For sure, important to understand who you are too and where you fall on that spectrum so you can live your truth, stress free. Forgot who posted here that he got a girl that like girls and just have mad threesomes.
Allison
Allison
ive stated before the one who played me
but i still got in my heart
allison
*sigh*
maybe this decision was a mistake
probably dont care what i have to say
its been heavy on my mind for months now
Guess I'm trying to clear some mental space
I would love to talk to you in person
But I understand why that can't be
I'll leave you alone for good I promise
If you answer this one question for me
I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do youuuuuuuuuu?
my wife hates her
but she doesnt even know her
probably cause she knows she's there in my heart along with her
Just got rid of a chick I was in a similar situation with. Also really sexually liberated and it was just sex and fun at first. Like we'd talk to each other about other people we were seeing and the sex we were having, but then she started getting too emotionally attached and acting like I was a boyfriend or something and I wasn't with the ****. When she called me "love" I knew I was in trouble if I didn't get rid of her soon.Cultural conditioning is real!
Dated a VERY sexually liberated woman and she actually got mad when I didnt care who she smashed.
I liked her personality a lot. She was always turned up and a blast to hang with. Had a ton of girlfriends too.
For the life of her she could not fathom that I saw her for who she was and that her avatar never worked on me though.
Deep down she was just insecure and looking outside for what can only come from the inside.
Anyway...
Used to wonder why her and her friends hated the word "*****" so much.
They always claimed that they should be able to do whatever men do.
She had at least 60 bodies before me...I didnt care. Considered it professional training. Thought of her as a college professor with two 30 seat classes and I got the last spot during open registration.
She knew all kinds of tricks, had handcuffs, costumes, role playing, positions, rough, choking...all that.
The only thing I asked is that she keep it 100 with me if we were out and someone she smashed just happened to be at the same spot so I would have situational awareness just in case something were to pop off.
She couldn’t even do that. Lied right to my face.
Went to a birthday party for some dude and just by the way she hugged him I knew.
Asked her who main man was.
Oh he just a college friend?
Word?
I guess some folks don’t know the difference between privacy and secrecy.
She took me out on the dancefloor and freaked the **** out of me...damn near gave it up on the spot.
Havoc voice:
"Using me to get the next *&##@ jealous..."
Got back to her spot and right as we about to smash - Dude from the party is blowing her phone all the way up.
Proceeded to...
Fell back on her heavy after that but she kept hitting me up.
Didnt fall back because she smashed dude - fell back because she didnt tell me.
I think that made her even more insecure.
They actually deep down want you to care...when you dont, it messes them up...BAD.
When she started that "When we getting married" **** I had to cut her all the way off...
When they start believing their own lies it’s really time to bounce.
tell em
when that carter 1 intro start
i get transported back to 04
right after i graduated hs
was ****ing this square ***
mexican and white girl
but was so juiced she was dating a black dude
had her turned out
giving me head while on the train
while listening to the album
clapping her cheeks in my room while blasting this album
smashing on her parents bed cause i didnt like them
and busting on their sheets while bumping go dj on her parents stereo
this album meant so much to me
bet most folks dont remember the original single that was suppose to be tha carter
remember "get something"
song so trash
and happy he scrapped that
and went with what he did
c1 will always be his best album to me
to much heat on there
he was SPITTIN
04 was a great year for me
oh man her yambs were so good
mm mmm mmmm im just thinking bout it right now
im looking over at my wife right now
and shaking my head
cause if she knew
the things i did with her
she wouldn't look at me the same
she was a freak
sometimes whenever im driving or something
and a song from c1 comes on
i get transported back to 04
and think about her
and wonder how she is
she married now
has a kid now
i taught her everything back then
EVERYTHING
and then i just give a big "SIGH"
the same kind of sigh that ne-yo does in do you
and then it leads me to actually sing the song
my wife doesn't like that song anymore
because i slipped up one day and asked her
does she everrrrrrrrrr......think of any one...........anymore
she said no
but my dumb self said i did sometimes
but i played it off
but now that song is kinda off limits
so i just sing it in my head
and a tear silently falls
when i think of her
everything he said in the song was real life and actually happened
except she didnt have a baby girl she had a boy
and i did tell her fiancé he could relax
now im going to put my headphones on right now
plug em into this MacBook
tilt it slightly outta my wife view
and press play on the video i linked
cause now im wondering...........
also Allison was her name
maybe in another life allison
her bday in nov 21st
like i do every year
i text her happy bday
and every year she sends me the same on mine
except yesterday
first time
i didnt receive one
i love my wife
Understood, have you ever tried getting closure w/ Allison? Like an unfiltered discussion? Seems like it still bothers u greatly.
a lil bit more backstory
It was the fall of 2003
This girl was like a rose blooming in a pile of ****
She had braces wore glasses
Had dusty *** white/white air forces
She was white/mexican
Long black flowing hair
Perky ****
Lil cute butt
Slim waist
Pretty face
But pretty much a ******* square
I scooped her up when she was nothing
Put her on to good music and artist to listen to
Helped her get contacts
Showed her the proper jordans and dunks and air forces to wear
Helped her ice out the right clothes to show off her body while still being classy and looking nice
Bruhs I showed her what it was like to eat at the Cheesecake Factory
Man I even ate the box religiously
Her juices tasted so damn sweet
Like nectar
Introduced her to moms
Always ate dinner at her fams house
Used to beat it up on her couch while her parents and brother in the next room
Used to finger her while at the movie theater
Used to have her come over to my house and beat it up all day
Sneak her in at night and beat that thang up till early morning
Used to catch the bart train every wed Friday sat and Sunday
From concord to sf to meet her after school and go to the movies
Or take her shopping or out to eat
BRUHS I was in love
I loved her bruhs
Like I really did
I wanted her to have my baby
I even sucked her toes
I wanted to trap her
She was a legit 10 after I fixed her up
She was a 6 before
She lied to me bruhs
She lied
She started talking to this dude Mike
Bruhs
She was seeing him behind my back
I wanted to fight dude so damn bad
But she was playing games
Idk if she was just playing me
Or both of us
I legit had tears
I thought she was mine
All mine
She was until Mike came in the picture
I gave her a choice
She choose Mike
I was hurting yall
I was hurting
Took a minute to get over it
Honestly if I'm being real im still not
I'm fb friends and ig friends with her
We watched the notebook together
BRUHS
She said she wanted that to be us
And I believed her
It really hurt me took a few months for me to move on
I saved her only for her to run off to someone else.
ive reopened the wound now..........
4 & 5 are excellent questions. Especially 4.
1. no
never really had an unfiltered convo
just enjoy the story man
the notebook
that drake line always hits me
i woulda never in my life watched that ****just enjoy the story man
the notebook
nawghtyhare
but man that post... that was art. I felt the pain through the screen.
