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Yea my whole life.
When I was a kid I used to think that I was the only "human" surrounded by AI and I was in a test world where the higher ups were just watching me. On top of that I sometimes used to think what if the world loads up like a video game. You know how you look into the horizon and stuff just starts showing up because it wasnt loaded yet. Or when you hear something weird or off, I used to say "heh, they used the wrong audio file"
Another one was where I thought everything around me was made up of my imgaination. Like whatever is in this world is what my brain has made, even if ive never seen it before. Kind of like the other one, where im the only subject but in my own world. Kind of ****** up that I gave myself a mediocre life with things ill never reach like a billion dollars and 10/10 models. And the fact that I came up with ****** up **** like cancer, earlobes and ****** up people got me thinking...maybe not lol.
One of the sayings a friend told me in high school was "you see the colour red, and you know what it is. But to another person, that colour red could be another colour, but at the end of the day, both brains define it as "red" so it all points to the same "red". This blew my mind.
As I got older I realized the perception of life was that there was meaning to it. I dont believe this anymore. There is no meaning to live. I didnt ask to be here. You basically are born, and eat to live then die. The conscience that evolution let you have is there, and you are able to experience feelings, "love", fun, beauty, excitement etc (much more complex with all the things your body come with). Thats cool and all, but doesnt mean its there for a reason. There are no rules in the world. But society as a whole has its own "human" perceptions. Like life with marriage, life with violence, life with sexual frustration and other billions of social norms. If you think deep down, its crazy. We are meant for nothing. It has become so complex that we dont even notice that we made it into something that doesnt really exist because might as well since were here. "Live a fun life" only exists because of our conscience let us to until now. I doubt im making sense to some of yall but im sure other brains have gone deeper and could explain a little better.
When I was a kid I used to think that I was the only "human" surrounded by AI and I was in a test world where the higher ups were just watching me. On top of that I sometimes used to think what if the world loads up like a video game. You know how you look into the horizon and stuff just starts showing up because it wasnt loaded yet. Or when you hear something weird or off, I used to say "heh, they used the wrong audio file"
Another one was where I thought everything around me was made up of my imgaination. Like whatever is in this world is what my brain has made, even if ive never seen it before. Kind of like the other one, where im the only subject but in my own world. Kind of ****** up that I gave myself a mediocre life with things ill never reach like a billion dollars and 10/10 models. And the fact that I came up with ****** up **** like cancer, earlobes and ****** up people got me thinking...maybe not lol.
One of the sayings a friend told me in high school was "you see the colour red, and you know what it is. But to another person, that colour red could be another colour, but at the end of the day, both brains define it as "red" so it all points to the same "red". This blew my mind.
As I got older I realized the perception of life was that there was meaning to it. I dont believe this anymore. There is no meaning to live. I didnt ask to be here. You basically are born, and eat to live then die. The conscience that evolution let you have is there, and you are able to experience feelings, "love", fun, beauty, excitement etc (much more complex with all the things your body come with). Thats cool and all, but doesnt mean its there for a reason. There are no rules in the world. But society as a whole has its own "human" perceptions. Like life with marriage, life with violence, life with sexual frustration and other billions of social norms. If you think deep down, its crazy. We are meant for nothing. It has become so complex that we dont even notice that we made it into something that doesnt really exist because might as well since were here. "Live a fun life" only exists because of our conscience let us to until now. I doubt im making sense to some of yall but im sure other brains have gone deeper and could explain a little better.
