Confessions

98% of the time, I'm completely comfortable with who I am and the life I lead.

I collect Funko POPs, I'm a huge gamer / nerd, Star Wars lover, tech junkie, etc.. it's how I've always been. I like what I like, don't care what others think.

But I don't know why- in the past year I get these random days where I question and attack everything. I feel like a damn loser, man. I think "What 22 year old spends his days hunting down little plastic vinyl figures for his work desk and his home entertainment center?" why the hell am I not out partying / clubbing? Why do I spend my days after work at home playing Call of Duty for hours? I have a goal right now of playing Competitive Call of Duty. That alone on these days makes me cringe and hate myself.

I tell myself my job sucks, even though at 22 I'm doing a lot better than my peers from High School. I question everything.. I irrationally attack everything in my life.

I love these things about my life.. my POPs, my gaming, my life in general.. but on these days I can't stand it and I feel like a low life loser. I hate myself. But I do my best to tell myself it's just that day.. every once in a while that I get.. tomorrow I'll be happy again.
 
spizike231 spizike231 People go through their entire lives searching for things and people that make them happy. Regarding competitive gaming, if you want to do it then go for it! I haven't owned a system in the past 4-5 years (I'm 27) to limit distractions and pursue professional goals. But that doesn't stop me from watching EVO. I'm personally fascinated by the competition, the passion, and just how it has evolved since its inception.

My only input is to embrace what you love and find like-minded people to hang with. Don't live a life of isolation and be open to trying new things. Life is not all about clubbing/partying. After waiting in line after line for NYE and Halloween parties this past year I said screw all that. I'm done.
 
Thanks man ^

Yeah, I'm grateful to have things around me that bring me joy on a daily basis. Sometimes I just feel like the typical fat gamer nerd / loser (I'm a bigger guy, not horribly obese but I'm not fit in any way) and it really gets to me.
 
i shower naked.


I just watched a video where a wife suspected her husband of using her shampoo, and he denied it, so she set up a hidden camera in the shower underneath the seat.

What had been seen cannot be unseen. Smh.

Mods remove spoiler if not cool
 
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I remember back in the 7th grade I thought this one **** was hot. Smh this was before I knew what a **** was and before she came out the closet. I always thought, "damn she koo and she's good at basketball". Lol FML though Ferreal. I'm going to hell bruh.

I saw it edited the word D Y K E.
 
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But I don't know why- in the past year I get these random days where I question and attack everything. I feel like a damn loser, man. I think "What 22 year old spends his days hunting down little plastic vinyl figures for his work desk and his home entertainment center?" why the hell am I not out partying / clubbing? Why do I spend my days after work at home playing Call of Duty for hours? I have a goal right now of playing Competitive Call of Duty. That alone on these days makes me cringe and hate myself.
Im actually 26 and collect Pops pretty actively as well, and I'm sure a few peeps in that thread are way older [emoji]128517[/emoji]
 
I remember back in the 7th grade I thought this one **** was hot. Smh this was before I knew what a **** was and before she came out the closet. I always thought, "damn she koo and she's good at basketball". Lol FML though Ferreal. I'm going to hell bruh.

I saw it edited the word D Y K E.

Yo you are ******* obnoxious man. How old are you?
 
As many of you remember from my last post I have abandoned all religions. This is slowly causing a distance between me and my sisters. They are both super religious(I'm expecting both to call themselves preachers soon) and it's too much of a torture being around them and listening to Jesus this Jesus that and not losing my mind. It's causing me to find excuses not to call or text them. The scary thing is I'm ok with this.
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This use to be me with my moms. I could never have a normal conversation with her because  everything  was about God. Everything was "did you pray?" I got sick of it and stop attending church when I was 18 or 19 and just lived life. I still believe in God I just hate religion and  the fact that they judge everything. I'm 32 my moms passed away 3yrs ago and now I see my wife going through the same issue. My wife went through a really bad mental breakdown and the way i saw her family treat her  was sad to me. No one recommended taking  meds or seeing a doctor everything was "your not praying enough......or your not going to church enough"...... it was very very bad I had to take control as a husband because I couldn't see her like that no more. I'm happy to say that she's doing very well and got off the meds...her family is still the same way so I'm saying all this to say that don't let these things stray  you from how you truly feel about God. Family will always be family and they will never change just live your own life and let the rest play out. 
 
Why do we cut people out of our lives that are just like us?
Idk, they can be a drain in our life. I literally stopped hanging with the people I used to party with and no **** in like a week, my life is much much better
 
Been hungover af all day, couch potatoing watching the super bowl. Idk what it was, mixed drink or light liquor (patron) that got me feeling a type of way.

Really hate this feeling and I gotta get up early tomorrow to get my car fixed..

Im actually 26 and collect Pops pretty actively as well, and I'm sure a few peeps in that thread are way older [emoji]128517[/emoji]

No disrespect to you or the guy that called himself a loser, but I had some Nintendo figurines on my game rack for a min. One night I was laying in bed and was like.. "what kind of grown *** man still collects toys?.." so I opened them up and gave them to my nephew. I still have a whole rack of video games, even though I don't play much anymore.

No offense tho..been goin through a growing up identity crisis as of late
 
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Been awhile, but I wanna express some stuff, I just wanna say I hope everyone is doing well, and taking the right steps to get your problems figured out... I have to work on myself too, and I just wanna be positive with y'all brothers and sisters and let y'all know life can/will get better
 
Realized a few nights ago sneakers might have saved me from going into a very dark place in life. I used shoes to cope with being alone a lot. This year has been a strain for me because I'm commuting to college and I don't really feel or want to make the effort with connecting with anyone because they wouldn't understand me. 

Gotta stop psyching myself out really, I'll be fine eventually 

For all the others ones in here, stay up, things will get better 
 
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Haven't done it with my girl yet, since she wants to take things slow(says she hasn't had sex in 2 years) but she's addicted to porn and masturbating(does it almost every day or every other at least)she's a nymphomaniac. And at first I was okay with it, but now idk how to feel about it. She seems to like that more than anything! & im sure when we do mess around she's still going too. Kinda bothers me since she's addicted, once here and there I understand but daily is a bit too much, and the worst part about it is she's making me wait.
 
Haven't done it with my girl yet, since she wants to take things slow(says she hasn't had sex in 2 years) but she's addicted to porn and masturbating(does it almost every day or every other at least)she's a nymphomaniac. And at first I was okay with it, but now idk how to feel about it. She seems to like that more than anything! & im sure when we do mess around she's still going too. Kinda bothers me since she's addicted, once here and there I understand but daily is a bit too much, and the worst part about it is she's making me wait.
She might not be attractive to you or she is just plain scared of it. You really don't have to wait around for her bro, give her an ultimatum stating your needs, if she doesn't want to work with you, she's too selfish to share a relationship with you.
 
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Haven't done it with my girl yet, since she wants to take things slow(says she hasn't had sex in 2 years) but she's addicted to porn and masturbating(does it almost every day or every other at least)she's a nymphomaniac. And at first I was okay with it, but now idk how to feel about it. She seems to like that more than anything! & im sure when we do mess around she's still going too. Kinda bothers me since she's addicted, once here and there I understand but daily is a bit too much, and the worst part about it is she's making me wait.

When you smash... Smash her to the point where if she tries to rub one it it hurts too much... Problem solved...

Except for the not smashing part...
 
Haven't done it with my girl yet, since she wants to take things slow(says she hasn't had sex in 2 years) but she's addicted to porn and masturbating(does it almost every day or every other at least)she's a nymphomaniac. And at first I was okay with it, but now idk how to feel about it. She seems to like that more than anything! & im sure when we do mess around she's still going too. Kinda bothers me since she's addicted, once here and there I understand but daily is a bit too much, and the worst part about it is she's making me wait.
So you haven't smashed your girl yet and she's a self-admitted nympho who hasn't had sex in 2 years?

Does this sound right at all to any sane human being?

I don't see this ending well for you. I'd just break it off, no ultimatum necessary.

Edit - I see you've mentioned this in your previous posts, so it's clearly eating at you.
 
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Haven't done it with my girl yet, since she wants to take things slow(says she hasn't had sex in 2 years) but she's addicted to porn and masturbating(does it almost every day or every other at least)she's a nymphomaniac. And at first I was okay with it, but now idk how to feel about it. She seems to like that more than anything!

So you haven't smashed your girl yet and she's a self-admitted nympho who hasn't had sex in 2 years?

Does this sound right at all to any sane human being?

I don't see this ending well for you. I'd just break it off, no ultimatum necessary.

Naw I've known a couple girls in the past who were like that... They both were assaulted when they were kids... They both were always horny but had serious trust issues, for obvious and reasonable reasons... One was a friend, never smashed or tried (though did enjoy a random lesbian show :lol:)... The other was fwb for like 18 months... She was one if my favorite smashes... Insatiable...


Just saying there can be very valid reasons for this...
 
Yeah might have to give her a ultimatum if she doesn't soon, why is that when she's hungry I always feed her and leave her content, but when I want it it needs to wait.. Lmao, since its valentines Sunday and she's getting taken out and showered in gifts, ill try and smash and if it doesn't happen ill reconsider
 
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