Belgium
about "coldness", that reminds me when the police called me back in 2008 asking if I was his son, I said yes, the police officer at the phone was uncomfortable so I simply asked her : he's dead, right ? And yes, he was, and at first I tried to do what I have to do solo in order to avoid my family to suffer, but it was impossible, they had to know, and they probalby expressed resentment if I didn't tell them...
EDIT : Some resilience I guess / mine was alcoholic too
EDIT 2 : Love this song
EDIT 3 : Forgot to mention at least 1 of my 2 sisters tried suicide, but it's something nobody really told me, and this same sister saw a man suiciding after asking her the time for the train...
And that as she was a child, I think my 2nd sister tried suicide too, at least she has lived in the streets for some times and have been on heroin, she has been with an alcoholic which was a nice guy when he didn't drink, because when he did, he beat her, and my grandfather used to beat my grandmother, but once my uncle saw this when he was a child, and as my grandmother saw her child saw this she found the courage to leave my grandfather...
Not to mention a burglary my older sister discovered as she went back from school, and a trial burglary she was the victim later as a young adult, but the luck is she succeed to frighten the intruder
Also learned about some rape trial on my other sister...
In fact I don't know all, and they always try to protect me not telling me everything
So I always felt lucky, in comparison. It's really a luck in this world to be a man, trust me...
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BONUS
"I really need to get up out of this hole man
I'm really really sinking deep down in this hole
I need to get out of this ####, I'm serious, like—
I really wanna go into the light, man
I know y'all love me to be sad and ####
But this got to be my last sad song
I mean, I gotta get out of this ####
Before I lose myself in it "