I see this crap all the time and it really makes me think...
People are depressed man... Like subconsciously she KNOWS she still thinks about you and gets mad that you were probably that guy...
Thats why I can't deal with the delusions some times... people love to lie to themselves.
In as much as ya'll justify lying to your "significant others" so they do the same in trying to get over the drama they encounter.
Sillyputty, you are absolutely right. And to an extent it gets to me too man.
I really wish she didn't go about it in that way. After the break up, I dealt with it in all the wrong ways. Drove her further away.
One night she told me she kissed a dude and I had a terrible feeling after that..
I knew she was going to turn off the rational switch which requires listening to her heart and turn on the woman switch which essentially is pretending like everything is ok for life.
A few weeks ago I was at work and so was she (she helps out her uncle in the mall I work in like once a month) and I went to the food court to get food and she was at her little incense kiosk and we got to chattin'.
She told me that she loved me, that I had a sublime side to me but then an aspect that she didn't understand, she even brought up a sexual memory which is very uncanny for an ex to do, especially a married one.
I had the smoothest line before I left that still makes me feel like it was out of a old romance movie lol.
I told her that ...over the past year I had grown colder, almost extinct of emotion and built some defenses around myself but that when I saw her eyes all of that melted away.
She insta teared. I hadn't seen her again since last night, so this topic is fitting.
To make matters worse she is my best friends Aunt, they live together. I was really close with the fam, and now I don't go there too often. I went last night to play some 3v3 Fifa, and she had a get together with her friends at the same time. She would pop in the room and dance in front of the tv in my way to distract me, at one point she even threw an empty cup at me, and also made fun of my hair lol.
The sexual tension was strong, but what really sucks is still being "in love" with each other and having to proceed like it hasn't left a thorn in your brain. Women are weird.
But that is the power of love. It is great to see someone you've been so far removed from for an extended period of time still have that love for you, even though I can not possess it, I know it is there.
I did learn a lot from all of this #$%* though.
When you are young you might think that getting laid and all of that #$%* is top priority. That is fine but just do not cheat. It hurts your partner, and in the long run it will hurt you too.
For awhile I was like !%%+ love and on that whole !%%+ #$%#%$+ mentality...but you will always find something missing.
I learned that love matures as you do.
/soft !++ rant
