Official Confessions Thread. vol: Aint had one of these in a while.

[1boredzombie]

lol @ lego hair
yo man dont kill yaselves it'll get better just get up and do something to better your situation...its never that bad
also RO RO 8 if your parents already got money man just chill and stay outta jail thats not where you wanna be go home and play need for speed cuzzin
...im a happy dude it might be the weed (only confession)

 

[ginzo]

Originally Posted by 1boredzombie

yo man dont kill yaselves it'll get better just get up and do something to better your situation...its never that bad

This.
I honestly can't see how people can think about suicide so much.
I'm not trying to front but go live in a 3rd country for a month then you'll see how good you got it.

 

[ginzo]

Originally Posted by 1boredzombie

yo man dont kill yaselves it'll get better just get up and do something to better your situation...its never that bad

This.
I honestly can't see how people can think about suicide so much.
I'm not trying to front but go live in a 3rd country for a month then you'll see how good you got it.

 

[dunknforce]

Originally Posted by Ginzo

Originally Posted by 1boredzombie

yo man dont kill yaselves it'll get better just get up and do something to better your situation...its never that bad

This.
I honestly can't see how people can think about suicide so much.
I'm not trying to front but go live in a 3rd country for a month then you'll see how good you got it.

QFMFT

 

[dunknforce]

Originally Posted by Ginzo

Originally Posted by 1boredzombie

yo man dont kill yaselves it'll get better just get up and do something to better your situation...its never that bad

This.
I honestly can't see how people can think about suicide so much.
I'm not trying to front but go live in a 3rd country for a month then you'll see how good you got it.

QFMFT

 

[jordanhead2]

- I fap.

- I think about My ex every #$!!!!* minute of every #$!!!!* day.

- I'm talking to this one girl who is at least 5 times better than my ex (both looks and brains), but yet I'm still not satisfied and mess with this JO on the side.

- I mean, we're not together, but I still feel terrible.. especially since I know shes not doing anything to hurt Me

But thru all of this, I still never stop thinking about My ex. I think I love her.

 

- My ex says she misses and wants Me back, but deep down inside of Me, I know she doesnt.

- I think about school and work everyday and stress out about petty things.

- I want to be a Pharmacist one day, but I don't see myself being dedicated to school as much as I need to be.

- I know I probably won't become a pharmacist.

 

[jordanhead2]

- I fap.

- I think about My ex every #$!!!!* minute of every #$!!!!* day.

- I'm talking to this one girl who is at least 5 times better than my ex (both looks and brains), but yet I'm still not satisfied and mess with this JO on the side.

- I mean, we're not together, but I still feel terrible.. especially since I know shes not doing anything to hurt Me

But thru all of this, I still never stop thinking about My ex. I think I love her.

 

- My ex says she misses and wants Me back, but deep down inside of Me, I know she doesnt.

- I think about school and work everyday and stress out about petty things.

- I want to be a Pharmacist one day, but I don't see myself being dedicated to school as much as I need to be.

- I know I probably won't become a pharmacist.

 

[youngtriz]

pics of the ex and current

 

[youngtriz]

pics of the ex and current

 

[ubuibeme]

Originally Posted by EkinKlat

Originally Posted by ClassicJumpMan23

my dude got lego hair

 

[ubuibeme]

Originally Posted by EkinKlat

Originally Posted by ClassicJumpMan23

my dude got lego hair

 

[mangudai954]

Son said lego hair tho

 

[mangudai954]

Son said lego hair tho

 

[tfromthe617]

had one of the worst nights of my life last night... a lot of demons inside me were unleashed... i'm feeling very disgusted with myself right now because of my actions and to top it off its my @#%%@% birthday... smh..

 

[tfromthe617]

had one of the worst nights of my life last night... a lot of demons inside me were unleashed... i'm feeling very disgusted with myself right now because of my actions and to top it off its my @#%%@% birthday... smh..

 

[ervinsb91]

Originally Posted by Tfromthe617

had one of the worst nights of my life last night... a lot of demons inside me were unleashed... i'm feeling very disgusted with myself right now because of my actions and to top it off its my @#%%@% birthday... smh..

details?

 

[ervinsb91]

Originally Posted by Tfromthe617

had one of the worst nights of my life last night... a lot of demons inside me were unleashed... i'm feeling very disgusted with myself right now because of my actions and to top it off its my @#%%@% birthday... smh..

details?

 

[unkletomcruze]

Originally Posted by ErvinSB91

Originally Posted by Tfromthe617

had one of the worst nights of my life last night... a lot of demons inside me were unleashed... i'm feeling very disgusted with myself right now because of my actions and to top it off its my @#%%@% birthday... smh..

details?

 

[unkletomcruze]

Originally Posted by ErvinSB91

Originally Posted by Tfromthe617

had one of the worst nights of my life last night... a lot of demons inside me were unleashed... i'm feeling very disgusted with myself right now because of my actions and to top it off its my @#%%@% birthday... smh..

details?

 

[tfromthe617]

ok but this about to be a !$@%#@ harry potter book here man... i've just been keeping a lot of !%!% bottled in.. i posted in this thread earlier actually that i was worried about all this !%!% erupting and i guess it happened a lot sooner than i expected

im out in italy for a week right now to visit my brother who goes to university here.. me, my mom and my brother. we had a great dinner last night and my bro told me to come out for an hour to meet his homeboy out here from the congo... i didnt really wanna go cause i was tired and we had basically traveled across italy yesterday, but my brother was telling me we would have a great time, and we were having fun for most of the night.

somewhere along the line, since we ended up staying out far longer than an hour, i just exploded with anger. the worst part is that i cant even remember why. people kept trying to calm me down and it just wasn't happening. my brothers boy was supposed to stay at his place, here with my family, but he got too scared by how i was acting. i have no idea what happened to him. i didn't hit him but i may have put my hands on him in a threatening manner because he was trying to stop me. i didnt hit my brother but i pushed him down a couple times because i wanted to be left alone and he was just trying to console me, but even with that i feel like he had a selfish motive behind it. i've always resented my brother a little bit because of little things he did when we were younger that resonated with me. we got back to his place somehow and i *#@%%+# destroyed his apartment.. i smashed the tv, broke glasses, chairs.. there's still little pieces of glass all over his floor, i woke up with a piece of glass in my toe. i was being such an abusive person it shocks me still as i write this. i've never done anything like this before. i have a lot of pain from losing my grandparents and father in the past couple years that i NEVER talk about. i get extremely angry whenever when my mom brings up my father and i don't know why.. it hurts to hear anything about him but i've been acting like it's no big deal. while i was arguing with my brother he brought up one of my friends who was murdered a couple years ago, i don't know why but that was my cue to exit.. i left in the middle of the night with only my jeans, a shirt, and my !$@%#@ socks on.. my mom was crying and worried about me and it hurt a lot to see that even in my drunken rage.. i've done my share of dirt in my life but i this is the first time i've felt like a genuine scumbag.. i just want to go home now.. i feel like no one really understands so i don't talk about any of this but i miss my father every single day (he passed close to 4 years ago now.. its hard to believe as i type it) and my grandparents and homeboy and the other people i was close to that have passed. it always gets me angry and i don't know why.. the other thing is, i've been faaaaar more drunk than i was last night but something set me off like dynamite.. my mom is sitting in the room here right now and we've already spoken about it.. i gotta get my bro and his room mates a new tv and all that.. i'm just so disgusted with my actions i considered never drinking again, but i'm not a quitter. i'm sore as hell and my hands are in a great deal of pain. i think i lost a rosary bracelet i just bought in vatican city too.. but whatever.. i just can't believe that i would put my mother through this because nearly everything i've had to deal with, she's had to deal with as well.. i feel like my actions were the highest degree of scumbaggery. my mom has always been there for me and i knew a lot of dudes with BAD mothers, i don't take her for granted at all but i can't believe what i did..

the worst part is.. none of it helped.. i know i'm still going to go on and continue carrying these burdens silently.. i just can't, or rather won't, open up to anybody and i don't know why.. this is the most i've put into words about my feelings, ever. you guys can tell by my last post i was just speaking in generalities.. because it hurts real bad to even think about it.. i've shed about 2 or 3 tears since i woke up and that's the most i've cried since i was a young boy... i honestly think a lot of it stems from the fact that i used to be upset easily as a child and would always be told that men do not cry, men do not let these things weigh them down, men deal with their problems in silence like men and don't show emotion.. maybe i took that advice too close to heart..

this is the longest post i've ever made on NT... finally let a small piece of this out of me.. not sure how i feel though. i think when i get home i'm gonna tell my homegirl who i really trust about all this and about everything i've been feeling.. i believe she cares and has love for me so we'll see what happens when i vocalize all these thoughts.. my head is really starting to hurt right now.. i hope that, if anything, anyone who reads this will show their family a little more love during these holidays..

anyway.. turned 22 today guys..

 

[tfromthe617]

ok but this about to be a !$@%#@ harry potter book here man... i've just been keeping a lot of !%!% bottled in.. i posted in this thread earlier actually that i was worried about all this !%!% erupting and i guess it happened a lot sooner than i expected

im out in italy for a week right now to visit my brother who goes to university here.. me, my mom and my brother. we had a great dinner last night and my bro told me to come out for an hour to meet his homeboy out here from the congo... i didnt really wanna go cause i was tired and we had basically traveled across italy yesterday, but my brother was telling me we would have a great time, and we were having fun for most of the night.

somewhere along the line, since we ended up staying out far longer than an hour, i just exploded with anger. the worst part is that i cant even remember why. people kept trying to calm me down and it just wasn't happening. my brothers boy was supposed to stay at his place, here with my family, but he got too scared by how i was acting. i have no idea what happened to him. i didn't hit him but i may have put my hands on him in a threatening manner because he was trying to stop me. i didnt hit my brother but i pushed him down a couple times because i wanted to be left alone and he was just trying to console me, but even with that i feel like he had a selfish motive behind it. i've always resented my brother a little bit because of little things he did when we were younger that resonated with me. we got back to his place somehow and i *#@%%+# destroyed his apartment.. i smashed the tv, broke glasses, chairs.. there's still little pieces of glass all over his floor, i woke up with a piece of glass in my toe. i was being such an abusive person it shocks me still as i write this. i've never done anything like this before. i have a lot of pain from losing my grandparents and father in the past couple years that i NEVER talk about. i get extremely angry whenever when my mom brings up my father and i don't know why.. it hurts to hear anything about him but i've been acting like it's no big deal. while i was arguing with my brother he brought up one of my friends who was murdered a couple years ago, i don't know why but that was my cue to exit.. i left in the middle of the night with only my jeans, a shirt, and my !$@%#@ socks on.. my mom was crying and worried about me and it hurt a lot to see that even in my drunken rage.. i've done my share of dirt in my life but i this is the first time i've felt like a genuine scumbag.. i just want to go home now.. i feel like no one really understands so i don't talk about any of this but i miss my father every single day (he passed close to 4 years ago now.. its hard to believe as i type it) and my grandparents and homeboy and the other people i was close to that have passed. it always gets me angry and i don't know why.. the other thing is, i've been faaaaar more drunk than i was last night but something set me off like dynamite.. my mom is sitting in the room here right now and we've already spoken about it.. i gotta get my bro and his room mates a new tv and all that.. i'm just so disgusted with my actions i considered never drinking again, but i'm not a quitter. i'm sore as hell and my hands are in a great deal of pain. i think i lost a rosary bracelet i just bought in vatican city too.. but whatever.. i just can't believe that i would put my mother through this because nearly everything i've had to deal with, she's had to deal with as well.. i feel like my actions were the highest degree of scumbaggery. my mom has always been there for me and i knew a lot of dudes with BAD mothers, i don't take her for granted at all but i can't believe what i did..

the worst part is.. none of it helped.. i know i'm still going to go on and continue carrying these burdens silently.. i just can't, or rather won't, open up to anybody and i don't know why.. this is the most i've put into words about my feelings, ever. you guys can tell by my last post i was just speaking in generalities.. because it hurts real bad to even think about it.. i've shed about 2 or 3 tears since i woke up and that's the most i've cried since i was a young boy... i honestly think a lot of it stems from the fact that i used to be upset easily as a child and would always be told that men do not cry, men do not let these things weigh them down, men deal with their problems in silence like men and don't show emotion.. maybe i took that advice too close to heart..

this is the longest post i've ever made on NT... finally let a small piece of this out of me.. not sure how i feel though. i think when i get home i'm gonna tell my homegirl who i really trust about all this and about everything i've been feeling.. i believe she cares and has love for me so we'll see what happens when i vocalize all these thoughts.. my head is really starting to hurt right now.. i hope that, if anything, anyone who reads this will show their family a little more love during these holidays..

anyway.. turned 22 today guys..

 

[mangudai954]

i feel like no one really understands so i don't talk about any of this


Feel ya. Try to stay up man.

 

[mangudai954]

i feel like no one really understands so i don't talk about any of this


Feel ya. Try to stay up man.

 

[fog raw]

^^^
Wow. Firstly, despite all that's happened, I wanna wish you a happy birthday. Also, have you thought of consulting someone? Like a psychiatrist maybe?

edit: I mean, I can only imagine what you're going through, but what you did to your own brother was inexcusable...

 

[fog raw]

^^^
Wow. Firstly, despite all that's happened, I wanna wish you a happy birthday. Also, have you thought of consulting someone? Like a psychiatrist maybe?

edit: I mean, I can only imagine what you're going through, but what you did to your own brother was inexcusable...