I have a 4 year old and one due in july. All im gona tell you is, noone is EVER ready to be a parent. Whoever told you they are, is a liar. Having a child is a unique expereince, youll never know whats gona happen with them. theres no right/wrong answer but to guide them in life as best as possible and at the end to watch them "fly" with what you taught them. ...My only issue with having children is, i dont have a career. Im not working paycheck to paycheck, thank god, but at anyday my job could go like that poof ( I have a hs diploma, went to college but never graduated so i dont have anything to "stand out" with)
Man im really diggn a chick that i met here while she was in visa from russia. Met her months ago. She owns business were shy flys helicopters in russia. Really want to see her again but now she wants me to vistt her in russia. Baddy joint that supports me in every way. 2 years older no kids and never married. We feeling each other too much. But im not down with no long distance relationship idk wat to do
Lmao bruh....I literally just lived this for the last year of my life. Save yourself the hassle and don't even bother. How long did ya vibe for when she was here?
Took a HUGE win today. Previously posted about being alienated from my Son by his Mother. Had court today & got 50/50 custody. So relieved man. My biggest fear was the court ruling some standard every other weekend schedule effectively making me a part time dad. But nope. Judge saw through the bs & I'll have my little guy about 3x a week. He's 10 months & I'll be getting him this weekend for the first time ever. Just had to share that man I'm happy as hell
wish i had a judge like yours. I had an old evil white lady. Didnt even let me speak in court. And i was in uniform on active duty. But congrats fam. I plan on going back to court one of these days.
Thanks my dude Damn man I feel your pain. The legal system truly sucks especially for us Fathers. Blessings to you when you go back to court. Hope things work in your favor & thank you for your service my dude.
Literally every time life starts going well, something bad that's completely out of my control has to happen to destroy that. Every. Single. Time. Like I 1000% cannot make that up. I wish I was. I just feel angry and depressed. I cannot escape the constant misfortune.
Nah I feel you. So much so when you get on that good streak you start worrying when the fall is coming.
Life isn't all one direction -- the down moments make you appreciate the up moments that much more. Personally, I believe how you react/change to those down moments defines who you are as a person.
Same here homie. Your not the only one, happens to me constantly. I feel I never have a good streak of momentum ever. But you know **** it. Keep going, its good for your soul. I'm going thru **** now unexpectedly, its hard. I'm angry but I'm learning now to harness it. You could die tomorrow homie. Cliche as it is. Enjoy this life while your here, no one is going to do it for you. Its all going to work out.
Look at the good things u had not at that 1 bad thing it's so easy to judge what we ain't got but difficult to admit the good things we got ..
I feel like I always take the higher road and it pissed me off sometime because I know what I'm capable of and I try not to be, say or do things I'll regret later on but I'm chomping at the bit to chump a couple people off right now. I've given out verbal lashings before and I've always seen what my words do to people, not because I'm malicious but because I'm honest to a fault. My intentions are never to malign anyone but when I just sit back and treat people the way I want to be treated, there always comes a point where my kindness is taken for weakness. I've learned now that the best response is no response and I try and take everything in. People now know that my silence means dissatisfaction because I'm such a cheerful people person but even then I feel like I'm sparing those who need to be told about themselves. Who am I to judge though? As annoying as it is, I've realized it's the best route and a symbol of maturity on my part. Venting...
i have a great and loving girl that i push away because of my idiotic worries and fears; i create negative/what if scenarios in my head and it seems to intertwine with reality due to my staying in my thoughts too long, and i'll end up pushing her away. I'm going to do try to do my best to control these thoughts because i want us to work.
Dont know if this is a confession or more of a rant. This last term of school has been one of the hardest. Depression and PTSD are at an all time high. cant focus on easy *** work that i can bang out A's in no problem. the meds they gave dont work, and anything stronger would turn me into a zombie. Its hard because i have to put on for my little ones but kids always know when something is off. being a non traditional student is frustrating, explaining **** in class, "who are your sources?" "me dammit, im 32, ive lived enough to have the damn answer" wish the kids and i could run away and start over but if i moved id lose custody. feel stuck. cut out drinking because it amps up bad feelings. dont feel like my wife understands me, feel like life has boxed me in. not rich, but have enough to realize money doesnt make everything go away. state of current affairs depresses me. rarely even use social media because its all negative **** on there. i mix of bad news and people who act ratchet one day trying to figure out why their life sucks the next. kids have been a blessing but there are times i regret having them to raise in this current time. just lost
Im still battling depression and PTSD so i can relate to how you feel and what youre going thru. PM is open if you wanna talk/vent