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I've been clean for 2 days now. It's difficult and it's mentally tough not using it anymore. There are times where I try to find solace with the creator/god but nothing comes of it. I find myself giving in to this craving time and time again via using a substitute. It's absolutely insane. About 10 days ago, just the mere thought of giving it up and going without it for more than several hours lead to me losing about 10lbs within several days. I am in a deteriorating vortex like pattern.
Initially, I thought that not using it any more would give me clarity of mind, find it easier to sleep at night, be less irritable perhaps even be able to engage in innocent banter with strangers. But no. Sometimes I wish I could turn back the hands of time and be how I was when I was younger, when instant gratification didn't dominant my everyday life.
For those of you not labeled a user, how do you make it through your days?
I miss my smartphone.
Initially, I thought that not using it any more would give me clarity of mind, find it easier to sleep at night, be less irritable perhaps even be able to engage in innocent banter with strangers. But no. Sometimes I wish I could turn back the hands of time and be how I was when I was younger, when instant gratification didn't dominant my everyday life.
For those of you not labeled a user, how do you make it through your days?
I miss my smartphone.
