I appreciate it bro. Its crazy because i keep waiting on things to "get better" but we'll never be the same. Im one of the few that cant blame the VA. Theyve been great with me, meds, no appt wait times, referrels within a week. i just dont know. I went to a ptsd group last week and there was this kat who got out the army after AIT and claimed ptsd from being in basic and i just ******* lost it. i know none of us has a right to judge the next mans struggle but man i couldnt hold it together.
I def hear that. For a long time i lost the urge to do a lot of things i used to enjoy. I was out here losing my mind. Went thru different meds and diff combinations ans ive finally found something that works for me. Working out and reading have really helped. Keep your head up fam, things will get better.
Life is real I believe that life is really a spiritual battle every thought we make has power...self discipline mental and physical health and real love are the most powerful feats in life..without those your nothing
Im at a crossroads in my life. The most serious/important decision i have to make so far and i dunno what to do... It comes down to truth and lie. The truth on one hand ***** you over, yet no one believes you. The lie is the "believable" scenario and benefits you. The issue is can you live the rest of your life knowing you told a lie? Knowing you blamed someone/something else for something you did? It goes back to when you a child and youre told to be honest, be straight up. When youre a kid and for example break your moms lamp and she asks you if you did it you say no and blame your siblings so you avoid punishment. But as an adult, as a man, you have to take responsibility for your actions and deal with the consequences of said actions no matter what it is. Then theres the aspect of "look out for yourself". Do whats best for yourself right? But what happens on judgement day? Can you live with this lie for the rest of your life? Can you live the rest of your life knowing you werent man enough to deal with the consequences? Even if no one believes the truth... I really dont know... I wish i had an answer. A sign, something point me in the right direction...
Basically throwing someone under the bus...you getme? Im not with that one bit thTs why i wanna tell the truth, even tho it ***** me over. Yet no believes the truth...
We all did some ****** up things in life. Accept what you did no matter what and keep it moving. If not, your gonna keep paddling against the current. You ****** up, your dealing with it, now keep it moving and know you wont do it again. **** what anyone thinks or says. Do YOU.
what's done is done u can't change the past but you can improve the future ...as for for judgment day how you known it even exist ? So live life make mistakes and learn from em
-i always up my dosage around the month of my birthday. I hate my birthday. never celebrated, never will. -I hold a lot of hate in my heart. its not healthy but it is so. I barely forgive, never forget
my life is rough right now... im not sure what going on im just working and living day by day... im bent but not broken. not too long ago i Knew my life plan but then all of it changed.... not good at 31
haven't posted here in a minute, just wanted to get some things off my chest. I got robbed a few racks, don't want to get into the details.. it's not much but as a grad student it blows because it's still $$ I need to eat and have a peace of mind. Plus I'm traveling in 2 weeks and now I need to budget extra. I can't let this define me tho, just a minor set back. That same day me and my bro signed the loan papers for a house for my parents, after renting for our whole life they finally get a spot. I know I talked about not believing in love earlier but I crossed paths with a girl I met back in college and we hit it off quick. I've been seeing her for over a month now. Never thought this would happen to me. The other month was the 10 year anniversary of the passing of my sister, I feel like some of these good things are coming my way because of her. I've been patient and I've been putting in work. Still remember the day I posted on NT about her
I'm tired of procrastinsting. I know everyone does it but I feel like the last few months I've really lost it. I used to be diligent in activities that made me feel enriched and in order. I rarely take the time to read books, I never write anymore, I don't get up early anymore, I don't study new fitness material, and I basically have stopped trying to make myself a better person. All in exchange for cheap entertainment that adds nothing. I should have been asleep 3 hours ago and here I am. I set my alarm for 8am anyway. Still not as early as I'd like, but it's a start. Don't care if I'm zombie mode all day tomorrow. Hopefully it starts a better trend. A small discipline like getting up early I feel is important.
Sorry didn't read the last umteenth posts on here but just wanted y'all to know I'm down to get y'all back as long as it isn't slanderous or dangerous. That being said, my confession is simple yet difficult: I cannot, for the life of me and everything I try to stand for, stand my mother-in-law. I loathe spending time with her. Father in law is borderline tolerable but this is with self medicating my fragile nerves. /confession
I love the cold. I love cold showers. I love that cold goose-bumpy feeling when my favorite tune plays. I love taking hour long walks in the dead of winter at night. It's just me, the snow, the night and my favorite songs. I love swimming in the ocean. I love listening to the rain pitter patter on window pane, the thunder cracking somewhere in the distance. I miss winter.
I hate being hot so me living in Socal is not the business. The summer is the worst part of the year for me. Doesn't matter if the air conditioning is on, I always have little sweat beads on my forehead. Just terrible. I'll take the cold also.