balloonoboy
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I haven't been in a while (two months), partly due to the snow, partly due to my job, and partly due to me. I haven't wanted to go.
I was raised baptist and would go to church every Sunday, without fail. I felt it a chore to go and it was very aversive to me. I just didn't like it. I did believe.
Somehow, between college and just learning more, I've really fell out of church. I even question my beliefs now. I'd like to consider myself agnostic, really, but there is still a part of me that truly believes and will defend it to the death. It just isn't as strong.
I think going back to church may change my outlook and attitude toward the religion, but it would probably have to be a different church. My mother gets upset, and I mean mad, when I don't choose to attend service. I don't want to have that added, undue pressure on me. I'm still growing and maturing into adulthood and this can, no will, be a crucial part in that.
I just want to be in a place where I can worship without having to always look over my shoulder. It is not fun.
Currently, I question if I am a Christian and a lot of it has to do with just being out of the church so long.
Anyone feel that, since you've been gone from church for so long, you no longer consider yourself a Christian, or are not as zealous about your beliefs as before.
***This is open to all religions. I just used Christianity because that was the faith in which I was brought up.
I was raised baptist and would go to church every Sunday, without fail. I felt it a chore to go and it was very aversive to me. I just didn't like it. I did believe.
Somehow, between college and just learning more, I've really fell out of church. I even question my beliefs now. I'd like to consider myself agnostic, really, but there is still a part of me that truly believes and will defend it to the death. It just isn't as strong.
I think going back to church may change my outlook and attitude toward the religion, but it would probably have to be a different church. My mother gets upset, and I mean mad, when I don't choose to attend service. I don't want to have that added, undue pressure on me. I'm still growing and maturing into adulthood and this can, no will, be a crucial part in that.
I just want to be in a place where I can worship without having to always look over my shoulder. It is not fun.
Currently, I question if I am a Christian and a lot of it has to do with just being out of the church so long.
Anyone feel that, since you've been gone from church for so long, you no longer consider yourself a Christian, or are not as zealous about your beliefs as before.
***This is open to all religions. I just used Christianity because that was the faith in which I was brought up.