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I know NT has a leaning of pro mom f dad but hear me out
For years I felt like my mom never cared. I was an asset. Little more than a stock or bond.
She invested in me as a parent should but she treated me like a show dog, always caring about the result and not my well being.
Some of you might say F the emotions give me the cash but it doesnt workout how you think.
Especially when your mom has all the signs of a text book narcissist and borderline psychopath, it doesn't work out how you think.
It's hard. Since I felt we grew apart (aka when I developed the ability the think and she couldn't easily control me anymore) I've always been at odds with her.
She was always emotionally distant, and I wasnt used to it going into my teen years so that culminated into years of rage. That rage only subsided this past October.
And for a few months we got along great.
Then today I learned once again I was being used as pawn in her schemes.
However this time I'm not angry. I'm disappointed in myself. I let her in. Sure I kept her out behind a wall of flames but she was out regardless.
Now she's out once again and I'm comfortable with that decision.
I will always love her for what she has done for me but I can't continue to let her use me and manipulate my emotions.
I'm done.
For years I felt like my mom never cared. I was an asset. Little more than a stock or bond.
She invested in me as a parent should but she treated me like a show dog, always caring about the result and not my well being.
Some of you might say F the emotions give me the cash but it doesnt workout how you think.
Especially when your mom has all the signs of a text book narcissist and borderline psychopath, it doesn't work out how you think.
It's hard. Since I felt we grew apart (aka when I developed the ability the think and she couldn't easily control me anymore) I've always been at odds with her.
She was always emotionally distant, and I wasnt used to it going into my teen years so that culminated into years of rage. That rage only subsided this past October.
And for a few months we got along great.
Then today I learned once again I was being used as pawn in her schemes.
However this time I'm not angry. I'm disappointed in myself. I let her in. Sure I kept her out behind a wall of flames but she was out regardless.
Now she's out once again and I'm comfortable with that decision.
I will always love her for what she has done for me but I can't continue to let her use me and manipulate my emotions.
I'm done.
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