How's everyone doing?
Me? Just got back from celebrating my 5 year wedding anniversary in paris/london for the past 2 weeks. For the most part it was relaxing, but 2 things had me really wanting a drink.
The first was before boarding the initial flight to London, as we are literally in that tunnel to enter the plane my wife says "where's my phone?" and then starts touching feeling her pockets and can't find it, so she exits out that tunnel to go back in the airport to look for it. I board the plane, and after 10 mins of intense waiting, she boards and grabs the seat next to me and i ask her where was it, and she says "it was in my pocket."
Here's some background ON THAT. A few weeks before the trip she tried to sell me on instead of bringing a backpack, getting this coat that has 23 pockets. I refused as I wanted a day backpack(portable battery and an DSLR, as well as gloves beanie when it got hot) it turned into a heated exchange and a few days later she proposed an anti theft backpack, which I was on board with as it fit my style and had compartments galore. She, of course got the coat and rocked it to the airport. So, she already knew I was pretty heated that before we even get to the destination, the thing she purchased to make the trip easier, is already hindering her. The usage got better though and that was that.
The 2nd was when we were checking into our london airbnb and the owner had these elaborate instructions on how to obtain the key to get in the place. The key was on a bike rack a block away from the apt. But guess what , there's like 5 different sets of bike racks and it's like 30 degrees outside. So it took me like 45 mins to find the key. Then we get up there and the place is great, and my wife wants to take a bath, but there's no hot water, so we call the owner, who is letting some company run her listing(didn't even know that was possible) and we play phone tag for another hour(owner didn't pay the bill basically) so after that I'm pretty frustrated with the day and go to the store to get snacks, juice, etc. and the fragrance of wine fills the store I'm in and I'm wondering if I'm trippin off of how bad I want a drink. Turns out some idiot broke an entire bottle of wine near the cash register, so I had to pay there, with wine literally at my feet. I haven't wanted a drink this bad in such a long time. So i ate, took a nap and then headed out to our plans(meeting my wife's cousin she hadn't seen since she was like 5-6, so like over 20 yrs) It was a great time and when they mentioned getting drinks later on and I got weird about things, without mentioning I was in recovery, it was just a bar that mainly served, specialty sodas and juices. SO that made me feel good and was a great way to end a horrible day.
My wife was saying those two days she could tell I was on the verge of losing it, just flipping out, and that was something she hadn't seen in a minute.
What's everyone holidays looking like?
I'm doing christmas with my parents and sometime in January we'll be meeting with my wifes to celebrate(kinda a new tradition, since we are all spread out) The only hiccup with that is the whole situation with my SIL since we do a gift exchange also through amazon wish list. I didn't really feel like getting her anything last year and didn't feel like it this year, since I don't consider herself family, let alone a friend. SO I wrote her that she doesn't have to get me a gift as I didn't plan on getting her one and din't really feel like being phony and talking to her or interacting with her. I think it's important, that people(especially the family) see the disconnect, because she be trying to be phony and ham it up with me, when everyone knows how I feel.
Just shedding the dead weight off
