. Only one went to Stanford. Filipino parents compare their kids so much. It's ridiculous. and I'm with a Chinese guy right now. it's lovely. I like the culture differences.

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this x 100. i told my pops in high school i wanted to become a teacher and he was mad disappointed. told me i was stupid because i didn't wanna be a doctor like my cousins smh

Mark Antony said:

I can hear my upstairs neighbor pee, somehow it attracts me to her.

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i just tried to rep this 10 times 

I've fallen for someone who's thousands of miles away. We talked on the phone and texted on a daily basis, and just today, we've pretty much came to an agreement that it won't work out between the two of us, but It's been making me feel, :\ all day...

AO Two said:

I've fallen for someone who's thousands of miles away. We talked on the phone and texted on a daily basis, and just today, we've pretty much came to an agreement that it won't work out between the two of us, but It's been making me feel, :\ all day...

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Been there, I believe something way better will come along for you

Dam man, when it rains it F'n pours. 

shoyru said:

 Yeah I'm Asian. I'm filipino. I'm at UC Berkeley right now as a biomedical engineer major so I understand why he's so pushy. But 95% of parents I know remind their kids to relax once in awhile and remember to have fun too. I would go to the Asian supermarket and he would think I'm doing something foolish. Everytime I would cry to my mom or my other family members when my dad accuses me of something that's not true, they tell me to not listen to him because they know that his accusations have no truth in it whatsoever. They know I'm not irresponsible like he thinks I am. It sucks, but it's my father. I still love him.
yup. i'm asian. i wanted 
My dad was pissed when I didn't get into an Ivy League school and assumed that 95% of the kids in my high school class was Ivy League bound. Only one went to Stanford. Filipino parents compare their kids so much. It's ridiculous. and I'm with a Chinese guy right now. it's lovely. I like the culture differences.

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haha then you know what I mean about us being compared to other kids. Its so pointless cause its always a competition no matter what for them but I feel my pops is always on me but not as much as yours tho.

I like white girls so thats a nice cultural difference for me too  

shoyru said:

He thinks it's a shame that I'm JUST gonna be an engineer, and not a doctor like he, my gramps, and one of my aunts were.

I wanted to be a pediatrician but I gave up on that because of the ridiculous pressure he was giving me.

All the other past guys I dated were filipino too. I don't know, it's too boring since we had like everything in common regarding our upbringings and traditions and such.

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Small world Im in school to be a pediatrician right now lol but I feel you, the pressure is on and Im gonna be honest, Idk what i really want to do with my life. I picked medicine cause I kno thats what my parents want me to do or something of that status but in reality I dont know what I want to do but I do like taking care of children and helping sick people but its not like a driving passion.

I always liked white girls prob cause they sent me to a private school all my life till college and there werent much diversity in private schools lol. Never had a Viet girlfriend and I know thats what my parent wants but they arent gonna win in this one lol

.p

MIKE HONCHO said:

Mistake #1, looking at an ex's social media... Instagram is a damn illusion man, don't believe all of it. Most people only post the highlights in their life.

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True, bad mistake.

I got some good people around me. They tryna tell me I'm better than this girl that shot me down few weeks back and that it only failed bc of my ****** approach and mindset going in. Starting to buy into it, contemplating hitting her up again but this time with the mindset of a man and not a simping boy. If not, I'll just take the L and keep it moving, it's not that serious to me anymore. I just laugh to keep from feeling the blues

calikev34 said:

Why are you a scumbag, Mr. D?

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I dont care about anyone but myself really. Was supposed to go do something with my half sister (from my dad) didnt even hit her up. And shes pissed at me and i dont care if we ever talk again

Pops has cancer and wants us to get close before he goes but i almost laughed at the thought of it. I grew up with my mom only so thats why im not close with dude

With girls its the same thing.

Im just a selfish *** dude man. I could go on and not talk to certain people, even family and not even care one bit

Damn Troy

I dunno or remember if I've posted here before, so let's say I didn't.

Alright, several things have been bugging me for awhile, and when I say awhile I mean several years, let's go.

First off, I'm getting ready to be 37 in less than a month, I don't consider myself a failure, but I could've been better off.

My mom died a few months ago from complications from metastatic cancer, and since she transitioned I found myself not caring much about life as far as I'm concerned. My children and my ol'lady were close to her, me and my ol' lady been together almost 20 years so it was hard on them, and I am here for them, but I didn't feel a whole lot, and me and my mom were close, real close. But I she'd not one tear, at all, I felt weird about it, but overall I'm not even an emotional dude so I thought it was normal, not sure.

I remember that when I was in the hospice with her thinking " ah yes!, her room has wi-fi and the Knicks are playing, but they lost to Orlando, I held out hope, but then I realized hope is not a method. She passed 23 Feb 2014, three days after her 70th b- day. My sister and brother, not to mention my wife and my kids were tore up about it, I was to, but I wasn't crying or anything, because I had been with her the whole week as she was going "home", and I was at peace with her being at peace. I'm still not emotional about it, but it does suck. I feel bad because I shed no year, and even at the eulogy I spoke and tried to lighten the mood, cracked some jokes and told funny stories about her, real talk I'm scared that one day I will become a emotional wreck, but at the same time I feel resolute in my belief that life will not stop because she is gone, I don't know, I feel bad, I showed no emotion, thinking I'm heartless.

I'm married, been with the same women for almost 20 years, 20 years. I haven't cheated one time, not once, and there have been chances, but I love my wife, but sometimes I fell it's forced and I'm not getting 100%, and I've been wondering what it would be like to experience other women, like I find all kinds of different women attractive and I think about them way too much. Starting to feel like a creep because I love my wife, we've been through more than I could possibly have ever imagined, but I wonder about other women that I've interacted with.

My other fam, my dad is cool, my stepmom is cool, everyone else not my wife, daughter, and son, I could and sometimes wish I did have to put up with their existence. I have a older sister and a older brother, I am the youngest, but I consider them useless at times. I dunno, sometimes I don't even care about my own life and sometimes I get see it getting better, at least not for me. It's just a repeating cycle day in and day out that would continue without me.

Also, I work hard, real hard and I make a decent living, I support my family, sometimes I feel selfish because I think I should do more for myself sometime. I get so wrapped up in being a provider that I let myself go, and others don't mind letting it happen because they get what they want and need, I feel like my own worse enemy. I deserve just as much as those whom I provide for, but I have fallen into the "routine" of putting myself dead last because I've been conditioned to believe that is what real men do, but damb, real men have to live too, but I don't feel alive anymore. Btw, I drink more than I used to, I hate that.

married with children

ish seems so depressing at times, i hear it from so many dudes

Also,y brother, sister, and niece use my moms death as an excuse to be scumbags. I feel that at 46, 43, and 26 that if you don't have your life together by now then how is she being here going to help, sickening. Quit making excuses, you were crappy people while she was alive, don't let her passing be an excuse to stay crappy people.