- Mar 4, 2009
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I don't really have a purpose for making this thread, just don't know who else to reach out to.
My girl broke it up with me 3.5 months ago after 1.5 years, and every single night and day has been as bad if not worse than the day before it. Won't bore people with the details of our breakup, sure the whole situation was pretty complicated but so is everyone's story.
I don't want to depress my friends with the details of my heartache and agony anymore. I'm tired of going to my psychologist that gives me the same mundane and generic responses. I can't stand seeing how sad I'm making my parents. I realize more and more that I'm sick of the majority of my friends - even the real good ones - I just don't see eye to eye with many of them.
I'm not very good with girls. Not an alpha male or any of that *#@% by any means. I've had serious relationships in the past but this last one was just - yeah the stars really aligned for me. Not only was she amazing in every department, but we clicked on every level. Eff that plenty of fish in the sea thing: not only is finding a girl who's as incredible as her AND with whom I'm as compatible difficult enough, gotta factor in that very few girls would even give a 5'5" dude like me a shot. So odds of finding something like that again are extremely slim to zero.
She says she cares about me and offers to help out in any way she can - but I know we're never getting back together again, that ship sailed a while ago. And as much as she's my best friend in the whole world, I know it'll never truly work out on a platonic level. I think she's lying to me too: she met a guy a couple months ago who was in town for an elective, and she's visiting the city he's in and staying with him right now for a 2nd time since vancouver. She said she's just there for fun since she has time off work and when I asked her if she's dating anyone right now she answered no. Don't know if she's just trying to spare my feelings or what but I find it pretty insulting.
I seriously got no hope for the future - what's the point of going on with everything when I'm not going to find something as good or better. There's maybe 15 minutes or so during each day that I don't feel like complete *#@%, and think that maybe there's hope in the future - that maybe things happen for a reason and better things will present themselves - but that seems like extremely wishful thinking. I've been thinking about this a lot lately: why not just off myself and save the agony of the many years ahead? Only thing stopping me is the hurt I'd cause my parents.
Proceed with the simp, emo, beta male, didn't read, people have it much worse than you in other parts of the world, man up, things will get better, etc. and so on.
My girl broke it up with me 3.5 months ago after 1.5 years, and every single night and day has been as bad if not worse than the day before it. Won't bore people with the details of our breakup, sure the whole situation was pretty complicated but so is everyone's story.
I don't want to depress my friends with the details of my heartache and agony anymore. I'm tired of going to my psychologist that gives me the same mundane and generic responses. I can't stand seeing how sad I'm making my parents. I realize more and more that I'm sick of the majority of my friends - even the real good ones - I just don't see eye to eye with many of them.
I'm not very good with girls. Not an alpha male or any of that *#@% by any means. I've had serious relationships in the past but this last one was just - yeah the stars really aligned for me. Not only was she amazing in every department, but we clicked on every level. Eff that plenty of fish in the sea thing: not only is finding a girl who's as incredible as her AND with whom I'm as compatible difficult enough, gotta factor in that very few girls would even give a 5'5" dude like me a shot. So odds of finding something like that again are extremely slim to zero.
She says she cares about me and offers to help out in any way she can - but I know we're never getting back together again, that ship sailed a while ago. And as much as she's my best friend in the whole world, I know it'll never truly work out on a platonic level. I think she's lying to me too: she met a guy a couple months ago who was in town for an elective, and she's visiting the city he's in and staying with him right now for a 2nd time since vancouver. She said she's just there for fun since she has time off work and when I asked her if she's dating anyone right now she answered no. Don't know if she's just trying to spare my feelings or what but I find it pretty insulting.
I seriously got no hope for the future - what's the point of going on with everything when I'm not going to find something as good or better. There's maybe 15 minutes or so during each day that I don't feel like complete *#@%, and think that maybe there's hope in the future - that maybe things happen for a reason and better things will present themselves - but that seems like extremely wishful thinking. I've been thinking about this a lot lately: why not just off myself and save the agony of the many years ahead? Only thing stopping me is the hurt I'd cause my parents.
Proceed with the simp, emo, beta male, didn't read, people have it much worse than you in other parts of the world, man up, things will get better, etc. and so on.