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I know I'll get some good advice here so let me go.
I've always been the good girl. Went to church twice a week and I lived doing the right thing. Not once in my life have I ever led a man on or lied to him. I was either home, at school, with my family or friends, or I was with him. I'm also not a superficial broad. I wanted smart men over athletic. I chose family oriented over other types. Honestly and truly. I also waited in choosing them to see that they were that way. I'm 26 and have dated only 4 men. Had a long term relationship with one and was intimate with one. I waited until I was an adult to start seeing men.
The things that ended those relationships were lies. Smart men do cheat and just because a man looks after his mother and takes care of her doesn't mean that he will be faithful. I've had men I loved look me in the face and tell me boldfaced lies when I knew the truth. Even when I told them I knew. They would even lie to the point of twisting things around on me. Again, not superficial but I'm athletic, in shape, and I'm a pretty girl. I'm not risqué but I think of myself as sexy. I've dated overweight, nerdy, and shy. That's what I chose.
I'm not saying I would sleep with multiple men at once. I'm just never going to have eyes for one again. I'm just going to always be that person with someone else lined up. It's too much time and energy wasted in the end to be alone and feeling the way that I do. It's really hard to care at this point when you see men as threats. Instead of feeling protected and safe, you feel like they have everything it takes to hurt you.
And this isn't the time for jokes. Idk. Maybe it is. I'm feeling some kind of way.
I'm not posting a picture.
I've always been the good girl. Went to church twice a week and I lived doing the right thing. Not once in my life have I ever led a man on or lied to him. I was either home, at school, with my family or friends, or I was with him. I'm also not a superficial broad. I wanted smart men over athletic. I chose family oriented over other types. Honestly and truly. I also waited in choosing them to see that they were that way. I'm 26 and have dated only 4 men. Had a long term relationship with one and was intimate with one. I waited until I was an adult to start seeing men.
The things that ended those relationships were lies. Smart men do cheat and just because a man looks after his mother and takes care of her doesn't mean that he will be faithful. I've had men I loved look me in the face and tell me boldfaced lies when I knew the truth. Even when I told them I knew. They would even lie to the point of twisting things around on me. Again, not superficial but I'm athletic, in shape, and I'm a pretty girl. I'm not risqué but I think of myself as sexy. I've dated overweight, nerdy, and shy. That's what I chose.
I'm not saying I would sleep with multiple men at once. I'm just never going to have eyes for one again. I'm just going to always be that person with someone else lined up. It's too much time and energy wasted in the end to be alone and feeling the way that I do. It's really hard to care at this point when you see men as threats. Instead of feeling protected and safe, you feel like they have everything it takes to hurt you.
And this isn't the time for jokes. Idk. Maybe it is. I'm feeling some kind of way.
I'm not posting a picture.
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